Atkins

Finally! My room looks like a room! Spent the morning packing it up. Left with some dusting to do. It looks so much better. Always find old stuff that brings back memories. This time, found movie stubs. It was the movie marathon we had. Haha. It’s know in the mug.

Life is beautiful! Ain’t it?

Nose is still kinda blocked. Amazing. Good progress. Judging from the fact that I didn’t take any forms of medication, my immune system is not THAT bad after all.

Okay. So there goes the 2nd last WTC meeting. Things are not done as expected. Maybe everyone’s not in the mood yet. Perhaps I haven’t been doing my job properly. Hopefully everything churns out well by the next 2 weeks. I’ve faith. =)

And yet again! I’ve been reminded that I’ve got a paunch. Fine. So that means I’m FAT. Now I’m so gonna go on Atkins. BAH!

Had zi char for dinner. 4 dishes. 37bucks. Didn’t realize that the others were sitting round the corner. Wonder what they had. Was kinda worried that the van would get a ticket for not putting the coupons. Haha. owells. Just paranoid. Don’t wanna have my clean records tarnished.

Daddy and eric’s going Genting. Too bad their driving the car. Was relishing the idea of having the car for myself over the weekends. Too bad! Urgh.

Atkins

Finally! My room looks like a room! Spent the morning packing it up. Left with some dusting to do. It looks so much better. Always find old stuff that brings back memories. This time, found movie stubs. It was the movie marathon we had. Haha. It’s know in the mug.

Life is beautiful! Ain’t it?

Nose is still kinda blocked. Amazing. Good progress. Judging from the fact that I didn’t take any forms of medication, my immune system is not THAT bad after all.

Okay. So there goes the 2nd last WTC meeting. Things are not done as expected. Maybe everyone’s not in the mood yet. Perhaps I haven’t been doing my job properly. Hopefully everything churns out well by the next 2 weeks. I’ve faith. =)

And yet again! I’ve been reminded that I’ve got a paunch. Fine. So that means I’m FAT. Now I’m so gonna go on Atkins. BAH!

Had zi char for dinner. 4 dishes. 37bucks. Didn’t realize that the others were sitting round the corner. Wonder what they had. Was kinda worried that the van would get a ticket for not putting the coupons. Haha. owells. Just paranoid. Don’t wanna have my clean records tarnished.

Daddy and eric’s going Genting. Too bad their driving the car. Was relishing the idea of having the car for myself over the weekends. Too bad! Urgh.

Arse

Not going back for the demo tmr. My nose hasn’t been really friendly, and my left butt’s aching. And hopefully that ‘asthma’ thingy doesn’t come back. can almost feel it. Breathlessness, bla bla. Sucks.

Had quite a lot to eat today. Dang. SIN!!

Thought that the meat ball sandwich at Subs was good. And green-tea blended from Starbucks rocks! The company was great. Wonderful people. Funny topics we talked about. WERID but funny.

WTC meeting’s up tmr. Hoon’s bday dinner on sat. Tuition marathon on Sunday. It’s packed. Just the way I like it. HOo-Ray!

Oh, it’s Arsenal vs Barcelona at the finals. Banking on Arse to win. It’s so gonna be a slap in Mr ‘cocky’ M’s face. There’s no pride when you are proud. ALL THE WAY ARSENAL!

To those people who are feeling down out there… Don’t be down. Cause there’re people out there who loves you and God loves you too! Take care right? =)

Job

It’s 26th April! Ten more minutes to the 27th! Happy birthday Hoon! 2nd one to turn 21. Haha. Bet your grandma and aunties will be bugging you during the next CNY! Haha. kidding. Right. Best wishes to Hoon, may you realise all your dreams. God bless!

Sighs. Darn nose has been leaking like some broken tap. Irritating.

It’s been quite an exciting day in the sporting world. Arsenal are through to the Champions League Finals at Paris. And San Antonio Spurs pushed their match with Sacramento Kings into the extra time, by an equalizing 3pointer with 8secs left on the clock. And they won by 9 in extra period. Fantastic! How I wished I was there. Alamodome. San Antonio. Sheesh.

Can’t wait for tonight’s match to start. Oh, no. Tmr morning’s match. It’s at 2.30am. Darn tired now. But it’s a “can’t-miss” match. Think I need coffee. Need to keep awake. Dang. Barcelona and AC Milan. Fwah!

Am reading chapter Job. Read the beginning, and took a peek at the back. haha. Couldn’t wait to see what God gave Job at the end of his horrible trial. God allowed the devil to take away all of Job’s possessions; his cattle, his house, his family, everything that he loved. Yet Job constantly kept faith in the Lord.

One can draw so much inspiration from the chapter of Job in the Bible. Some might say that God overdid it. And I bet many of us would not be able to go through that kind of trials without cursing and grudging. Yet Job did it, by pure faith and love. It’s really amazing.

Oh and, God gave Job back all his possessions, and doubled them. He brought back Job’s family too. Praise Lord!

Ti-La-Mi-Su

Zoo photos.. =)

Right. The photos are kinda delayed. Heck.

Just realisd that won’t be coming back home for the next 2 days or so. Duty calls.

Did I mention earlier about the VAN incident this afternoon? Right. Drove the van out for tuition earlier in the day. All was well till when I came back home. Did a perfect parking. Shut down the engine. As I tried to restart the vehicle to shift the van a little forward, the engine couldn’t ignite! Guess what? there was a gently slope just behind the van where I parked, and the exhaust pipe got pushed into the soil.

Yeah. It was full of mud. Had to MANUALLY push the van forward and dig out the dirt from the pipe. Haha. Was laughing my head off with mum. Happened to her years back. But that time she was driving a sedan, which was even MORE embarrassing cause it is easier to judge the distance at the back in a sedan than a van.

Well, lesson learnt. Never park too near a slope. You might get stuck. =)

Went for service. In the evening, and met up with Bud after that. had dinner at the food court, and went to the Hark Music Cafe. Went to see Alvin Goh perform. Thought he was really good on the keyboards. Impressive. Doing something he likes and making money at the same time. Quite a good deal. Heard that Daisy sings there too. On Mondays. Shall drop by one fine Monday!

Oh, did I mention that I ordered this drink called Ti-la-mi-su? That was supposed to be “tiramisu and mocha”. “tiramisu and mocha” was its description at the bottom of the menu. Was expecting a “tiramisu” and a glass of “mocha”. Then, a drink came. Thought that was the mocha. Was waiting for the tiramisu to come. Little did I realise that the drink was actually a blend of both. Stupid me.

