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Thank you jee! Sorry for the trouble. Thanks for helping settle all those admin stuff for me. oh, and thanks for the shirt too! =) love it. *grins*

Drove jee to NUS today. 1st time driving down Bt Timah. Haha. Been down that road so many times on a bus. Never had I drove down before. Long straight road. Guess speeding is kinda unavoidable. Tsk tsk. Oops.

Find this photo amusing. *laughters* Lick if off! =P later!

My way

To all my friends out there, who are somewhat troubled by something or another, always remember these are just stumbling blocks of life. When times get hard, we suffer for that moment, but always remember though we might emerge from the situation battered and bruised; we also always emerge as victors with a stronger and tested character.

For those waiting for answers, do your best, and let God do the rest. No matter what happens, you know you’ve already done your utmost.

For those who are poised to make decisions, do so without regrets. You only live once. If it’s your chance, take it. Don’t lose it. Coz’ you might just live to regret it.

Life might not be as fairy tale as we always hoped it would be. But fret not, for there’s always a rainbow after the rain. Things will go our way one day.



Things Will Go My Way - The Calling

I came to tell you
How it all began
Nothing seems to work out right
I'm broken down again

So hold me now
And say it's not forever
Maybe someday in time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way

I've pushed to get through
The crowds in twisted souls
Just to find I'm right back here
Doing what I'm told

So take my hands
Don't let me surrender
'Cuz maybe someday
Yeah, in time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way

For all the lies I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
Well what am I to do?

When everything's against me
The answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out
It was worth it all along

So hold me now
And say it's not forever

Maybe someday in time
Things will go my way

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Ache

And so it goes. My 1st TKD lesson. Since what, 4years back?

My legs are aching now. Hamstring, calf. Even the toe muscles are achy. Same goes for my glutious maximus (that’s the butt muscle). Haven’t had such intensive lower limb training for such a long time.

Got the kicks back again. Still can’t do proper side kicks. Ain’t flexible enough. Apart from that, the other kicks were fine. Rather impressed by the ‘combo kicks’. Stuff like turning kick followed by double turning and a back thrust. The adrenaline was pumping as I hit the targets. All the thumping sound the kicks made. A great way to vent all the frustrations inside.

Still, wondering if I should regularly train and go for the final grading which I failed years back. The environment wasn’t really conducive. If I were to remember all the grading patterns, I would be bothering Derek a lot. It might hinder his training. Ponders.

Meeting up jee tmr to settle some Nus application stuff. Still wondering what course should I take? What is it that I want? Sucks.

Came across dingyi’s blog. She likes hair. Oh no.

Romans

ROC celebration dinner yesterday night was great. Had ramen. Went tcc at Clarke Quay after that.

More and more people are expressing interest in NYAA now. goodie. Have got kakis to get it. haha. was one helluva night. All the crap talk at tcc was simply, woo-hoo. Weihong’s still as farni as usual. All his action packed crappy stuff. Just, farni.

Met up the new rovers for dinner today. discussed about the WTC programmes. really happy to see that they are all so enthusiastic about WTC. Think it’s gonna be a fun camp, if everything goes smoothly and there’re no, erm.. ya.

Got to know that Meiding has got this ‘thing’ for hairy guys. Weird. Really funny bunch of people. Another great evening out, with Ban Mian at S11.

Got this from my QT material. Wanna share this, written by Steve Farrar:

It’s a shocking fact that a good shepherd will break the leg of a wandering sheep. A loving, caring shepherd knows that by taking something away, in time the loss will be replaced by something far better… something to keep his lamb strong and protected.

It can seem heartless for God to take away some of the things we so highly value in life. Relationships, health, employment, and other treasured things can be swept away by the Father’s loving had. But when our hearts are broken, we can grow closer in intimacy with out Shepherd as he develops our character (1Peter 5:3-4). And that’s a lesson. That must be learned. For it’s rough out there. Life can bring a steady stream of temptations. But he wants us on his trail- the safe trail of righteousness. Without the character-building ways of God, we would become weak and defenseless. We wouldn’t be able to turn from desires and temptations what could destroy us. That’s why it’s so important for us to be broken.

As I read this, I felt that the words were talking to me. As though it was written and addressed to me. Hope that for those who are having problems out there, this might be of some help. God bless.

My favourite Bible verse till date:
More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. – Romans 5:3-5

Lunch

Sitting in the study now, with PE beside. Had lunch together with her and Hoon at J8 Food Junction. Had a long talk about relationships. It’s been bothering hoon, why is that a person can fall in love so easily when he/she is already with someone?

