Promise, Jessica
Promises that we made..
So beautiful..
Now, they can't be realised..
because, it was a mistake from the start..
life was wonderful, with you..
now that we, we are not meant to be..
i wish you, all the best..
in your journey with God, and your studies..
its painful to say good-bye for now, yet, its the only way to move on..
all these promises, lovely, yet, unfulfilled..
for they, will remain at the back of my head..
and you're the closest to heaven, that i've ever been..
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Promises.
that we'll stick together through thick and thin
9th march, we'll marry, no matter what
and never to take off the our ring, with our names engraved
always to keep each other in check: religion, faith, promisesto compromise our differences, and celebrate our similarities
be each other's best friend, soul mate
from now till we meet again,we'll keep in contact with emails, sms, our blogvjienscse
i'll keep u company when u do your homework,u'll keep me company when i handle IV lessons
next june, i'ld go over next year, with Alvin
to see uncle and auntie, their beautiful house
you would bring me around, and intro me to people
high school, ICF, family, friends
i would drive you to school, fetch you back home
in uncle's truck, on the right side of the road
you'll guide me along, all the way home
just like a married couple
you would show me the blooming flowers, the beautiful state
and we'll go on a holiday, at Disneyland
i've been saving up for our ticket
now, the money is useless
then you'll come back here, with the air ticket my parents bought
to visit the places, the people, the food
LOR 5, bishan park, esplanade, or even the the little hill opposite RI
the hill which went down on my knees, with Da vinci's code
steph, qi, elsa, jenni, jenje, eric
and even mum asked when would u be back for fried rice,with the onion omellete you've always loved, with the thai chilli sauce
i would visit every year if i could
and you would come back, if your dad allow
we'll keep in contact with the webcams i bought, the headphones you got
and our baby(blog), plus emails, and sms while we're apart
i would save up for our marriage, and also, save up to pay back your loans
whilst u're in college and i'm in university,we'll study together through the internet
on the headphones and webcam, we'll critisize and discuss about our foreign lecturers
talk about the cute guys and nasty girls in our class
but saying 'but i only want you' at the end of it
we would wait for each other,till we complete our education
get registered at ROM, when i'm 26, you, 23
attend Christian lessons for marrying couples the following year, to learn to be man and wife
get married when i'm 27, you, 24
Patience, the wedding planner
alvin, our best man
steph, our bridesmaid
pastor raymond, our solemniser
parents, friends, our witnesses
at tpmc,say I do, in front of our family and friends, in front of God
i kiss your lips, and slide the ring, onto your finger
carrying you on my arms, down the isle, everyone cheering, applauding
there would be a tea reception, where everyone mingle
and celebrate, our union, at the church of God
where i would also play canon in D, to serenade you
then we drive off in a rented beetle car, or jeep,
that says 'just married' at the tail, and tin cans dragging along
our little, traditional, chinese, low profile dinner
at siloso beach
everyone sitted on white chairs, tables
romantic music of the violin, the bass, the guitar
have our honeymoon,australia, california, thailand, malaysia
australia: sun, sand, sea
california: uncle, auntie, friends; plus a little celebration, at the garden;
saying 'i do', the 2nd time, at the prayer garden, blooming with flowers
thailand, malaysia: to spread our love, to the rest of the family
make love that very night, when we're man and wife
make love at the beach like you always wanted
'its sooooo romantic, don't you think so?' you would say
'aren't you afraid of the sand? like.. ouch?' i reply
to have our own apartment, away from our parents, probably at TPY
'its super conventient ah', you say, i nodded my head, so long as i'm with you
well, i prefered a 4 room, you didn't mind a 3 room
in this little love nest, we have,
our canopy bed, soft sofa couch, with extensions for the legs
to have an electrical hot plate, instead of gas stove
our shelf of books, novels, bibles
we'll paint it the colour we want
perhaps a bath tub if we could afford
nice long curtains (i'll wash them, don't worry)
and candles everywhere
the bowls and mugs we got, the spoons and fork
to use them during all our meals together;
the teddy bears and soft-toy hearts, especially the 2 piece heart
to be placed at our beds, reminding us of our dating years
1 master room1 prayer room, which would double as a guest room;
for your sisters, for my brother1 work room ,
where we would mark our daily paper together:
you, lengths and lengths of history essays; me, MCQs of chemistry papers
i'll massage your shoulder once i'm done, or maybe help you with the marking
i'll drive you to your school every morning
pick you up for lunch, less there are staff meetings
pick you up again, for dinner, at the end of the day,in our little jeep, that we always wanted
friday nights are indulgence nights, where we would wine and dine, dance and kiss
saturdays, are home improvement times, where we shop for groceries,
and pack up the place
we're both untidy people, who would clean up everything at one go, remember?