What an idiot.

Have a dental appointment tomorrow. Eek.

Donation

Drove the van around again today. starting to like bigger vehicles. Gives you this authority on the roads. Haha. Still think the manual gears are better than the autos. You don’t get lazy while driving. And it’s economically plus environmentally friendly! Makes you look cool too. Bahhaha.

Went tuition yesterday with Celest. Had only one hour of physics. She’s having this backache that seemed really bad. Couldn’t sit up for long. Said that she slept in a wrong position. Didn’t know that it can actually cause such a bad back problem. Better sleep supine next time. No more prone or semi-supine. Scary.

The reasons why Singapore is a WONDERFUL place to live in: apart from the nice food, the convenient public transport, efficiency of its people, and yada yada yada… one important thing is that we’ve got FANTASTIC Chinese sinsehs.

Right. I am not really an avid believer of Chinese medicines or medicinal practices. Didn’t really trust those herbs and acupunctures and suction cups. Well, perhaps I still have my reservations for that stuff. But I’m rather amazed by what the AMAZING guy did yesterday.

Making sound like an infatuation isn’t it? well, before my mum brought me to this Chinese guy at TPY, I was limping and my left knee couldn’t bend for more than, say, 15 degreed? I had to keep my knees unbent whenever I walked and I had never dreaded staircases so much in my life. BUT, after 15 minutes of massaging (which I thought was mindless when he was doing it) I thought Jesus had came and placed His hands on me. Well, perhaps He did! Thank Lord!

Miraculously, after 15mins of rest from the massage, which they call 推拿 , my legs could actually bend ALL the way. And the steps weren’t that treacherous.

Hope that it’ll heal REAL soon. Can’t wait to run. Argh. Still bandaged.

With my HEALED knees, rushed down to Admiralty to meet up Zhi yong, Yaoliang, Shihong, and Zhiming for the blood donation drive. It’s fun! EVERY ABLED PERSON SHOULD DO IT. It’s painless, fruitful, takes up only 15mins max, and MOST importantly, your donation of 500ml-1500ml (that’s a small amount, considering the fact that we’ve got 5-6times more amount in our body) might actually help save a life. It’s YOUR blood saving LIVES. What greater sense of satisfaction can you have than saving a life?

Owell, interested people can check out http://www.redcross.org.sg/serv_bdrp.htm and http://www.donorweb.org/mobiles/ for details. Give me a call if you want company. I am more than happy to give you the moral support! *grins*

Interview

Having an interview in 9 hours time and I’m still here. Ponders. Engineer? Teacher? Let God decide. Yeah.

1st things 1st. A HUGE “thank you” to Ding for being all so obsessed with my leg hair rather than my LEG. It’s rather comforting to know that there’re actually people out there who appreciate hairy people SO MUCH. =)

It’s been a long day. Went back to Pl Tekong. Jeremy’s turn to serve the nation. Saw him taking the oath, had lunch, and said good-bye. Aunt looked kinda upset. Guess that’s the normal reaction for all mummys. Uncle was just like dad. Haha. Holding back his emotions. Guess it runs in the family. Not for me at least. Bah!

Had a really good talk with uncle. Issues about our family that daddy and mummy didn’t tell me. Issues about my little cousin who’s taking his O levels this year. Wondering if I could be of any help. Issues about religions and life in general. Always enjoyed talking to him.

Saw some recruits bringing their girlfriends in (some had really BEAUTIFUL gfs. Makes me wonder if NS really cause relationships to falter?), saw some of them with really out-of-this-world kind of hair style, saw some of them looking utterly depresses, as though they’re attending boot camp.

Went Whitley for the Speech Day and award ceremony. Thought the march pass was kinda, hmm.. small. But the GB did impressed me with their marching. The best I would say out of all the contingents. Got a plague this time during the ceremony. Felt that the GOH’s speech was not really.. well.. suitable for the audience. He have a lovely “toy” though. A blardy red LOTUS. Argh. He’s THAT rich. And he’s got 2 other somewhere back in his garage.

Talked to Ms Chong after dinner. Got to know more about teaching as a career in Singapore. Time to put serious thoughts into this. Perhaps after the interview tomorrow.

Sentinel was good. Company was fun too. Can’t imagine someone having an affair with the 1st lady though. Eva Longoria… Fwah.

Pray that everything goes well tomorrow morning. No. It’s in another 9hours time. Should I wear a tie? Haha. Was thinking of wearing the one which the 4N2 kids got? Owells.

Dinner tonight anyone?

Roads

It sure is fun to drive down the empty streets of Singapore past midnight. The emptiness somehow reflects how busy Singapore is in the day. The roads are usually so congested, and always full of dust and noise which would never settle down till late.

The roads are so peaceful. So free. No bugging cabbies irritating the crap out of us. No public buses slowing down the traffic. No others cramming up the space.

The radio was churning late night songs at the back, and Ber was beside as we headed to Choms to meet Bud for supper. The streets were clear. No heat, no dust, no noise. Just the music. Just the night. Just the company.

I think I like that.

Relaxed. Late night. No worries. No hurries. Nothing like what usually would happen in the day. Everything goes at the pace we like. Time seemed like a toy we control with a remote, and not a manipulative mental disorder we all suffer.

The food. The ginko. The fun. The laughs.

I think I like that. Just too bad I was still limping a little. But yeah. I think I like that.

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It almost smelled like freedom. It’s something perhaps we would never dream of years back. Hitting the roads 2am, meeting up friends, doing whatever we like. No more boundaries. No strings attached. We’re fully responsible for ourselves.

Turning 21 makes me think. We’re all gonna grow up. We’re all gonna grow old. We’re all gonna grow out of the comfort zone that we are in right now. It’s where the real stuff begins huh? Uncertainty and multiple challenges lie ahead. It’s what we’ve been preparing for, for the past 2 decades. This is when falls are gonna get harder, and satisfactions are gonna get stronger.

Have you ever wondered what ‘growing’, ‘learning’ and perhaps, what is ‘life’ all about?

In years to come, we are all gonna climb the corporate ladder, and tackle the insurance policies, the family issues. And we’re sure to pay more attention to the current affairs, the world news and all the what-have-you’s. Sometimes we just pray and hope that time would turn back, don’t we? To a time when we are protected and ignorant, a time when we can always make mistakes and know that we would be forgiven for sure.