Been trying to explain. Coming up with examples and analogies. But as the conversation went on, realised that, perhaps there is no logical explanation to this. We just fall in love. Don’t we? There’s no one reason to explain everything, we do we fall in love, why do people even commit adultery.

Perhaps, to hoon, all these are not ethically correct. I have to agree with that too. But, many a times we are ruled by our heart, not our mind. We follow where our emotions go, not do what our mind tells us to.

Going nuts. Tsk

Tuition
Had tuition at Celestine’s last night. Been quite a while since I’ve been to her place. Was late for half an hour. And the worse part was that she wanted me to teach her vectors. The one topic that I totally detest in the entire E math syllabus.

Talked about relationships too. How things went in our lives. And she told me not to give up one tree for the entire forest (in Chinese, that is). Hmm. Maybe that’s true. Maybe not. But I don’t give a penny for that now.

Nonetheless, the session was rather fun. Talked and crapped and did some serious vectors. And I totally sucked at it. have to do some reading before I go up on Wednesday. Good to be teaching her again.

Went to Carl’s after that. Got to know that she’s taking fancy in yet another guy. Well, think she’s falling in and out of relationships too easily. Wondering how to tell advise her that it is not healthy.

Depressed?
Again. People been telling me that I look depressed. Do I still look depressed? Do I really looked troubled?

Am I feeling sad? Am I feeling down? What’s this that I’m feeling?

Busy

Woke up about 2 hours ago. Went for Macs after Infusion last night. Came back home and slumped in front of the tv till 2am.

Infusion
A combined performance by Whitley and Bartley concert band alumni. Thought was a good performance. Particularly enjoyed the Prince of Egypt pieces. Was glad that we were JUST on time for that. =)

We were late for the performance because of some minor hiccups. Tsk tsk tsk. Nonetheless, managed to get PE a bouquet of Roche.

Okkar was really cock last night. And Siewling is getting more and more garang. Cutting 3 lanes at one time. (Yes I know there wasn’t any car behind, but you were literally driving PERPENDICULAR to the road! It was like; you were maneuvering a crank course right in the middle of the street. Wow.)

Macs after the performance was good. But sinful nonetheless. Sundaes are yummy. =)

ROC
It’s finally over. Everything went well. Except for a few hiccups here and there. Things like, staff not tucking in their shirt, participants showing no sense of urgency. Basically to me, minor things that seem like something dreadful for senior people.

I felt that Rovers are different from the Ventures and Scouts. The approach should be different too. Perhaps they have got other agendas in mind (like, WTC). But, I shall hold my stand, and believe that there should be no superiority and subordinates. These people are 17 years old. I believe they can think for themselves. It should be done through talking and reminders. Not, ya. That’s what I believe. I guess. My style. Discuss, and pray that they understand. No point enforcing.

Maybe the higher management could have shown some appreciation to the committee during the evaluation too. Especially weihong. Perhaps they had other agenda in mind, again. But, just felt that it would have been better if.. ya.

But still, the camp was an enjoyable one. Especially the participants. They were amazing. Thought that they did great; up to expectations. Certainly hope that they would learn and grow from Rovers. Particularly enjoyed the ‘whacking’ session. Where yiting, CA and I had to be bad guys, put them under mental stress and see if they would make it or break it. Proud that none chose to fall out. All passed the test.

The best moment was when everyone gathered everyone, huddled together, and told them that they passed the test, and am proud of them, and that we would work together as a team, and put up a good show for WTC. The adrenaline rush: Wow.

Didn’t expect the cake too. It tasted good. Guess it’s the second time, or maybe third time I have the Scout’s cutting the cake for my birthday. What a pleasant surprise. =)

And not to forget, thank God for blessing everyone throughout the camp. Thank God for their energy (the participants slept for only like, 2hours and the staff didn’t even have a moment for eye shut) and safety (Nothing serious happened. All injuries sustained were manageable). Thank God for giving me the vision and allowing me to foresee what’s gonna happen throughout the camp, and thus able to run it smoothly. Thank God for keeping me calm and confident to help and aid Jinling when she nearly collapsed during the ceremony. Praise the Lord! =)

Slack
Now, I’m just gonna slack my day away. Watch some videos, read my Bible. Play some guitar. (SUNBURST! WOO-HOO! Need to get the cables. Try linking it up to the hi-fi.) tuition at 7.30pm tonight.

Still thinking of when I can give tuition to Celestine. She came to me last Friday and said she needed help. *sighs* am I really cut for teaching? Is it really my calling? Lord, what is it you want me to do?

