It’s been a long day. Felt like a full time teacher teaching in a secondary school. Had ALL 4 tuitions today. from morning straight till late afternoon. sigh.
Yan
Went yan’s for tuition at 9. Gave him a little test on the symbols of elements. Guess, he was rather impressed by how I could actually write down the symbols without much thinking. Just like how I was impressed by Ms Cheong back in sec school days. Haha.
In came Phyllis 1 ½ hours later. Think she’s got some problems with a school teacher. Haha. didn’t know she was attached too. 16years old. Too young for relationships? I don’t know. Perhaps the older generation would say, that’s definitely too young. Should only start dating in the university or when we start working they would recommend. But, none of us would actually give a damn. HAH!
Love
We would long to be in a relationship, puppy love, yada yada. Curious. Interested. Just wanted to taste what is ‘LOVE’ all about. How it feels like to be cared by someone else not part of the family. Wanted to know how it feels to kiss, how it feels to interlock fingers, how it feels to open up and say things we don’t say in front of our parents. How it feels, to love, and be loved. Is it too young? 16? 17? Or even 18? I don’t think so. Not saying this because I was one of the “earlier bloomers”. There are many YOUNGER ones out there! Instead, I feel that, being in a relationship makes a person grow. Spiritually, mentally and emotionally. Sometimes we fall and we get hurt. But there’s always something to bring out of it.
Be it a lesson, a virtue or life-long friends, we always tend to gain something, even though we sometimes might lose a lot in the process. Going into it early, helps us learn and understand what we really want in relationships. Also, it unravels our own flaws to ourselves. Our partners become our ‘mirrors’ and reflect our flaws. And now, I know how CMI a person I actually am. And I also know what I want. What I’m looking for. Who I’m looking for. Yes, indeed 20 years of age is so darn young to be thinking of things too serious. But, what the heck. Shoot me.
Gave Phyllis a little note book which’s gonna be her prayer book. =)
Carl
Went to carl’s after that. Started talking about her relationship problems. Sighs. Was like thinking, I’m in a fix myself. On what ground am I to give people advises? Owell, guess it’s always easy to be the one standing by the side listening and talking.
Jasmine
Then came jasmine. Did spelling with her. Was so tired by the time we started. Kept yawning. And felt really irritated when she kept mis-pronouncing “magnifying glass” as “magnet-ti-fying glass”. Managed to curb my displeasure, luckily. Guess, anger is one of my very bad points. Also, perhaps the cause of the downfall of the relationship. Sighs.
Mei
Wanted to go back home and rest up after the last tuition. Then got to realise that jenje haven’t had her meals today. Decided to drop by to bring her some food. Ended up, going to “fork & spoon” for dinner together cause she didn’t want anything soupy, anything with noodles or anything with fish. That ruled out everything I wanted to get her. Fish porridge, fish soup, fishball noodles. So off we went. Bought her some jap food at the food court. Not too bad for her throat I think. Glad to see her better than yesterday though. Guess the medi’s actually working. And I had a slice of watermelon as I watched her finish her food. She was wearing jess’s slippers. The pair we bought together at TPY central. Memories flooded in again.
Started to feel kinda down. And guess it showed all over my face.
“Gor, you feeling okay?”
“yup! *tried to fake a smile* why? Haha..”
“I think you think too much gor..”
“haha.. don’t be silly you piggie..”
“Gor, I know what you are thinking about. Just dream. They come true!”
*stunned*
“haha.. okay..”
I was shocked. But, she might not be talking about what I was thinking. Didn’t wanted to go any further in that conversation. Started talking about her Judo classes. Nonetheless, guess, she’s another fairy tale believer. Sometimes, I feel it would be easier to be her gor and help her, if she’s not jenjera. Haha. what crap am I talking about? Sigh.
拿得起要放得下。
地球不会为了我们而停至旋转，
世界每一秒都不断地在改变。
她再爱， 是迟早的事。
而我却还在默默地盼望与祈祷
希望有奇迹会出现。
这是何等的愚蠢?
可能我在逃避。 可能她真的死心了。
这是我一厢情愿吗？
不时， 还会想起她。
那感觉，是多么的寒酸和辛苦。
有时， 那就好比心如刀割。
眼泪还是会再堕落。
记忆还是会再在脑海里盘旋。
我还需要很多的时间来振作自己。
就可能到她再爱的那一天，
我想，我很不可能放弃一切的希望。
而我还会天天地为她祷告。
因为，我拿起了，根本就放不下。
Yan
Went yan’s for tuition at 9. Gave him a little test on the symbols of elements. Guess, he was rather impressed by how I could actually write down the symbols without much thinking. Just like how I was impressed by Ms Cheong back in sec school days. Haha.