So what’s this all about? Does it feel as if we’re about to be warped into a vortex of money, sex, parties, and more money, sex and parties to you? Or are we reaching a plateau of life where the days are rituals and more rituals of work, home, dinner, sleep and work, home, dinner, sleep? A stigma where we can’t wait for public holidays to arrive when we can finally take a break?

Indeed there is much to experience in our lives. Alright. So… After the experience, after achieving what we want to achieve, then what? Find more things to do? Try and achieve more? It’s never ending.

A typical Singaporean, I see, would easily spend 40odd years working. If you’re lucky, you get a good job, you retire early. If you’re not, you would still have to work even when you’re haggard and old.

So why are we all working so hard? What are we working for?

It all boils down to survival. It’s basic instinct. To try and live as long as possible. And the next question is, “what for?”

Why do we try and work so hard each day? Why do we live? What’s our purpose in life? What is life all about? This, 70odd 80 years we have here, what is it all about? Are we all “plugged” like THE MATRIX? Or are we just another living being on this rock we call Earth, and pass away in 80years time with no traces?

Sounds like I’m all confused. Well I’m not. I know why I’m here. I know who I’m working for and what’s my purpose. But do you? What’s your purpose in life? What are you working for? Who are you working for?

Ever thought of it? Perhaps you can take a moment and think about it. God bless…

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“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only few find it.” – Matthew 7:13-14

Kopitiam

It feels weird when you actually have to limp around, and having almost EVERYONE staring at you.

Went lunch at Kopitiam. Ber, hoon and bud. Bud was kind enough to pass me the episodes of DH and drove me over for lunch. Thanks. Sat there for almost an hour and a half. Love the chats. Though they’re more or less crappy stuff.

Caught a movie with Ber. "8 under". Nice show. Kinda touching. 'Bout 8 dogs been left behind at a command post in Antarctica, and how they managed to survive till their owner comes back. Thank you bud for the ride! Saw familiar faces at J8 yet again. Think Singapore is just too small. Everywhere we go, we bound to bump into people we know. Haha.

Been a long time since I’ve had Subway. The last time was… ya. Owells. Memories flooding. Pfft. Desmond’s cute though. He looked like he’s been deprived of GOOD food for a blardy long time. Ber made it sound as if he’s been eating fried rice EVERY night for dinner. Haha.

Met up Mark back in school. Dropped by 7-11 before we went in. Said he wanted to reduce the numbers on the scales. And guess what? He had a huge cup of Coke. Hmmmm…. Haha. Did some catching up. It felt good to be back once in a while. Seeing how things develop. How’re the students. Haha. And the office politics. FANTASTIC. LURVE it.

Took ‘em for tests today. Been a while since I’ve seen them. Everyone seemed so same yet different. It’s like, it feels weird to see them again after quite some time. But once you start talking, everything just comes back. Weird huh.

Got to know that my dear Sierra Charlie Bravo had got a Christian name – Patrick. Were discussing with Mark why not Theiry or Dennis. Hope he does well for his business.

Time is passing by really quickly. Our dear Hoon and PE and Ling’s birthday are coming up. Next would be WTC. Then school will start. Everything’s taking place at a breath taking speed. It feels as though I got enlisted just yesterday.

So much as happened. Yeah. Bet I’ve said this a thousand over times. Things change so quickly. Sometimes just hope that things won’t change and stay the way it is. But usually they don’t.

We humans are supposedly the most adaptable creatures on earth, yet so many of us are afraid of changes. Afraid of uncertainties. We’re sufficient in our comfort zone. We accept changes not because we want to. But rather, many times its because we have to.

We can’t have everything our way. Can we? Haha.

But I’m sure that one day, things will go my way. =)

Touch

It’s been quite a long while since I’ve stayed home 24hours. If I recall properly, the last time was…. Hmmm... Oh dear... I can’t really remember when that was!

Been sleeping a lot. watching tonnes of videos and munching on loads of rubbish. (Quadritini is nice though. Especially the choc one) It might be a luxury to many. But it feels kinda weird not being able to walk around properly. Feel so… lame. I need to get out. Need air. Haha, SO not used to this lameness.

Oh, and a big THANK YOU to all those who’ve been nagging at me since yesterday. Thanks! Appreciate it. Well, I’m expecting some oranges if I see you guys around!

Just redid the bandage. (It’s an asset being a medic. You get to treat yourself. Just that you tend to worry more when you’re injured. The possible complications and yada yada. Bah!) Seeing the doc tomorrow morning. Should be fine I guess.

A thought came across my mind. What if I couldn’t walk for the rest of my life? What if I lose both my lower limbs due to some disease or accident? How would I take it? How different would life be?

And also, remembering a conversation with Jee the previous time. If we were all to sacrifice one of our 5 senses, which is the one you would want to keep? Perhaps an immediate and common answer would be the sense of sight? Because it’s the window to our soul and without it, we can’t do many things. Life would be so meaningless.

Well, this sound nuts, but if I were to choose, then maybe my choice would be to lose everything else but the sense of touch. I believe that it is this touch that we have, brings one person closer to another. It is the touch that can really connect heart to heart. Like how a mother hugs her child; how couples cuddle and kiss each other; like how our daddy puts his arms over our shoulder while walking down the road.

Truly, I’ve never heard of anyone losing his sense of touch due to a disease. But certainly, it’s gonna be quite traumatic if I could see the sunsets, hear people talk, smell the breeze, and taste the ice-creams, yet at the same time not able to feel the warmth of the sun and touch of my loved ones. It’s quite scary to think of not being able to actually feel your girlfriend’s kiss or hug. Freaky huh?

All these makes me sound like a real ‘touchy’ person don’t it? *blearhs* How about you? Are you a touchy person too? =)

Crack

The postcard. thanks. =)

Ouch. I can’t walk now. All thanks to Mr WM who kindly knocked me while I was sorta “flying”, trying to score a basket. Had a hard fall, landing on my left leg. And then, the knee went “crack”, and “pop”. Well, there goes the game. Only played for like, 10mins? And I’ve gotta be sent to the docs.

This is exasperating. Can’t walk, can’t run for the next 2 weeks? Or maybe even more. It’s the worst ever. It’s so… frustrating. And I’m so gonna get arthritis in the future. Bullocks.

Maybe people can start paying me visits. Haha.

Disorders

the 2nd banner. how's it? =)

Hmmm. Zoo was fun; minus the rain. =p

Been a long time since I’ve stepped foot into the Singapore Zoological Gardens. Remember starkly, the last time was in secondary school - for a community involvement project. Bah.