Tired

Just back from the final ROC meeting. Was contemplating whether or not to blog. But somehow unwittingly, I just turned on the comp when stepped into the room (which is in an utter mess once again!).

Rover’s Orientation Camp is gonna commence in another like, 6hours time. And apparently as the programme head, I should be sleeping, resting up, rounding up sufficient energy to run the show. BUT! I’m here. Black eyes, tired, sleepy, bla bla bla…

Pray that everything would turn out well tmr, and hope that everyone have fun. Not a really big camp, nonetheless, an important one.

Feeling kinda wasted that bud, hoon and ling can’t make it. Need some sort of moral support from you guys. Hahah. But it’s alright. So long as you make it for WTC (bud has to make it.), that’ll be great.

Anyway, hoping that the Burma trip would formalize soon. Guess need to call up Okkar. Back-packing again. Cool.

Oh, did I mention that Sunburst is cool? Haha. it’s really nice. Thanks a lot guys. Thanks again. God bless you wonderful people. =) just feeling wasted that, it’s a nice guitar to play and stuff, but for pete’s sake I can’t sing. Sighs. Waste waste waste. Anyone wants to be my lead singer? Hahaha. Nuts.

Sighs. Right eyes swelling up again. And I swear I didn’t peak at any girls! Sheesh!

Thanks

Alright. I suck at composing poems. Wanted to write one. but wasn’t in the right mood. Will be writing one soon I guess. Had the inspiration but not the mood.

Thanks people for tonight. Though everyone was tired and stuff, really appreciate it. Sunburst is great! She sounds cool. =) (decided that she shall be a female. Don’t know why)

Xiao long bao was yummy. Same goes for the fried rice. Just wondering how much was the entire dinner?

Sorry guys, if I anyway disappointed you guys that I didn’t make a wish. Just, ya. Sorry.

Am blessed to have you guys around. Thanks.

Questions

These questions have been bugging me.

Why did God let the serpent tempt Eve? Why did He allow Eve to eat the fruit when He knows that we will forever be sinned? Why didn’t He stop the devil, why didn’t He stop Eve?

And they made me think.

There are so many things in our lives that cannot be explained; things that bog our minds, things which happen without explanation. These things always remain in our heads like a prick in the finger. It’s not very hurtful, just irritating. No matter how much we dig, we just can’t seem to get it out.

How many of us spend time to actually seek the answers to questions we sometimes face in our lives? I think majority of us cannot be bothered. Why is that so? Are we too lazy? The answers are of no significance? Or are we afraid to know the truth?

They say human beings are the most curious; are we really THAT curious? Do we really want to know the answers? Do we always try to seek a scientific/ logical explanation to everything?

Do we shun away from facts that we take no favor of? Escape from the truth? Or are we afraid that we can’t handle reality? Or is it maybe we are afraid of changes and want things to remain the way it is now; and prefer to leave things as it is, and always remain in our comfort zone?

What a dilemma.

What do we exactly want? The truth? Or not? Can we move on without knowing what happened and what’s happening?

Or perhaps ignorance is a bliss they say, and that some questions are best left un-answered.

What is it? What do I want?

Getting nuts

I’m nuts. Have got duty tmr and I’m still here blogging. Can’t help it I guess. Haha. Been a long day back at work. New people, new faces. 250+ of them. Feeling the weightage coming down again. The responsibilities. Haha. getting kinda tired of it. Owell, it’s our job I guess. God will give me strength. =)

Sunday
Been a good Sunday yesterday. Managed to catch some sleep. slept at 4am, woke up 12. that’s 8 hours huh? Felt kinda groggy when I woke. Helped Eric with his “I’m a young MATHMATICIAN” science project card thingy. Still remembered I completed the entire set of “I’m a young SCIENTIST” cards, except for the Geologist one. Kinda regret it now. Didn’t complete it cause I couldn’t find the darn stones for display. Urgh.

Went to yan’s for tuition. Tuition with him is getting more and more fun. Apart from the usual maths and science, we’re kinda incorporating guitar and even Bible studies in! haha. yeah. Bud might be getting jealous over this huh? But no worries bud. Cheers! But just sometimes, feel bad taking money from his parents. I’m more like a, brother and mentor than a tutor. Sighs.

Went straight to church. Thought I would be late. Flirted with the temptation of flagging a cab. Managed to resist that temptation. Got to church in time, and even managed to grab a choc bar along the way. Cadbury’s almond. Yum. Sighs. That brings back the issue of getting fat again. Can’t help it can I? Dang. Church was good, the sermon was great. Pastor talked about the 4 areas that cause our characters to deteriorate.

