remembering 2 days back, saturday, in siokhoon's car driving down braddell road.. looking at ALL the tall, HDB flats.. looking at all the vehicles on the road.. i asked myself, at this instance, how many people am i staring at now? that HDB, easily 500? the other, 300? plus the cars? so so many..
yet, each day we don't get to knock on the HDB houses and actually meet those who live there; we don't wind down our windows while on the road to talk to the motorist beside us(that's kinda dangerous la...).. so many people walking beside us each day, so many sitting with us in the same MRT train.. but, how many of them do we actually know? how many of them do we actually have affections for? so so few..
these days, after going through so much ups and downs, i get to know many things.. and today, i realise that, we do not choose who we want to meet.. God does.. some people call it fate, some people call it destiny or coincidence.. but, i believe that's what God wants..
in Genesis1:3-5 "and God said, 'let there be light,' and there was light. and God saw that light was good. and God separated the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness Night. and there was evening and there was morning, the first day."
the universe was created by God.. it didn't just come from no where.. He created everything.. He knew what was good(light), what was bad(darkness).. He created Adam, the 1st human from dust.. and made Adam in His own image.. He does miracles..
without Him, nothing we see on earth, would be what they are today.. or perhaps, there wouldn't even be earth.. it is all in His plans.. being the creator of the universe, everything comes from Him.. from landscapes like the mountains and the seas, to the smallest like cells and molecules, all comes from Him.. 6 days.. all in 6days He created..
hence, it is all in His plans, who our parents are, whether if we have brothers and sisters.. and also, who we would meet.. but, like how God has granted Adam free will, the free will to name the animals of the new created world, naming the horses "horse", the the eagles "eagle", everything..! we are given the freedom of choice too! like, how He let Eve choose and decide, whether if she should eat the fruit of wisdom of Good and Evil.. its because, He loves to see us participate.. choose what we want.. we ARE created in His glory, and for His joy.. it pleases Him..
now, the few people we call 'friends', had once crossed our paths days, months or even years ago.. it was us, with the wisdom, knowledge and courage from God, that we CHOSE to befriend that person.. like, how the 6 of us are still so closely bonded.. after so many years! so much happened during sec 3 and 4, yet now, we're still so close.. cause, we chose to BE together.. and that certainly pleases Him.. i don't think i can still stand face to face with my sec 1 class mates.. people like.. saravanan, people like, june hwa and tell him things from the bottom of my heart.. i won't be able to tell him my darkess secrets or my family issues.. perhaps, "hi! how're you? what you up to lately?" would be what i would say..
looking back, SO many people crossed my path.. but, i only have these few good friends, these few true loves.. i believed, i made the decision and God permitted.. for He did not stop me.. and i don't regret it.. perhaps, i regretted not putting in the effort to know more people, but i'm certainly glad that i have who i am with now, and certainly sure i will put in my bestest effort not to lose, any one else, that i love..
many a times, we walk pass, or cross someone's path, we would just walk pass.. without lookin at him/her.. why?
many a times, we have friends or people we truly love.. yet, we decide to let go.. and become shadows of each other.. forgetting the memories.. why?
why can't we just love, and hold on to what we used to cherish? because, we CHOSE not to.. for whatever mistakes we make, God forgives.. 1John9: "if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." from mistakes that we make, we learn.. and become a better person.. this could possibly be the chance for one to strengthen his/her friendships, relationships.. getting things right.. holding onto dreams.. but, sometimes, we just CHOOSE not to.. why? .....
because we're scared..
we hide.. we cry.. we turn to God.. for answers.. but, it is in His time that these answers would come.. what else can we do? but to pray, and wait.. God loves us all.. i just hope, i don't do things that i'll regret ever again.. but, i also know, that no love is greater than His love.. for now, i pray..
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