God's love

reading back on the previous entry.. realised how crappy it was.. wrote it in the midst of so much frustration.. nonetheless, was thinking about it.. makes some sense some how.. thinking back on the book, “five people you meet in heaven” by mitch albom.. perhaps, she is one of the 5 people God wants me to see when i’m dead.. the very person who has changed my life so much.. making me into another person, with different perspectives of life.. in one year, I guess, i’ve changed so so much.. its beautiful to think of it this way.. a lesson learnt, an experience gained..

yet, all these at the expense of beautiful dreams and goals.. but, who knows.. one day, might just be able to realise those dreams.. just, trust in God, as she would say.. =)

tearing so easily
went up to talk to Jolene before the M-obstacle course.. she was stoning.. wondering what’s wrong.. and her msn nick for the past few days were like.. hmmm.. ya.. so asked her how she was.. as we talked, we both told each other that we think too much.. and suggested that we stop doing that.. haha.. and we moved on to me.. was like telling her, everything happened because of my big mouth.. and hating myself for that.. she was like, “okay.. don’t think so much.. “

just suddenly, she said, “Vincent, relax! Ur eyes red red liao..”.. and she started fanning my face.. I was like.. “huh.. is it?” sigh.. why am I tearing so easily? wasn’t like that.. not at all..

tuition
tuition at bryan’s yesterday morning.. did a little math test.. he did quite alright.. just that he was kinda lazy to put in some thought for those tougher questions.. and a bit slow in doing them.. couldn’t finish the 6 questions in time.. left the rest for HW.. and he didn’t memorise his periodic table!! Argh…!

Phyllis came in half way through tuition.. good to see her again.. cute as ever.. had a really punkish hairstyle.. and she pierced her tongue!! OUCH! “didn’t hurt at all” she said.. but, still.. imagine something poking through your tongue? even being a medic seeing needles almost every other day, I get those creeps down my spine.. wonder where she got that courage from? praying that it doesn’t get infected..

helped her with her composition.. “responsibility” was the title.. helped with the introduction, and roughly went through with her how the 400word essay could go.. her responsibilities to her parents, friends, school, and God..

found her this:
Children, obey your parents in the Lord for this is right. “Honor your father and mother” (this is the 1st commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.” Ephesians 6:1-3

Orchard with jenje
YES PE! i went out with a jenje.. hee.. well, met her up for lunch cause she wanted to get a pencil case.. asked me to bring her down to Heeren’s to get the billabong pencil case.. got her a little prayer book for her.. for her to write down all the prayers she has, in case she forgets.. and got her to memorise the Lord’s prayer.. (Matthew 6:9) explained it to her, and why we say the prayer everyday if possible.. happy! teaching someone, something today! haha.. teaching/sharing is just so so fun! *grins*

went to the Turkish restaurant at Far east for lunch.. she had a sandwich and me c rice.. and took a video of her getting the ice cream.. the ice-cream guy played with her for REALLY VERY long before giving her the ice cream.. haha.. cute..!

got a crumpler pouch for myself.. 42bucks! ouch.. was contemplating between green and black.. got the black.. had a little help from jenje.. =) and she got her HUGE pencil case.. why do girls always need such a huge pencil case?


God loves me.. and all His children
God works mysteriously.. just in a matter of month, i lost someone, making me so depressed.. I still am.. but, He constantly reminds me that, He loves me.. and, His love is the greatest.. indeed, I lost a huge chunk of my heart.. but, He’s always been there for me.. helping me through this bad patch.. always reminding me that, He’s got a plan for me.. a purpose for me.. and now, I feel that, my purpose is to help the younglings under my tuition..

it came upon me that, people are looking upon me for help, for advises and a listening ear.. especially these kids.. all coming from different background, different family, facing different problems.. looking at them, kids this young, at the age of 13, planning to look for a part time job to help out with parents to settle bills and earn her own pocket money? goodness, 13! what on earth was i doing when I was 13? sitting home playing computer games everyday…?

the magnitude of the problems they face is so much for someone that age to handle.. innocent they may be, yet the world we live in this day is just so realistic and harsh.. my own problem compared to them, is just.. nothing.. God made me realise these.. He’s always there..

a couple of them got retained due to poor results, and face the possibility of being discriminated by fellow classmates.. one, lost her dad when she was really young..

i think i can help them.. with the grace, strength and wisdom from the Lord.. i hope that i can help them in everyway possible.. and, i pray that God will carry them on His shoulders as they walk these difficult paths..

she was right.. why worry about tmr? why worry if there’s still a chance? for each day has got its own worries! certainly hope that i can live by each day, remembering it.. because its difficult not to think about tmr.. nonetheless, God loves us.. God loves me.. God loves her.. so do i.. so do i..