Lies
Anger
Jealousy
Lack of faith/ prayers

Well, it makes so much sense. Doesn’t it? Everything speaks for itself.

Rushed down straight to Redhill after service. Went to play basketball with Ruotian’s basketball team. They play quite well. Each have their own strengths. Joe was there too. Figure that Joe and RT look good together. Happy for them. =)

Oh did I mention the team manager? *psssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!* woops.

Sighs. Men. Committing adultery so easily. Why does God have to make us such VISUAL creatures?

ROC meeting
Met up with Hong, Ann and Muts for ROC meeting. Finalised the programmes. gonna have a meeting this coming Friday. Everyone seemed rather hyped about this camp. Hope everything runs well. =)

PSed
Okay. My dear 6ists went out without me. Thanks a lot guys. Now I feel left out. especially the episode just few days back? when I was PSed by so many of you? SIGHS! Evil people. Thanks argh. Thanks. =p

Well, I know you guys went out to get me my bday gift? (well, hey, I got to know all these from Ling’s blog. Can scold her if you want. =) ) thanks a million guys. Really. Touched. Haha. Really looking forward to this Thursday’s meeting.

Was thinking about last year. How did I celebrate it last year? Haha. Still remembered we had dinner at Bishan S11. Zi cha. Bud didn't make it though. We had fun. We were all happy and laughing. Had a choc fudge cake. My blue shirt was messed by the cake. We took photos. We all hugged. We smiled. That was my 20th birthday. How wonderful ain't it? Ha. How things have changed. How times have changed. How hard can a heart turn? Crap. Birthday wishes never come true do they? I guess not. At least not for me. Not for the past 20years. Not gonna make one this year I guess. =) Just pray that God bless everyone.

long day

Alright, first things first. Jess, I tried contacting jenni. She said that you didn’t call her, and I thought that she was rather irritated by me. Have no idea what’s going on, so the books are still with me. Won’t be home from Sunday afternoon 2pm (your Saturday night) till maybe Monday evening (that is if I’m going home). If not, it’ll be on Wednesday evening. So if you still need your books, then perhaps you can get jenni or jenje to call me or something. (Sorry I’m posting this here because you didn’t reply the previous mail, so I’m not sure if you still want your stuff.)

1st WTC meeting
Had the 1st meeting Friday night. Ran quite smoothly. Everyone seemed enthusiastic. Especially my secretary, who actually managed to complete the minutes on Friday night itself. Was rather surprised. Well, hope this fire continues to burn on.

BUD, it’s not shit that you’re doing la. Really. Alright, I might have said this a billion times, but you are apparently the best man for the job. HOT and security. Maybe I kinda overlooked the security part, but I still strongly hold my stand and believe that you’re capable. Like what you said, this task is enough to prove your worth as an ASL or AVSL. So, yups. But in any case, if you think it’s too much, then we can do something about it. No worries ya?

Went for a drink with bud and hoon. Hoon had this BLUE concoction. Said it tasted like medication. Well, I’m not surprised. Bud got this really bimbo drink which LOOKED and TASTED bimbo. Owell, that’s bud I guess. Bimbo. Woops. Thank goodness I stick to my coffee. *cheers!*

And PE! You only talked to bud and hoon! Didn’t talk to me! =p

Marathon
Stayed up the entire night to complete the ROC programme details. Kinda last minute. It was Weihong’s instructions to actually get it done before LC so that we have got something to show to them. Was thinking that all these were unnecessary paper work. True enough, we didn’t use it during LC. Nonetheless, hope we will get to use it during the camp.

Didn’t manage to wake up due to the typing marathon the previous night, thus wasn’t able to go for the pre-camp training. Sighs. Really wanted to do down. But just couldn’t drag my lazy arse out of the bed. Shucks.

LC
Guess this is the 3rd time I’m attending LC. Still remembered the previous 2 I attended was at Bishan Whitley. 1 in the heritage room before the troop campfire, the other one in the classrooms.

LC went smoothly, apart from a few hiccups due you-know-who. Much was addressed. Especially ROC, campfire and WTC. It seemed that WTC’s gonna be a teeny bit more challenging now, with you-know-who starting to poke his nose into it. But I’m sure the committee would be able to strive against all adversities.

Steph, Elsa and Ling
Saw the 3 of them at j8 before WTC meeting. Said hello. They said hi back. Well, I don’t know why. Just felt, weird. Haha. Funny how things actually turn out. Technically speaking, they were my schoolmates, relief students, girlfriend’s pals, now, ex-girlfriend’s pals and, hi-bye friends. So, technically speaking, she was my schoolmate, prefect junior, relief student, girlfriend, and now, ex-girlfriend, friend, sister, and bla. God knows what’s gonna happen tmr? Changing times, changing identities. Relationships change all the time. Nothing stays forever. Funny how things always turn out to be. Totally crap. I’m getting all crapped up. No, think I’m crap. Darn it.

