Tuesday, January 24

Hey guys! Someone’s attached! Haha. And that person would be Siewling! Hehe. Just, want to wish her all the best. Though, we all felt that it’s kinda fast, well, just hope that you’ll be happy ya? All the best. Will pray for ya! =)

Sunday standby
Went back camp early to do a standby for the platoon. Kinda, got heated up, cause so much contraband was found. Nonetheless, was rather surprised I could actually give motivational cum disciplinary talk at the same time. Wonder where I got all the words which came out of my mouth. Hehe. =)

Worms are back!
The worms are back. Dreaded ring worms round my thigh, and up “there”. Not exactly “there” but, somewhere there. =) the worse thing is, its freakin’ itchy! URGH! That urge to reach in and scratch, (mind you, its not “there!” but still, its under the pants.. woops!) that sensation of scratching is… oomph! Pardon me if anyone feels disgusted by whatever I’m saying, but, I’m in a mood to crap, and try to make people smile.

Cause, after today’s long day in camp, I realized that it’s God’s blessing that I CAN make people smile, and laugh by doing silly stuff, saying silly things. Sighs. If only I knew Him earlier… I want to fall in love with YOU!!! Hahaha… dum dee dee dum!

IV
Well, perhaps I shouldn’t be blogging much about this. CONFIDENTIAL. But, I think it’s rather interesting. Haha.

Back in there, we teach young guys of 19-24 to be “life-savers”. You get what I’m trying to say. Haha. We teach them, to “poke” people. Set up life lines. What we call, intra-venous administration of fluids. Where we use needles to connect an external line directly to the vein, to administer medicines or fluids. Interesting huh? Its quite an uphill task for a new comer. Having to go through the trauma of actually PENETRAING someone’s skin with a needle ¾ thick of a YAKULT straw, and seeing blood flow out of it.

Yet, as time goes by, we get used to it. And things get better. Soon, we’re all trained to set up what we call ‘life-lines’ for patients. A skill that will go down with us for the rest of our lives. And no more fainting when we see blood!

And being the one teaching and supervising, I can proudly say we’re one of the better trained and experienced “shooter”. Was doing a mental count, how many times we actually helped set a “life line”, each time a new batch comes, we possibly take 200cases each person. And, we possibly take around, say, 4-5 batched at least. That’s 800-1000! Woah. How times fly when we’re in the army. Dang.

Just want to be myself
Sighs. Here comes the sad and silly part of me. Just sitting down and thinking back, for the past 20 years of my life, what have I achieved? I’m still thinking about it, and it seems that, its rather amazing, I haven't done anything AMAZING that I myself am particularly proud of. I guess, many people out there are also asking, what have I done for these 20+, 30+ years of my life? What do I really want? What's my purpose in life? What do I want to be doing, in another 20, 30 years time?

I wish that everyone finds their purpose in life.

Also, I wish that everyone get to live their dreams, and be the person they really want to be. Cause, many a times, its just so hard being oneself. So, so hard. These days, all I want to do, is to be myself. Yet, people start to doubt me. They think I’m fake. They think I’m selfish. Perhaps I really am. Maybe I’m screwed. Maybe I’m just F****D. But, I don’t care. Not anymore. Cause its so tiring. So, so tiring. Not gonna care what others say about me no more. Just perhaps, whatever is happening, is my retribution. My punishment. Just pray that it will go away soon. This pain. This horrible, horrible pain. Please go away.. *bish*

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