Oh, thanks Jinling! Thanks for the sugar rolls. =)

If ANYONE thinks Alv and I are “gay partners”, they should have seen Hong and munkay. They’re like 2 pieces of bread stuck together by strawberry jam. Sweet. Sticky. *grins*

It’s Good Friday! Sermon was good. Thought the church had more people than usual Sunday service. My wet socks were keeping me really fidgety throughout. Sighs. Think gonna miss Sunday service again. Family dinner.

Mahjong session was good. Surprisingly didn’t felt tired throughout. Thought I would be nodding my head off. Completed 3 rounds. Started at, 10? And ended at, 6? Haha. That’s a new record. Totally knocked out once back home. For 7hours straight. Had to postpone Celest’s tuition. Oops.

Think I’m developing arthritis. Wondering why joints hurt really badly when it rains. Sucks. I’m too young for this. Haha. owells.

OCB & BDD
Ever heard of Obsessive Compulsive Behavior (OCB) and Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)?

Well, OCB is an anxiety disorder that causes a person to have a recurrent thought, and makes him do certain things repetitively, for example washing of hands many times a day, cleaning the house over and over again, checking the stove many times before leaving the house, or making sure that there’s only an even number of Coke cans in the cooler. (That’s what Mr. David B. does everyday by the way.)

For people who actually suffer OCB might take an hour each day going through their rituals just to feel right.

BDD is a psychiatric disorder spreading rapidly. Statistics show that 1 in 50 suffer from BDD. People that suffer from BDD not only dislike some aspect of how they look, they're preoccupied severely with it. Most get to the point where it is very hard to go on with their normal lives without thinking the self-degrading thoughts about their flaws. The thoughts soon over take the person's mind and it is all he can think about.

The thing about it is that these ‘flaws’ that they see on themselves might not actually even exist, it might just be imaginary. They might think that the mole on their face is totally ugly, or that stretch mark on their thigh is unimaginable, or commonly, most would think that they’re too fat, when they are actually not.

My point here is, ALL of us might actually suffer certain symptoms of both OCB and BDD at certain points of our lives. If at any point we’re just obsessed at looking ourselves in the mirror, or we can’t stand our look in the mirror for no good reason, take heed that there might be something wrong. Well, perhaps it’s just a one-off kinda thing. But, perhaps, it’s just good to know.

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God bless. It’s Sunday soon. Oh, I think I’m fat. Haha!

Hankie

Right. it’s been a long 2 days. Drove mum’s van around yesterday. played ball at noon. Sun was kinda friendly at that hour. Drove to get lunch for Eric and grandma. Thought the parking went quite well. *smirk* Getting the hang of it. Just maybe driving a bit too fast. Shucks. All that mass and inertia the van experience each time it accelerates and retards makes it kinda challenging to gauge the curves and the brakes. Wonder how it would be like without the load. Would be flying I guess? Haha.

Went TPC and met up with Ding and Shel. Got the neon paint they needed for the hollaback banner. Red and orange. Bought a couple of ‘cakes’ (or what ever you call it) from Jollibean. The cheese one was good. Haha. Dragged Celest along to paint the banner. Haha. Got to know who was Chuimei. Turned down her offer $25 to tutor her at Amber Park. It’s too far off. And guess twenty five wasn’t really THAT attractive.

Owell, she DID say that now her dad’s paying her $25 to get tutored by HER sister. Alright. Getting paid to get tutored. That sounds good huh? Well, yeah. Wouldn’t mind sitting down 20hours a day getting tutored, and getting paid $25 every 60mind. That’ll be five hundred bucks. crap.

And so we started painting the banner. There you go. Was kinda distracted by the guess playing basketball. Well, ya. It’s an addiction. Joined them for like, twenty minutes? Haha.

Banner turned out fine I guess. Really stands out. The neon colour. Striking. That’s 2 banners in 2 weeks mind you. Think we’re getting pro painting banners for now. tsk tsk. And ouch. Ding plucked a hair out of my chest. Not that it was ‘ouch’-‘ouch’. It was, more like, ‘ouch’-‘huh’? Like, what the heck just happened? Someone has got to stop her. It’s kinda scary. *cold sweat*

Had Japanese with celest. Gotta know more about the Catholics. Really interesting. Got the science TYS she needed at the bookstore. Finally. Think topic by topic TYS are out of date now. no publishers seem to be printing TYS of such. Wondering why. Bought another book. “Predator” by Patricia Cornwell. That’s the, 5th, or 6th book I’ve read since December? That’s quite a feat huh? For me that is. Haven’t been reading so intensively.

Still don’t get it why she says guys who use hanker-chiefs are 死心塌地。That’s a common belief huh? Well, thing is, seldom see any guys with hankies in the streets nowadays. How’s the statistics then? Getting from bad to worse I guess? Hahah.

Got my laundry done back in camp. Dang. It had been lying there for like, almost 2 weeks. Yeah I know it’s gross.. Well, guess that’s why guess need a gf/wife huh? Not that we’re treating them as maids, but.. You know.. Ya.. Owells. Shan’t spend much effort explaining. 越描越黑。

Finally handed over the GA to song. No more responsibilities. Hahah. It’s coming soon. 29th May. Finally. After 2 traumatic 28months. It’s over. Another chapter. Another episode.

Firewall’s a good show. Thought that Ford’s getting a bit too old. Was a good show nonetheless. Just thought that he could have waited for the cops towards the end of the show. Well, perhaps he missed them too much. Owells.

Dinner with hong. Another crappy night. Wonder what goes through his head all the time. He seems to have TONNES of weird stuff to say.

Love sundaes. Strawberry sundaes rock!

It’s Good Friday tomorrow. A celebration for what Jesus had done for us. If you would, close your eyes, and say thanks to our beautiful Lord, and pray that He would bless and guide you always. May God bless all. Amen.

Urgh

What is wrong with me? Something doesn’t feel quite right. Nothing felt right. I’m feeling tired. Feeling drained. Like a part of me has been sucked away. Feeling so thin; so shallow.

If there was a reset button, yeah, I would press it. Again and again and again. Get things sorted right. Do the things I’ve always wanted. Take back words that I never meant to say; do the things regretted not doing.

I shouldn’t be entertaining such thoughts. I’m depreciating what God has done for me. Everything has happened for a reason. Everything does happen for a reason. Doesn’t it?

How wonderful it would be if one never grows up? Remaining innocent and pure till they die? How wonderful it would be if we never get to learn the harshness of life?

As days pass by, we wear out. we get torn and tattered. Everyone is in a rat race. Everyone’s trying to achieve something. How many people make their dreams? How many people fail? How many manage to live their lives they’ve wanted?