Gospel
Alright, I understand that many people out there are not Christians and many actually detest it when Christians come up to you and start talking about God, and try to spread the gospel to you. Please people, perhaps it is nuisance to you, but please, bear no grudges against us, because it is our duty as Christians to spread God’s message to you.
Our intentions are good, and not doing it for money, or try to get people to attend churchs, but rather for you. Hence please, if you would, have an open heart and open mind at times as such. =) no harm knowing more right?

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will dear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

apologies..

Alright guys, I really really wanna apologise for today’s hiccup. Supposed to meet at Yishun right? Initially everyone was okay with it? Till around 6 Alv said he can’t make it, then Ber msged said that she can’t make it cause it’s too far and she’s tired. Then not long after that, Ling’s msg came and said she can’t make it too cause I think she wants to watch TV. Then Hoon’s sms topped it off.

My apologies to everyone. To Ber and Hoon, sorry for sounding kinda pissed and harsh. Was in the midst of a meeting, and everything came, so, ya.. apologies.. To ling, sorry that I didn’t msg earlier that we’ve decided not to meet up. Was too clogged up with everything I guess. Lucky you didn’t come down. And lastly, my MOST sincere apologies to PE. I know that you were SO SO looking forward to meeting everyone. So sorry I couldn’t deliver my word. Really thought that everyone was turning up. Turned out that only you and I are making it. Really really sorry… Guess you brought your camera and everything. Sigh. Anyway, smile alright? =)

It’s been a long day. Feeling kinda tired and.. ya. Tired. So, guess I was… off. Sorry peeps. Will be meeting up next week ya? Haha. and that time ALLL of you better make it. If not I’ll be REEALLY nasty.. cause I’m getting older on that day. Am expecting nice boxes in nice wrappers alright. *grins*

ouch.

Okay. It’s official. I think I’m getting fat. No. I AM fat. Tsk tsk. Been eating a lot lately and I’ve got no idea why.. urgh! Feeling hungry really easily. It’s like, a second puberty or something. Maybe I should go on a diet. How about the Atkin’s diet? Ponders.

Went swimming in the afternoon. Sun was good. Water was nice and warm. But my arms started to ache after a few laps. Dang. Think I really AM getting fat. *sob sob*

Hahaha. Sound oh-so like a metro-sexual. Or maybe even like a girl.

“eee! I’m getting fat! Shouldn’t be eating chocolates and ice creams!” but heck I’m still eating chocolates and ice-cream. Fat fat fat. Hello tummy! *sighs*

Ran after the bus this evening. Was running late for Carl’s tuition. Had an apple in my hand. Tried to gobble down whatever is left while running. And ‘ouch!’, BIT my upper lip. Threw the core away and boarded the darn bus. Funny how blood tastes together with Fuji apples. Yuck.

Aced the practical tests today I guess. Was rather confident. Even though the testers were, hmmm.. should I say, tough to handle. Pleased with it. *grins*

Making plans for back-packing in Myanmar. But apparently there’s the bird-flu thingy going on there. If I recall, it was 3 days back there was one patient who died of the H5N1. Sighs. Hope it’ll die down till then. Pray for the bird flu patients too people! Thank you. =)

Sometimes, things are just so hard to forget. Sometimes, flashes of memories still flood back. Sometimes, I pray to God that He take all the pain away. But He doesn’t. I guess there are things He wants me to learn. Things He wants me to experience. It’s such a hard process. When will it go away? When?

From the book ‘Vince and Joy’: LOVE DOESN’T CHANGE. LIFE DOES.

in case of emergency

Finally I’m done with my typing for the teaching award essay. Had to type in 500words. Topic was “Describe your key achievements, favourite activities and interests and explain how they represent the values and beliefs that you hold strongly to.” Had been thinking about it since yesterday while in camp. Turned out that I had an essay more than 500 words. Dang! spent almost half an hour trying to cut it short. Maybe that’s why they kept telling us to do SUMMARIES during English and GP lessons huh?

Helped tong jee buy her Zen Neeon 6GB yesterday. Bought one myself too. Quite a good bargain I guess. $339. Sorry Ling! Can’t go to the IT fair with you this Sunday. Have got duties on Sunday, so went ahead yesterday. But think you can get company from your ‘DAR’ right? Hehe.