sunday mornings are for church
afternoons for our parents
nights, for ourselves
shop for groceries, shop for clothe
i choose your underwear, you buy my boxers
hand in hand down NTUC, and carrefour
suntec, and junction 8
soon, to have 2 kids:the elder one, boy.
no names for him yet, but definitely no joseph, yongcai, jonathan.
the younger one, girl. Ophelia.
our boy could take care of his younger sis, holding her hand while walking down the park,
as their mummy and daddy walk behind them
to raise them the Christian way;cause we felt it was the only right way
where the kids would grow to be true child of God,
a lady and gentleman, blessed by Him
we'll work hard, to provide the best for them
see them grow old, shower them with all the love they deserve
our boy, our girl
1st month, 6 months, 1 years old, 6 years old
PSLE, O-levels, tertiary education;
BGR, internet porn, national service, and other juvenile challenges they face
we'll help them together
teach them the right thing to do
they grow old, meet their own partner
start their own Christian family
God is pleased
they have kids, and the kids have their own kids
we retire, at somewhere peaceful
you, me, and God
where, our children would come to visit once in a while
bringing along our grand children
we would talk, and laugh, and listen to their problems
i would still look into your eyes, even when we're both old and haggard
interlocking my fingers with yours, saying 'i love you'
i would still kiss you lips, even we're both old and haggard
and our grandkid would go 'eeeeeeeeeee, pa, ma! gong gong and ah ma kiss kiss!'
i would still pluck on my guitar, singing 'love me'and reminding you that,
'if you get their before i do, don't give up on me.
i'll meet you when my chores are through, i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see
cause between now and then, til i see you again, i'll be lovin you, love me'
till the very day, i cease to breathe, my heart stops pumping,you would always be my air; and my heart, would pump for you..
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if only, all these would come true, with God's blessingsa fairy tale, a happy story
but, like you said, everything's in God's hands,
its not up to us to decide..
i don't know
how i wish i could still think of all these, before i sleep
i would always sleep smiling silly, like how you used to
now, i sleep tearing, crying, in pain
its so hard, to let all these dreams go
i wish, all these would come true.. my greatest dreams yet
now, vanish
i missed the chance
i flared up when i shouldn't have
i can't say 'i love you' anymore
yes i need to let you go, cause you couldn't stay
i wish, i could turn back time
to spend more time with you, to love you more
to pamper you, to be just with you
i don't want to give you up
you've been the best, to me
i don't think, i could ever meet someone so beautiful as you
if one day, we would meet again, it would definitely be God's blessings
and if one day, these promises would be honoured, it would be a miracle
you, being you,
have raised my standards so high
your heart of gold, character, personality, body, you,the best
you taught me how to love a person so deep
you taught me to believe in fairy tales
now i'm hollow with an empty space, no other human can fill, only God can
bless whoever finds you, or whoever you find,for you're the most beautiful i've seen,
second to God..
til then, i'll pray for you, for your well being, and your growth
your journey with God, your life
i've never fell so deeply in love before
you made me experienced what is human love, true, human love
though not as great as God's love for us,
it was truly, beautiful
this wound, will take time to heal
God will help us, so long as we put our faith in Him
may He bless you, take care
in His love,
goodbye my lover, now we're friends..
Promises that we made..