What is it that we want? What is it that makes the heart tick? What is it that our dear Father has for us? any wise men would say that it’s in His time to reveal it to us.

But why can’t I help thinking about it? Can’t stop feeling out of sorts. What’s this issue that I’m facing? An identity crisis? Another depression? Self pittance.

Life’s never been better since a long time back. I’ve got so much that many others don’t. I’m appreciative. Yes I am. Praise Lord. Amen. Yet still, something is not right. Something’s amiss.

Perhaps it’s temporary. Perhaps life is simpler. It’s not as complicated as I think it is. Just have to learn to give it all up to God. Maybe it’ll all be gone tomorrow morning when I wake. Maybe one day I might find out the answers.

I’m sorry for complaining. Forgive me. Embrace me. Take me away.

Forever

不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。

Alright. Wanted to type today’s entry using Chinese. But the Premier league highlights is starting in another 15mins. Don’t think I’ll able to finish typing before that. haha.

Well, spent 30 seconds trying to think of a translation of this phrase. Apparently I failed. All that churned out in my mind was either too broker, or too Singaporean. Oops.

Nonetheless, I’ve faith that whoever sees it understands what it means. Simple and nice huh?

For people of my generation, if I’m not wrong, you would have come across this FAMOUS phrase when you were a primary school kid. On the tele, in this Chinese commercial (it appeared on channel 5 too). It was promoting this really expensive watch. Can’t remember much. Only remember Andy Lau, a girl, an umbrella, and a watch with the words engraved on the watch back.

Everything on Earth doesn’t last like how we want them to. Everything changes at an alarming speed. The face of Earth is changing. Lives change. Perceptions change. Love changes too. Everything is so unpredictable.

That’s another reason why we should always try and enjoy each moment. Make it the best. Doesn’t matter what you are doing. Playing, studying, working, or even quarrelling with a loved one. Just soak up the moment, and live it. Because that moment might never come by again. Not that setting, not that time, not the same no more.

And once that moment pass by and turn into ‘memories’ at the back of your head, savor it as it is for you to keep forever. Be it a good one, a bad one, it’s yours.

Hence if you miss that which you have missed, or rue the chances you have lost, bear no regrets, and fret not. For the importance is in what you have experienced, and not that you cannot.

Alright. Getting cranky here. Don’t know if all these make sense. But, anyway, God bless all. Forgive me if I’ve offended you in anyway. Bless you, to whoever is reading this.

Seasick

Ice cream rocks!

Guai Lan

Guess who's who? (Alv, Hong, KW and me)

Well done guys!

Weekend was fun! Went early to Whitley to help Ding and Shel with their gymnast banner. The 1st one they did wasn't really nice. This one looks not that bad. Was in charge of “SOARING HIGH”. Can’t remember when was the last time I did a banner. Sure was fun. Sense of satisfaction. Hehe. Got a few curious stares from people walking around. In particular, Michael. Haha. Somehow, when I was painting, sensed that something/someone was behind me looking. And when I turned around, I saw him. His presence was felt.

Had a little talking session with Bud and Hong after painting. Took some photos with the banner too.

Went for tuition at Carl’s after that. She’s having difficulty with Graphs.

Celest’s after that. always enjoyed tuition with her cause it’s always so fun. Went through the Mole Concept and Stoichiometry. Everything from relative masses, to empirical formulas to ionic equations. EVERYTHING in 2 hours. Hope she could absorb every bit of information. It’s really different between the N’s and the O’s.

Met up with Derek, John and CA for dinner. Waited to visit the boys who’ve went for exploration hike earlier in the day.

Had prata (again!) at Sembawang road before dispatching to check on the boys. Talked about past scouting experience. Camping and hiking experiences.

It was a good evening, but sad thing was that all the groups were actually caught cheating for the hike. Which was kinda disappointing. Taking train, taking bus, walking on the expressways. So they had to do a big detour, which made them lose a lot of time. In the end, they turned up at their resting point, Sembawang end park at around 4-5am. They were SUPPOSED to reach there the previous night, 10-11pm. The boys looked really exhausted. The looked like they’ve just did a PSA hike. But still , after some motivational talk by the good-ol leaders, their spirits got up again, and set of the following morning at around 7am.

As for the staff, we slept over at the park. We were kinda like buffet for the dreaded mosquitoes. Legs were totally attacked. Had a bite just beside my lip too. Thank goodness for the calamine I found in the 1st aid bag. If not, we would have scratched our skin off. It rained throughout the night. Making us more susceptible to those heat seeking blood-suckers.

If we were gonna stay for another night, I thought we’ll have to get IVs to replenish our blood loss. *grins*

Went kayaking the following morning. All thanks to the blood suckers and the rain, we couldn’t really get any proper sleep. All of us (hong, kiat, john and KW) were drained. Nonetheless, met up with the 1 star wannabes at the PS train station.

Everyone seems excited to kayak. The weather was perfect. The company was right.
Oh, and thanks Shel for the doughnuts. Really thoughtful of you. But. Still kinda wondering what’s that blue and pink thing of the doughnuts. =)

Been a while since we’ve kayaked. The feeling was good. on the sea. Just paddling through. Having fun. Trying to make each other capsize. Trying out those maneuvers we learnt years back. Or just lying back on the cock pit, letting the waves rock the kayak.

It was fun with the 1 star wannabes. Especially seeing how ding and ling (haha.. ding-a-ling! Hehe..) fail to overturn their own kayaks. And when the instructor finally gave up gave them a push. Funny. How ling slipped on her butt in the toilet when shel and sling just watched and laugh. How ding got her feet stuck in the sea bed. How Howard looked like the instructor rather than a participant. How oddly ling’s face got burnt.

But as time went by, the lack of sleep caught up with me. Remembered there was a short 5-10min I fell asleep in the kayak. Got drifted away from the rest. Haha.

Ended the activity with a good wash up, and ICE CREAM! Choc chip rules!

The next activity would be at the ZOO this coming Friday. Wonder if can make it.

Cherish

I don’t understand why this “Adultfinder” service keeps sending emails to me. It’s this dating service for people who wanna find partners in their country, or even find anyone for one night stands. And the profile photos of the members are rather… explicit. Urgh.

In my opinion, using online dating service to broaden one’s social circle, make more friends, extend business contacts, or even to find love is perfectly great. But to make use of this system to hunt for casual sex, this is totally wrong. An abomination.