The IT fair wasn’t really packed yesterday. Expected more people. Maybe cause it was Thursday night? Well. Went with Enjun and Alan. Had REEEEEALY looong talks with Enjun from camp to Suntec, and Suntec back to camp. A really funny guy. Really smart too. Scholar and stuff. PSLE 281! Eek!

Anyway, this photo is taken in the train (from Singapore to Malaysia during the Ophir). Many would wonder why I’m posting this up. The 1st ever photo in this blog. Well, it’s SOOO interesting because, you see the Malay sentences at the bottom? Guess what it means? It says: “in case of emergency, use hammer to break glass, and press the red button.” See where are the red button and hammer? All in the glass box. *stunned!* So we were figuring out how it actually works. And came our final conclusion. We need a screw driver, to unscrew the box, take out the hammer, screw the box back, and then break the glass, and finally press the button. Smart eh? *smirks*

I'm a FEMALE.

Procrastinating! Been saying that I want to do a log for the Ophir trip. Just can’t find time to do it! Urgh!

Something new
Well, did something new again! That was yesterday. Haha. This might sound kiddy- I cycled on the road! *applause!* haha. Had never cycled on the roads before. As in, big wide 2 lane roads! Always thought it was dangerous. But, we cares anyway, if I were to die because of a car accident, would have already died years back during the OTHER car accident.

Was fun to cycle on the roads. The thrill was immense. Racing with the cars a
nd buses. Did I mention I didn’t have any safety gears on? Oops. Not to flaunt. But just that I don’t have any helmets or joint protection gears with me. Well, that excludes my army camouflage helmet anyway. *grins*

Nonetheless, guess once is enough. Till the next time I feel daring enough, most likely won’t be cycling on the roads like that again. Playing with fire. Kinda contradicting with the previous paragraphs. Haha. not talking sense. *shrugs*

Dinner w Ber
Met up Ber for dinner last night. Chatted at MOS. Talked about Bernard and many other stuff. Walked around Kino and Borders for her stationary and my organizer(realise I need one this year. Things are getting packed all of the sudden. Tsk tsk). Walked down to PS and had drinks at Cartel. That’s when I realised one thing:

Girls like to rest their boobs on the table when they’re leaning forward. Especially on dining tables. Especially when they have to lean forward to talk or to eat or whatever. Seen it SOOO many times. Saw Ber doing it. Saw many others doing it. It’s not wrong, but, guess girls just need some rest ya? Those 2 things are quite.. erm. Heavy? I don’t know. Hehe. *grins*

Application for NUS/NTU and T(A)
Was busy filling up online applications for NUS and NTU. Hope I get into the course I REALLY want. Not engineering. Haha. Was so blur just now that I nearly sent the NUS form in with my gender specified as ‘FEMALE’. Goodness. Glad that I doubled check. Always a good habit to do that.

Spent hours digging out my certs and testimonials. Dug out many other stuff I’ve not seen for years. Saw JC lecture notes, with the blanks written by Glennis. Still remember those days when I pon lectures and she would help me fill up the lecture notes. Saw the post cards she wrote for me every month’s anniversary. So sweet. So so sweet. Now we’re like strangers. Guess, this is how it goes huh? Getting into a relationship spoils the friendship? Sucks.

Saw this shopping list that jess and I drafted out months back. We made it a point to sign at the bottom of the list. She signed off as wife and I signed off as hubby. The list said “sling bag, shoes, br*, boxers, clothes……………..” smiled silly at that piece of paper. It’s still in the file I where I 1st saw it. Guess it’s another piece of memory to keep. For a very long time. *shrugs*
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Anyway, this is a great song. Guitar at the beginning sounds good. Check it out. =)

Faraway by Nickleback

This time, this place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left

Cause you know
You know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming' you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up


Cause you know
You know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long

But you know
You know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to say
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have love you all along
And I forgive you

For being away for far too long
So keep breathing' because I'm not leaving' you anymore
Not leaving hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing because I'm not leaving you anymore
Not leaving hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing and never let me go

i'm back.. something new each day..

Back from ophir! Now my shoulders are still kinda aching, but it was great.. The trip was fantastic, and quite an eye-opener.. It was more like back-packing than mountain-climbing. Didn’t manage to go all the way up to the peak. Half-way up, we were told by the park rangers that we had to pay to continue climbing. 455RM for a guide and some other fees! It was like, crazy! Pay so much for what? owell. Would be doing a log for the trip soon I guess. Will post it up. *grins* looking at the photos now. Dang! Should have taken more.