So beautiful..
Now, they can't be realised..
because, it was a mistake from the start..
life was wonderful, with you..
now that we, we are not meant to be..
i wish you, all the best..
in your journey with God, and your studies..
its painful to say good-bye for now, yet, its the only way to move on..
all these promises, lovely, yet, unfulfilled..
for they, will remain at the back of my head..
and you're the closest to heaven, that i've ever been..
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Promises.
that we'll stick together through thick and thin
9th march, we'll marry, no matter what
and never to take off the our ring, with our names engraved
always to keep each other in check: religion, faith, promisesto compromise our differences, and celebrate our similarities
be each other's best friend, soul mate
from now till we meet again,we'll keep in contact with emails, sms, our blogvjienscse
i'll keep u company when u do your homework,u'll keep me company when i handle IV lessons
next june, i'ld go over next year, with Alvin
to see uncle and auntie, their beautiful house
you would bring me around, and intro me to people
high school, ICF, family, friends
i would drive you to school, fetch you back home
in uncle's truck, on the right side of the road
you'll guide me along, all the way home
just like a married couple
you would show me the blooming flowers, the beautiful state
and we'll go on a holiday, at Disneyland
i've been saving up for our ticket
now, the money is useless
then you'll come back here, with the air ticket my parents bought
to visit the places, the people, the food
LOR 5, bishan park, esplanade, or even the the little hill opposite RI
the hill which went down on my knees, with Da vinci's code
steph, qi, elsa, jenni, jenje, eric
and even mum asked when would u be back for fried rice,with the onion omellete you've always loved, with the thai chilli sauce
i would visit every year if i could
and you would come back, if your dad allow
we'll keep in contact with the webcams i bought, the headphones you got
and our baby(blog), plus emails, and sms while we're apart
i would save up for our marriage, and also, save up to pay back your loans
whilst u're in college and i'm in university,we'll study together through the internet
on the headphones and webcam, we'll critisize and discuss about our foreign lecturers
talk about the cute guys and nasty girls in our class
but saying 'but i only want you' at the end of it
we would wait for each other,till we complete our education
get registered at ROM, when i'm 26, you, 23
attend Christian lessons for marrying couples the following year, to learn to be man and wife
get married when i'm 27, you, 24
Patience, the wedding planner
alvin, our best man
steph, our bridesmaid
pastor raymond, our solemniser
parents, friends, our witnesses
at tpmc,say I do, in front of our family and friends, in front of God
i kiss your lips, and slide the ring, onto your finger
carrying you on my arms, down the isle, everyone cheering, applauding
there would be a tea reception, where everyone mingle
and celebrate, our union, at the church of God
where i would also play canon in D, to serenade you
then we drive off in a rented beetle car, or jeep,
that says 'just married' at the tail, and tin cans dragging along
our little, traditional, chinese, low profile dinner
at siloso beach
everyone sitted on white chairs, tables
romantic music of the violin, the bass, the guitar
have our honeymoon,australia, california, thailand, malaysia
australia: sun, sand, sea
california: uncle, auntie, friends; plus a little celebration, at the garden;
saying 'i do', the 2nd time, at the prayer garden, blooming with flowers
thailand, malaysia: to spread our love, to the rest of the family
make love that very night, when we're man and wife
make love at the beach like you always wanted
'its sooooo romantic, don't you think so?' you would say
'aren't you afraid of the sand? like.. ouch?' i reply
to have our own apartment, away from our parents, probably at TPY
'its super conventient ah', you say, i nodded my head, so long as i'm with you
well, i prefered a 4 room, you didn't mind a 3 room
in this little love nest, we have,
our canopy bed, soft sofa couch, with extensions for the legs
to have an electrical hot plate, instead of gas stove
our shelf of books, novels, bibles
we'll paint it the colour we want
perhaps a bath tub if we could afford
nice long curtains (i'll wash them, don't worry)
and candles everywhere
the bowls and mugs we got, the spoons and fork
to use them during all our meals together;
the teddy bears and soft-toy hearts, especially the 2 piece heart
to be placed at our beds, reminding us of our dating years
1 master room1 prayer room, which would double as a guest room;
for your sisters, for my brother1 work room ,
where we would mark our daily paper together:
you, lengths and lengths of history essays; me, MCQs of chemistry papers
i'll massage your shoulder once i'm done, or maybe help you with the marking
i'll drive you to your school every morning
pick you up for lunch, less there are staff meetings
pick you up again, for dinner, at the end of the day,in our little jeep, that we always wanted
friday nights are indulgence nights, where we would wine and dine, dance and kiss
saturdays, are home improvement times, where we shop for groceries,
and pack up the place
we're both untidy people, who would clean up everything at one go, remember?
