i'm not alone

been praying to God for help.. to help me everyway possible.. if He would, remove the pain that i'm suffering.. carry me on His shoulders.. deliver me from evil and stop this mental torment i'm going through..

and, God being the most loving and merciful, gave me my friends.. i felt loved today, i felt being cared.. not the romantic love which i've lost, but, friendships and companions and brothers & sisters... indeed, its a HUGE gap that i've got to fill up.. but, i know as long as i trust in Him and have faith, all is well.. =)

just maybe, one day, that huge piece of me which i've lost might come back again.. well, that's my best case scenario, but it seems that i've got absolutely no confidence in myself for that to happen0.. perhaps i wasn't good enough in the first place.. just praying and leaving everything to Him now.. the ball is under her feet.. not mine.. *smile*

basketball!
played basketball in the morning once again played with tian.. the court was empty cause SCHOOL REOPENED! thanks tian, for accompanying me.. even when you slept so late, and waking up at 4 to watch the Man Utd vs Arsenal match which wasn't supposed to be televised yesterday! haha.. thanks for being there all these while.. just, listening to my sorrows and see me sob and putting a pat on my shoulder.. it was fun today.. really.. thank you so much!

oh, heard you wanted to beat me the next time you play 1on1 basketball with me? haha.. i'll consider letting you win la.. all you have to do is say 'please...' heheh.. *bleah*

shopping/lunch/chit-chat
went to j8 to have lunch with hoon and PE.. ber supposed to come too.. but, guess she's too tired.. hope she's doing fine.. will be praying for her..

walked around j8 alone cause PE was late and Hoon's interview ended at 1130 when we were supposed to meet at, erm, 1130.. HOON! i've got confidence you'll get your exchange programme.. no worries about it! haha.. its this gut feelin that i have.. and, my gut feeling never fails me.. =)

saw shirts at U2 which i thought were nice.. they were on 40% discount.. just that we cannot bring back for exchange and refund.. haha.. once sold, considered sold.. haha.. when PE came, asked her which shirts were nice.. bought 2 shirts from U2 for dad.. one checkered red, the other blue.. think i look quite okay in them, but its for dad.. too bad.. haha.. maybe can 'share' with him? usurp them.. *evil thoughts*

bought another shirt from seiyu.. red.. dad didn't really like it, but owell.. he's got to wear it one day.. was contemplating between red, blue and yellow.. ended up choosing red cause, PE thought the yellow was very puah peh(sick) looking.. and the blue was rather hard to match.. haha.. its always good to have girls around when we're shopping.. they give good, and critical comments! =)

hoon came, and we had lunch at the food court.. spent another 45mins sitting there talking about our sec school days after finishing our food.. haha.. awesome.. hoon's trying to recall what happened during her sec 3&4 days.. she's got totally no memories of them.. incredible! was thinking maybe because she wasn't feeling really that good during that time.. that's why.. and, we all realised that we LURVE our sec 2 days.. still remembered all the fun things we used to do together.. and having 8 prefects in that class.. fond memories! if only we could turn back time, and be young once again.. came a point that hoon was saying that i was rather 'garang' during sec 2.. more like 'angry juvenile' i think.. picking fights with you-know-who(coward cum talk big only).. woops.. i shouldnt' be saying bad things, but, i'm not saying who right? owell..

so gonna miss this kind of lunch sessions when everyone's school reopens.. sigh.. gonna miss your company.. all the best anyway! esp hoon! haha.. eh, can try to miss me not argh? haha..

prayer book
went to popular to buy a little note book.. this book's gonna be my prayer book.. want to write down in it everything that i've got to pray.. so many things in my head.. can't remember them all.. using this book.. yups..

guitar
played the guitar after coming home.. the more i played, the more i think my singing's like crooning.. ARGH! need to attend some singing lessons.. hmm.. maybe i can start doing that.. hahah.. been trying to play 'come home soon' by SHEdaisy and 'bizzare love' by frente.. don't know why wanted to play these songs.. they are sad songs, but.. in no mood to play nice songs.. guess, they very much express how i'm feeling now.. and, what i'm thinking of.. yeaps.. especially 'come home soon'..

exercise/ dinner w tj
its a blessing to lose 8kg in 2 weeks.. to a certain extent.. felt that i should keep my weight down.. so went to play ball again.. and actually wanted to go swimming w tj.. ended up, after playing ball, i walked down to the pool from whitley, then jogged back home.. not bad.. that was at least 1+km? haha.. with my big bag of swimming stuff and basketball.. cause tj had to do some bidding tonight, so just met her up for dinner.. rushed home to shower and change.. went for qiu lian ban mian at s11, bishan.. talked about uni stuff, and crapped about somethings else..

she can be so crappy at times.. haha.. cool to have a sister like her! =) God bless you, and hope that you'll find the courage to solve your problems sister.. have faith in Him! sister, check these out..

"they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." Isiah 40:31

"rejoice in hope, be patient in tribultation, be constant in prayer" Romans 12:12

"endurance produces character. and character produces hope." Romans 5:4

jenje msged
its the 1st day of school.. jenje msged to tell me how it was.. she seems to be having fun.. happy for her.. kept complaining that balestier hill's too big, too slopey.. haha.. i was like, its a HILL! said that her class's really quiet and shy.. guess, can't be expecting too much from a bunch of 13year olds, their 1st day in sec school? haha.. certainly pray that she'll do well for her sec school.. =)

still missing her
well, finding it hard at times not to think of her.. every corner triggers memories.. its hard, but i've got to try.. move on, and just pray.. every single wretched place.. the basketball court where she used to sit by the side seeing me play.. my house where she used to have dinners with my family.. U2 where we bought my 1st flower shirt.. the swimming pool where she wore the pink bikini i bought her.. Ban mian at s11.. soya bean at prime mart.. so much.. so many things.. its so much easier to be at a whole new place, where she is now.. if only my brain works like Windows Xp which's got a recycle bin.. if only i could turn back time.. but, i'm not God.. i can only pray..

trick question!
what do you call the elbow and ankle in chinese?