Well, today’s a rest day. Spent some time sleeping and watching some tv. Haha. Totally slumped into the sofa today. Typed my resume in the late afternoon, for application into NTU and NUS. Tried helping Jee with her survey too.

Went for tuition at Carls. Now she’s taken fancy in another guy. Urgh. Girls. No. I mean, teenage girls. Can’t they just make up their mind sometimes? Woops.

Decided to do something new each day. Have got this sudden inspiration out of no where. Do something new every day. Not big things, but rather, small things that we’ve not done before. To kick if off, guess what? I bought bananas today! I know I know. This sounds all funny and stuff. But, hey! How many of us actually bought bananas before? Not many right? Hehe. Well, that’s a good start I guess.

So here’s how it went: was hungry, as I missed breakfast and lunch. Thought that I hadn’t had fruits since last Friday, cause of the trip, so went to the market and decided to get fruits. Then it came upon me that, I’ve never actually BOUGHT bananas before. Hehe. So I walked up to the fruit stall, and stared at the bundles of bananas. Tried to act pro. Seeing which are ripe, which are not. Until the auntie came and said, “siao di ah! That one is okay liao. Can eat already. You want?”

Embarrassing isn’t it? But owell, it’s the 1st time. What do you expect? The bananas tasted good anyway. Daddy liked it. *grins*

Got my weekend planned out. Hope it works out as planned. It’s gonna be a LOOONG weekend. woo-hoo!

ophir ophir ophir...

Finally done packing! My 65+10 litre back-pack is filled right to the brim. Anticipating the trip. Though I’ve got much tasks at hand (eg. ROC, WTC, uni re-application, medical check-up) to accomplish, guess I’ll be VERY glad to push them back. *evil laughters*

Just wanna enjoy my trip for now. Finally, something for me to look forward to. MUhahaha. Hope it’ll be fun. I know it’ll be fun. Can’t wait. *grins* (gee I sound like a kid. Eek! ermz..)

Action packed

Phew! Just done with Eric… science! Wondered where Jessica and Glennis found the patience to teach him. Eek! K. Relax. *deep breaths*

Action pack
Duty was a breeze yesterday, until when there was a case of fainting in the auditorium. Rushed to the audit with a senior. Assessed the patient. He was awake and conscious when we approached. From primary survey, found out that it happened halfway through his speech, and started to feel giddy. Saw white spots and felt a gush of blood flow to his legs. And then he knocked out soon after that.

Was thinking that it might be because of some medical conditions, so sent him to the medical centre. Was suspecting hypoglycemia or hypotension. So took his hypocount and BP. Both were normal. Took his other vital signs. All okay. Hence were thinking that he might some underlying conditions. Talked to him for a while as we waited for the doctor.

As we were waiting, a call came and reported for a case of heat stroke. Everyone (myself, and 3 other fellow colleagues) were alerted and on stand-by. When the vehicle came, we stretchered the casualty right into the resuscitation area and carried out our assessment.

Casualty was unresponsive to verbal stimuli. Slightly reacted to pain stimuli. Couldn’t take his body temperature as his mouth was shut tight. Couldn’t insert airway guerdal too. Was surprised that he came in without IV/ drip. It would have been better if there was a drip so as to regulate his body temperature. Stripped the casualty to his underwear, and started pouring ice over his body.

His skin was dry as we touched him. It wasn’t hot though. Wonder why. Cause, we were taught that the skin colour condition of a heat stroke casualty would be “hot and dry”. Guess, the REAL thing is different.

The doctors came in soon. Handed over to the docs. They attached the Life-pak to check his VS, the ECG to check his heart rhythm. They treated the casualty for about 15min, administered 2 litres of fluid through IV, and sent him off to the hospital.

The entire ordeal took around half and hour. Prayed that the guy is fine. Heat stroke, is a serious case. The 3 major types of heat injuries are heat cramps (muscle cramping due to lack of fluid, electrolyte/ salt in the body), heat exhaustion (intermediate heat injury where the entire body starts to cramp up, and muscles fail to work) and lastly heat stroke (the most serious of all 3, where the level of consciousness starts to decrease and the body basically shuts down). After seeing the seriousness of what heat stroke was, I’m gonna take ALL my water parades seriously from now onwards. No more drinking of half bottle when we’re supposed to drink one full. Especially when Ophir is just 2 days away.

And thank Lord that I could actually be of help in treating the casualty, and thank Lord for giving us a clear mind at that time. Luckily we didn’t screw anything up. *phew* Just pray the casualty is alright now, that’s all that matters now.