In came Phyllis 1 ½ hours later. Think she’s got some problems with a school teacher. Haha. didn’t know she was attached too. 16years old. Too young for relationships? I don’t know. Perhaps the older generation would say, that’s definitely too young. Should only start dating in the university or when we start working they would recommend. But, none of us would actually give a damn. HAH!
Love
We would long to be in a relationship, puppy love, yada yada. Curious. Interested. Just wanted to taste what is ‘LOVE’ all about. How it feels like to be cared by someone else not part of the family. Wanted to know how it feels to kiss, how it feels to interlock fingers, how it feels to open up and say things we don’t say in front of our parents. How it feels, to love, and be loved. Is it too young? 16? 17? Or even 18? I don’t think so. Not saying this because I was one of the “earlier bloomers”. There are many YOUNGER ones out there! Instead, I feel that, being in a relationship makes a person grow. Spiritually, mentally and emotionally. Sometimes we fall and we get hurt. But there’s always something to bring out of it.
Be it a lesson, a virtue or life-long friends, we always tend to gain something, even though we sometimes might lose a lot in the process. Going into it early, helps us learn and understand what we really want in relationships. Also, it unravels our own flaws to ourselves. Our partners become our ‘mirrors’ and reflect our flaws. And now, I know how CMI a person I actually am. And I also know what I want. What I’m looking for. Who I’m looking for. Yes, indeed 20 years of age is so darn young to be thinking of things too serious. But, what the heck. Shoot me.
Gave Phyllis a little note book which’s gonna be her prayer book. =)
Carl
Went to carl’s after that. Started talking about her relationship problems. Sighs. Was like thinking, I’m in a fix myself. On what ground am I to give people advises? Owell, guess it’s always easy to be the one standing by the side listening and talking.
Jasmine
Then came jasmine. Did spelling with her. Was so tired by the time we started. Kept yawning. And felt really irritated when she kept mis-pronouncing “magnifying glass” as “magnet-ti-fying glass”. Managed to curb my displeasure, luckily. Guess, anger is one of my very bad points. Also, perhaps the cause of the downfall of the relationship. Sighs.
Mei
Wanted to go back home and rest up after the last tuition. Then got to realise that jenje haven’t had her meals today. Decided to drop by to bring her some food. Ended up, going to “fork & spoon” for dinner together cause she didn’t want anything soupy, anything with noodles or anything with fish. That ruled out everything I wanted to get her. Fish porridge, fish soup, fishball noodles. So off we went. Bought her some jap food at the food court. Not too bad for her throat I think. Glad to see her better than yesterday though. Guess the medi’s actually working. And I had a slice of watermelon as I watched her finish her food. She was wearing jess’s slippers. The pair we bought together at TPY central. Memories flooded in again.
Started to feel kinda down. And guess it showed all over my face.
“Gor, you feeling okay?”
“yup! *tried to fake a smile* why? Haha..”
“I think you think too much gor..”
“haha.. don’t be silly you piggie..”
“Gor, I know what you are thinking about. Just dream. They come true!”
*stunned*
“haha.. okay..”
I was shocked. But, she might not be talking about what I was thinking. Didn’t wanted to go any further in that conversation. Started talking about her Judo classes. Nonetheless, guess, she’s another fairy tale believer. Sometimes, I feel it would be easier to be her gor and help her, if she’s not jenjera. Haha. what crap am I talking about? Sigh.
拿得起要放得下。
地球不会为了我们而停至旋转，
世界每一秒都不断地在改变。
她再爱， 是迟早的事。
而我却还在默默地盼望与祈祷
希望有奇迹会出现。
这是何等的愚蠢?
可能我在逃避。 可能她真的死心了。
这是我一厢情愿吗？
不时， 还会想起她。
那感觉，是多么的寒酸和辛苦。
有时， 那就好比心如刀割。
眼泪还是会再堕落。
记忆还是会再在脑海里盘旋。
我还需要很多的时间来振作自己。
就可能到她再爱的那一天，
我想，我很不可能放弃一切的希望。
而我还会天天地为她祷告。
因为，我拿起了，根本就放不下。
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