Perhaps SEX nowadays no longer possess the strong meaning it used to have. It’s more like an ACTIVITY now. Something like everyone does it for fun. Especially for the younger generation. OUR generation. Look at the Tammy incident. It seemed so casual. Do we not cherish our bodies like how we are supposed to be?

Marriage is a gift from God, for a married couple. It is something that only they will share, and cherish together as man and wife. It binds them together physically, emotionally and spiritually. Yet now, teenagers lose their virginity at a very young age, when ‘marriage’ might still be a faraway thought.

Whoever is reading this, if you’re actively involved in sexual activities, I strongly suggest you consider putting a stop it. Cherish it. Cherish your body. Cherish this gift given to you by God. You’ve made a mistake, it is alright. Just pray for forgiveness, and repent your mistakes. It is just not right. And at the end of the day, you might end up with more pain than you can imagine.

Take that from me. I know. God bless. Amen.

Postcard

Neo PSed today. Thought he had something for us in the WOS room. Turned out that he was only coming at 10+.

Hitched a ride from mum back home. Chatted a while. It’s fun talking to mummy. Take my hats off her. So brave. So so strong. Life’s weird huh? Sometimes we think certain people deserve better. But they don’t. Perhaps it’s not time yet.

Went jogging at noon. Had to PS Hoon on MSN for a while. Think I ran a bit too much. Legs still aching a lil’. Grandma complained to mum when I returned. Asking why I ran in the afternoon. Haha. oops.

Caught ICE AGE 2 with my Eric. Farni show. Light-hearted and a really good one if you’re feeling down. Especially that lil’ rat like animal that kept going after the apricot. Super cute.

WTC meeting after that. Lounge is a great place for the meeting. Comfortable and cosy. Thanks to Derek for booking it. Seems to me the committee is gelling. Which’s a good thing. Will see how things go at the next meeting. That’s when the real stuff comes in.

And it’s not my shirt that’s too short. It was because my jeans were too loose that it kinda slipped a bit lower. The boxer’s not red. It’s black. =p

Helping Ding and Shel with their banner tmr morning. Wonder if I can drag myself out of the bed. Tuition with Celest and Carl after that. planning to take a nap in the afternoon, then go for Saturday service. So glad that our church have got Saturday service. If not, I’ll keep missing services. ARGH! Then overnight exploration visit, and Sunday morning KAYAKING! Yeah man. Sounds good. sounds really good. and I’ll sleep in like a swine on Monday morning.

Grandma just had her cataracts removed. Her BPs kinda high. Pray that she’ll be fine.

And, lastly, thank you Ding… Really thank you for the post card. It means a lot. Really sweet of you. *hugs*

Wanna

Went dinnering with Jee yesterday night. Talked about uni stuff again. All the hype surrounding examinations and assignments. Seems really quite a handful for a uni student to handle. Well, whatever it is, God will always be with you. It’ll be over faster than you know. =)

Chatted about places we ever dreamed of going. I’ve been dreaming to go these places since a long time ago. To witness the creations of God. To see the beauty of this world. Maybe some time in the future, I’ll get the chance to.

I wanna see/visit
The Niagra falls.
Switzerland pastures. (where they make Ricola? Hehe)
Snow in Russia.
Autumn leaves in California.
The churches of Italy.
The Vatican City of Rome.
The Coasts of the Mediterranean.
Windmills in Amsterdam.

I wanna hear
Coldplay perform. (especially Yellow and Clocks. Woo-hoo)
Oasis live.
Hillsong at their church.
Jars of Clay.
Nickelback rock the house.

I wanna be at
Staples Centre to see Spurs the Lakers.
Madison Square Garden watching the match, eating popcorns.
Old Trafford to see Man Utd play.
Anfield to be part of the crowd.
Nou Camp to catch Barca vs Real Madrid
The next world cup.

I wanna
Scuba dive at the Gold Coast
Bungee jump in Holland
Enjoy the natural springs in Hokkaido
Cruise over the Pacific
Drink tea in Turkey
Shop at the “The Dubai Mall”
Walk the Great Wall

Alright. That’s the wish list for now. Wishful huh? Well, it's good to dream. =)

Shave

Coooooooooooooooool. Just applied my after shave. Shaving can be quite a troublesome ritual when you’ve got to do it everyday. Having some minor cuts near the neck. The aftershave is prickling into it. urgh.

Still remember when was younger, always wished that the hair follicles mature quickly, so I could those macho looking beard and moustache. Alright. That sounds dumb. But, anyhow, it appeared to me that having these dreaded little hair sticking out of the face is a sign of masculinity. Like a grown up. A “man”.

And true enough, my ‘wish’ came true, all thanks to the wonderful genes daddy Poh has passed down, and shrubs started growing when I was 16. Maybe the ‘tundra’ effect when I was 18. And now, it’s more like……………………. Bishan Park.

It was fun at the beginning. Fun to see to grow. Fun to touch. Gives this funny feeling when you rub against it. but then, it started getting irritating. The same old ritual almost every other day. Sucks. It gets so sickening, that sometimes you wish you could go for a permanent removal or something.

It’s no longer a macho thing. No one looks at it anyway. Some people even think that it’s disgusting and, UNHYGENIC. (Lest Ding, who seems to be in LOVE with people with hair. FUNNY.)

Someone used to tell me that it’ll take the hair longer to grow if you PLUCK it. Like how girls pluck their pits. Right? Ladies? Alright. Let me put this across to people out there who actually warrant plucking of hair. It’s MUCH MUCH more painful to pluck hair of your moustache than to pluck it off pits or brows. Well, maybe also because girls have a higher threshold of pain! (God gave you girls this gift because it’ll help when you’re giving birth. Not cause girls are better than boys. =p) And not to forget, it takes BLARDY long to pluck off Bishan park. Trust me on that.

Sucks. That’s when all the men product companies start coming up with ‘facial’ products to earn money from suckers like me.

Thing you’ll need to have a PROPER shave.

1.The shaver of course. It’ll cost around $10+ for a good one? It’ll last forever if you don’t break it, or choose to get a new one that Beckham endorses, which happen to cost 50% more than the normal ones.
2.The blades. 3 new blades cost around $12? It’ll last a month.
Shaving gel/cream. Costs around $6-8. Depending if you’re using the ‘okay’ ones or those ‘vitamin enriched ones’. It’ll probably last for a month too.
3.A basin full of warm water.
4.A mirror. (For those who still can’t shave without looking. As time pass by, it’ll be a surplus. *smirks*)
5.A bottle of aftershave. They come in all shapes and sizes and types. From cream, to lotion, to water, to gel. Purpose of aftershaves is to prevent itching, and gives you this cooling effect. Well, for the ‘shiokness’ I guess. Cheapest I can find is $6? Well, have seen those that range up to hundreds of bucks (branded stuff like CK, Hugo, blabla).