Shopping
Went to the army market at Beach road with Neo and Faizal to get our equipment for the Ophir trip. Neo got his back-pack, hammock, and some miscellaneous stuff. And I got myself a new back-pack. Not for the trip though - for casual use. And also a new 1st aid kit. Camouflage type. *grins*

Went to Tekka mall to settle our rations. We bought quite a bit of food. All dry stuff. Canned tuna, longans, Campbell’s, and sachet drinks. After which, we headed down to Coffee Bean at Bugis. Faizal had a mocha, Neo cinnamon, and I had a caramel. Cinnamon totally sucked. Tasted like some traditional medicine.

Started discussing about the remaining equipment required, meeting time and place, and crapped about other irrelevant stuff. Tong Jee came and then we bid Neo and Faizal farewell.

Movie
Went J8 and caught Underworld –Evolution. Wrong show to watch. Totally.

The show was rather disappointing. Was expecting an action-packed movie, but it turned out to be so so SO gory. Heads were cut up in halves, bodies torn into pieces, blood spurting everywhere.

The movie bosses compensated the thin plot and sub-par acting by throwing in high-end computer animations, superb make up, and as always, sex.

The monsters looked like an alienated abomination from someone’s disastrous nightmare (to put it simply, disgusting). They looked scary and real too, all thanks to the high end technology and quality make-up we have now. Especially the vampire guy and the werewolf. They were one helluva freaks. Also, there was the love-making scene between the leading actors. Both were naked, but it was filmed in such a way that the critical parts were covered nicely. Not too much, not too little, but just nice to entice the male audiences out there, who’ve been fantasizing about Kate Beckingsale right from the start of the movie.

And not to forget, the 2 naked female vampires, who died 2 mins from when they 1st appeared. Pity, ain’t it? (woops.)

Walked Jee to the interchange after the show. And I continued looking around for my stuff. Walked around, and finally decided to get myself a new sleeping bag and a pair of new slacks. Fwah. Was doing a mental count. Think I spent close to $300 today. Tsk tsk.

Sleepy
Getting really sleepy now. Sighs. Haven’t any news about Jenje since Monday. Her dad didn’t call too. Guess everything should be alright now.

Have mercy on my soul. Amen.

meow

Just had dinner. gonna post this 1st. about monday and tuesday..

Jenje
She left house. Don’t really know the detail. but, her parents know where she is now. and guess she's alright now. So, all those who are concerned need not worry anymore. just wondering if she's home yet. Will be praying for her no doubt. And jess, i think she's been attending church. Just that, maybe at that moment she was just, angry or confused about something. Yaps. So, don’t worry about it alright? *hugs*

Chalet
It’s the course break now. And work nowadays seems like a chalet! Oops. Work never felt so good. *bleahs*

Was back on sunday night, and SCB and I watched Evolution on channel 5. Darn idiotic and farni show. Went gyming after the show. haha. Then came back, and played some soccer games on the playstation until 2am

Woke up only at 9 the next morning, compared to the 5,6 am on normal days. Went for a swim with Mark and SCB. the pool here is simply amazing. it's big, quiet, and the deepest part of it is at 3metres! Felt really cool diving all the way down to the bottom (though the ears got a little uncomfortable). realised that I’ve never went swimming with guys only. apart from dad and eric. Whenever went swimming, there would always be a girl's company. haha. *bleahs*

After which, we went back bunk, had lunch, played games, slept till evening, and booked out.

Sounds like a chalet huh? Well, it felt like it. =)

Tuition
Gave carl tuition. haha. Was happy to hear that she got 33 out of 40 for her math common test. it was a test on algebra. Congrats congrats! well, guess she CAN make it, in all her subjects, just that she has to work hard for it. Perhaps, that's the case for everyone out there. EVERYONE can study and learn, as long as they are willing to work hard for it.

Ber
Met ber at her place after tuition. She looked burnt. Oops. A burnt mermaid. (Sounds good. yum!) Met her sister's boyfriend. He smelt of beer. But looked really sober though.

He’s 35. And her sister's like, 23? Wow. Seems like the age gap doesn't really matter nowadays. in the past, this would most likely go down the line of 'scandals'. But, guess, love is blind...? cliche.. Well, love makes the world go round! haha..

Kitty
Was playing with kitty after going back camp. kitty is a new camp mate. a cat actually. A cute, beautiful, and always hungry cat. Still remembered the last time when gave her some tuna. Since then, it follows everywhere I go. Just that, she appears only in the night till early morning, when the camp is deserted.

Gave her some milk this time. Quite cool to see her lick the milk off the makeshift plate (was actually the lid of a styrofoam box). Took some pictures of her drinking and twirling round and round and round my leg. Sweet. Wish could bring her home. *sigh*