sunday mornings are for church
afternoons for our parents
nights, for ourselves
shop for groceries, shop for clothe
i choose your underwear, you buy my boxers
hand in hand down NTUC, and carrefour
suntec, and junction 8
soon, to have 2 kids:the elder one, boy.
no names for him yet, but definitely no joseph, yongcai, jonathan.
the younger one, girl. Ophelia.
our boy could take care of his younger sis, holding her hand while walking down the park,
as their mummy and daddy walk behind them
to raise them the Christian way;cause we felt it was the only right way
where the kids would grow to be true child of God,
a lady and gentleman, blessed by Him
we'll work hard, to provide the best for them
see them grow old, shower them with all the love they deserve
our boy, our girl
1st month, 6 months, 1 years old, 6 years old
PSLE, O-levels, tertiary education;
BGR, internet porn, national service, and other juvenile challenges they face
we'll help them together
teach them the right thing to do
they grow old, meet their own partner
start their own Christian family
God is pleased
they have kids, and the kids have their own kids
we retire, at somewhere peaceful
you, me, and God
where, our children would come to visit once in a while
bringing along our grand children
we would talk, and laugh, and listen to their problems
i would still look into your eyes, even when we're both old and haggard
interlocking my fingers with yours, saying 'i love you'
i would still kiss you lips, even we're both old and haggard
and our grandkid would go 'eeeeeeeeeee, pa, ma! gong gong and ah ma kiss kiss!'
i would still pluck on my guitar, singing 'love me'and reminding you that,
'if you get their before i do, don't give up on me.
i'll meet you when my chores are through, i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see
cause between now and then, til i see you again, i'll be lovin you, love me'
till the very day, i cease to breathe, my heart stops pumping,you would always be my air; and my heart, would pump for you..
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
if only, all these would come true, with God's blessingsa fairy tale, a happy story
but, like you said, everything's in God's hands,
its not up to us to decide..
i don't know
how i wish i could still think of all these, before i sleep
i would always sleep smiling silly, like how you used to
now, i sleep tearing, crying, in pain
its so hard, to let all these dreams go
i wish, all these would come true.. my greatest dreams yet
now, vanish
i missed the chance
i flared up when i shouldn't have
i can't say 'i love you' anymore
yes i need to let you go, cause you couldn't stay
i wish, i could turn back time
to spend more time with you, to love you more
to pamper you, to be just with you
i don't want to give you up
you've been the best, to me
i don't think, i could ever meet someone so beautiful as you
if one day, we would meet again, it would definitely be God's blessings
and if one day, these promises would be honoured, it would be a miracle
you, being you,
have raised my standards so high
your heart of gold, character, personality, body, you,the best
you taught me how to love a person so deep
you taught me to believe in fairy tales
now i'm hollow with an empty space, no other human can fill, only God can
bless whoever finds you, or whoever you find,for you're the most beautiful i've seen,
second to God..
til then, i'll pray for you, for your well being, and your growth
your journey with God, your life
i've never fell so deeply in love before
you made me experienced what is human love, true, human love
though not as great as God's love for us,
it was truly, beautiful
this wound, will take time to heal
God will help us, so long as we put our faith in Him
may He bless you, take care
in His love,
goodbye my lover, now we're friends..
i still love you.. i really do.. VJIENSCSE
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