So here goes the ritual. ONLY twenty steps.

1.Wash face warm water. Helps open up the pores, for a better shave.
2.Open cap of shaving gel/cream, squeeze desired amount on hand and apply onto areas that’s gonna be shaved. It’ll turn into foam once in contact with skin.
3.Attach blade to shaver. Rinse blade in the water (hygiene purpose. Duh.)
4.Look into the mirror.
5.Aim
6.And shave.
7.Always bearing in mind NEVER to go parallel with the blades. It’ll cut.
8.Also be careful with those pimples. You don’t wanna shave it off. OUCH. Yeah.
9.Rinse head once it’s covered with the foam.
10.Continue shaving.
11.Once done, check if everything is a-okay.
12.If unsure, ask mummy/girlfriend/wife to check for you. They might even offer help to do the finishing touches for you if you’re lucky. (well, they might screw it up for you if you’re unlucky. And I mean MAJOR screw up. Trust me. I know.)
13.Rinse off the remaining foam off your face.
14.Look in the mirror.
15.Admire your cleanly shaven face.
16.Smile.
17.Thank God that nothing happened to your beautiful face when you were shaving. (don’t blame Him if your mummy/girlfriend/wife happen to screw it up for you. Bad luck.)
18.Get the bottle of aftershave, pour some onto your dry palms, and apply it onto the shaved areas.
19.Let it settle, and enjoy the sensations. BRRRRRRRRRRRRR cool. (remember the movie Home Alone? When the lil’ kid applied that lotion on his face after his bath and he screamed his lungs out? Yeah. That’s aftershave.)
20.Wash the remaining aftershave off your hand, drain the basin of water away, and dry your hands. Exit the toilet.

Alright. I’ve got NO idea why am I typing all these. Craps. Have a good day. God bless.

Bday21

Thanks peeps.

Collated by Ber. Appreciate it! =)

Prata

Just back from prata. Thomson prata. The one which was supposed to be 24hours according to Weihong. Still remember when we were sec 3. Alvin and I stayed over at hong’s to prepare for the following day’s emceeing of the campfire. Trekked from his place to the prata shop 2am, and realised that it was closed. 24hours huh?

Nasi briyani was nice. Prata was sinful. Still think the mushroom prata bud had was overpriced. For half a dollar more he could have got the briyani. Ginger tea was a bit too spicy. Well, think prata is one the really nice delicacies in Singapore, and one food you can't find in many OTHER countries. WHAT A BLESSING! hehe.

Seriously apologize to those on MSN, wondering where on earth I was when I said I’ll ‘brb’. *kowtow*

Had my body check up done earlier today. The numbers were fine. BP was good. I expected a higher BP. I’m still stunned at 175cm. Pulse at rest is 55/min. And amazingly the weighing balance figured 69.1kg when I stood on it. Alright. Pleasant surprised. That’s a 5kg drop. But suspecting that there’s something wrong with the balance. Still looking fat. Urgh. Yups. Anyhow, everything is fine. Fighting fit, and all set and ready for reservist……………………………….. *SIGHS*

Just recalled that Weihong was saying days back that he missed Hoon’s car rides. It is one of his most SHIOK rides he ever had in his life. So Hoon, hmmm.. I guess you’ll take it as a compliment? Haha.

Hahah. Where was I? Yes yes. Had tuition with Carl today. Her right eye was swollen. Think it’s an infection or something. Kept complaining her eye pain and couldn’t really concentrate on her work. Only managed to go through 2 graph questions with her in that 90mins. Could have done more. Owell. Dropping by again on Saturday I guess. She need more practice.

Chatted with jee on the phone. Is uni life really THAT hectic? Like, assignments, projects, exams and more assignments, projects and exams??? Sheesh! Wondering what’s in for me in uni. Meeting her for dinner tmr. will be meeting Mrkus after that. Gonna see what’s up Neo’s sleeves coming Friday morning.

Can’t wait till the next time we play ball again. Record was 10 consecutive free throws. 32 out of 50 shot made. That’s quite a feat. *grins proudly*

And hoon, nice effort for trying to antagonizing me. You were already on the losing end when you started it. *bleah* AND, “photo whore” sounds really, utterly disgusting.

Karma

Fell asleep on Sunday night while watching 8legged freaks in the bunk. Hadn't had the strength to for service..sigh.. Guilty. Won't be able to make it again next week. Have to go for morning service I guess. Slept like I've been deprived of it for DAYS. Macs with Phyllis and Bryan in the afternoon was fun. With yan trying to eek us out by enlarging his nostrils. It was so BIG that he could stuff his thumb in. *eek*

Monday had been alright. Monitored them doing IVs. As time goes by, it seems that setting up lines no is no longer a difficult task. So much so that we might even think that we could do it with one eye closed. *smirk*

Had a talk with Tang. Someone has to talk to him. About the way he was talking to others. Hope he understands what I was trying to say. Don’t him to jeopardize his relationships with the rest of the people. Perhaps it’s just a case of insensitivity. Oh wells.

Went gyming and jogging in the night. Started at 8. Didn’t took notice of the time. Went back bunk and realised it was already 10.30pm. dang. Knocked out at 11+, all the way till 7. Supposed to meet bud at the gate for dental appointment.

Met him and headed the med centre. His appointment was at 8, mine at 9. Ended up I went in 1st. pull strings. Hehe. Well, it’s good to know people around I guess. Haha. You tend to get a bit more of privileges. Tsk tsk. Have got an referral to get my wisdom tooth extracted. Well, was glad that the dentist said that the general condition of my teeth is good. Just have to floss more and get that smart ass extracted.

Saw a lot of ex-trainees today. All said ‘hi’ as they walked by. Felt good. You know. That kinda feeling. People call it the sense of satisfaction. Can I live on this sense of satisfaction? For live? Is it good enough for me? Or are there other plans for me? *sighs*

Hmm. Vendetta was great. Great movie. Just everything about it was great. The action, the plot, suspense and the tinge of romance in it. Just great for a buddy hang out. caught the movie with bud and hong. As usual, hong made an ass out of himself. Never failing to make us go crazy and exasperated. Especially that sarcastic laughter he made just outside the life. Made all of us broke out in laughter. Everyone one else were staring and we had to cover our big gaps. Thanks weihong.

Mince pork noodles was good. Gelare was not that bad either. One thing’s for sure: won’t be having the waffles on any other days other than Tuesdays. Cause Tuesday’s half-price day. =) yum!

Till next Monday. Meeting up to formalize the stuff for Myanmar. Going overseas again! Haha. Wondering when would I ever be able to go out of SEasia. When would I ever start visiting the states, the European countries, African nations, Oceania states, Mediterranean, bla bla.

Anyway, thanks jee! For the shirt. =) It fit snuggly. Just nice for the rainy weathers these days.

Karma
Was thinking about what PE said the other day when she came over. Is there really such a thing called ‘karma’?

Found the definition of ‘karma’ from dictionary.com : The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.

Hahas. So what’s that supposed to mean? Well, were talking about breaking ups. It’s pure coincidence, I strongly believe. But are there any logical explanations behind?

It’s about how one person breaks up with his/her partner, and then subsequently, his/her next partner breaks up with him. It’s really.. Coincidental isn’t it? It’s almost like… REVENGE.

Sounds like it. Feels like it. Do we deserve it? I don’t know. Everyone seems to be a victim of this ‘karma’. And that feeling sucks.

Months have passed. Almost half a year. Lives move on and perspectives have changed. Wondering how you are? Just this time last year, things have been so much different. And now, how strangers have we turned out to be?

Still thinking what went wrong. What happened? I still don’t know. It’s like a shadow I can’t out grow. Certainly we’ve moved on. But as we look back, we ask ourselves, what have we missed? Perhaps it was for the good. Yeah. For the good I believe.

Perhaps someone has stolen your heart again; someone standing beside you now. Doesn’t matter to me anymore, does it? To say my heart has died, I’ll be lying. To say that all love is lost, I can’t. But life goes on, doesn’t it? Everyone says so. But no one knows how it feels. So much shared, so much loved. So much lost, so much pity.

Just thank God everything’s going on fine now. Don’t know what’s going to happen in the future. Maybe just know that there’s still someone here praying, for you. Perhaps thinking of you too.

Yum.

Ling and PE. Sweet.

Ber and I. Erms.

Vikings

Alright. I’m super sleepy now. Have to keep my eye opened till 2pm when tuition starts. After which, service, then back to camp. Guess I’ll be sleeping all the way till tomorrow morning. Let’s see what my puny brain churn out in ‘standby mode’. Hmms.

Friday Vikings
Met up with Zhiyong after work. Overslept on the bus. Haven’t been sleeping right the past few days. Sleeping at 3am, waking at 6. hmms.

Headed down to J8 after that. PE, ling and ber. Too bad hoon and bud couldn’t make it. had a helluva cranky-crappy time. Contemplated the 50% off cakes. Took a darn long time to decide. Ended up with Viking’s on the Rocks. 10scoops. The one jess and I had quite a long time back. they were wondering if we could finish all 10scoops. Was thinking, if the 2 of us could finish, I don’t see why you 3 can’t beat jess. (but come to think of it, she ate like, 6-7 scoops that night. Oops.) true enough, we finished it with much delight.

Had been a crappy night. Discussions about our beloved hoon’s bday prezzies were made. Exciting ideas were suggested. Well, just have to put them in action I guess?

Talked about tampons and vibrators. And our oh-so-innocent were strangers to both of them. Tsk tsk. And ber, you don’t stick the vibrator in I think. Yups. I think it hurts? Well, let me know when you know ya? *winks*

Was a really comfy evening. Enjoyment to the max. Thanks girls.

Hong’s
Went hong’s after Vikings. Supposed to play Playstation2. but Maurice had the console but wasn’t there yet. Sat on his bed, watching him chat on MSN. It was the S-L-O-W-E-S-T chat I’ve EVER seen. Can’t blame him. Not accustomed to the keyboard yet. But still, I feel an attempt should be make to type with all 10 available fingers, instead of typing like a praying mantis- typing with index fingers ONLY.

Slept on his floor after the games. Body felt cranky after waking up the following morning.

Lazy
Decided to stay home on Saturday morning. Did some surfing, static exercises, just simply relaxing at home. Resisted the urge to sleep. cause I know I would knock out all the way, and would probably miss out the Rover’s dinner in the evening.

Watched GOAL on the comp. about this kid from Mexico, who went to LA, then to Newcastle FC to live his life as a professional soccer player. A good recommendation for those who appreciates soccer/football. Inspirational and motivating.

Dreams can be fulfilled. Be diligent, pray, and seize the opportunity whenever possible.

Dinner
Had dinner at this really cool place. Alexandra road. Really nice chill out place. Shall propose the 6ist go down there one of these days. After the girls’ examinations. Yups. Food is good, ambience is reasonably chill. Have to figure out how to drive there. But if I’m not wrong 166 and 57 gets there. yups. Any takers?

Had fish and chips. Derek and meiding had some chicken thingy. Jesper ordered some beer butt chicken which took 1 hour to prepare. The rest had ribs, and burgers.

Sitting amongst them makes me realise that time is slipping by really quickly and quietly. These guys were only 17. ALL of them except Derek. Old man. Old old man.

Mahjong
Had overnight mahjong at CA’s place. Derek, meiding, and Jonathan. Played 2 rounds. Session ended at 6am. Napped for 1 hour. Went mac’s for breakfast. CA’s treat. Ha.

Alright. Didn’t know that she’s SOO weird. Ding added 12packets of pepper to her hashbrown, and 16packs to her omelet. We were stunned. And kindly rejected her offer for a bite of her ‘spiced-up’ breakfast. Sheesh. Wonder how it tastes like. Thought weihong was bad. Think again.

Home
So here I am. It’s only 1211pm. Only 20mins passed? Gosh. What should I do? I can’t read now. I’d most probably fall asleep.

Sighs. Why haven’t I seen them hold hands before? Why haven’t I see them say ‘I love you’ to each other? Why haven’t I seen them behave like a couple before? Not in my entire life. Maybe they did. Maybe I forgot. Why are men like that? Why are men so superficial? Are we all so fucked-up?

This is home. The place I am supposed to sleep every night. The place where one would feel safe, complete and happy. Yet why am I constantly seeking comfort elsewhere? I find if so hard to honour them. So so hard.

No one person understood these crap. No one to share the pain with. No one knew. The one who knew left. Hell.

And hoon, I can’t deny it was physical attraction. But I can tell you it was more of an intellectual, emotional click. Yups.