after these 2,3 traumatic weeks.. i've learnt a couple of lessons, which i would remember for the rest of my life..
anger
when you are angry, no matter what, REFRAIN from conversing.. because, what ever that comes out of your mouth, might be really hurtful.. and you might just say things that you don't want to say.. things that you know that are not true.. you're just saying it at the midst of anger.. be it to a stranger, a friend, or someone you love very much.. cause, these things that you utter, might just be the very reason that creates a scar in that relationship..
i said things days back, which i never EVER wanted to say.. never in my life, those things ever crossed my mind.. yet, i wonder why, i said them, all in the midst of anger, and jealousy.. tiredness overcame me that very day, as there were duties i performed exhausted me.. and, ended, sentences which came out of my wretched mouth, were SO hurtful.. it costed me, a relationship.. a relationship so beautiful, a fairytale..
all began, when those words came out.. no matter how much i apologised, no matter how sincere i proclaimed my feelings, the scars remained.. the rift widened.. how i wish i could turn back time.. to take back those words..
thus, i've learnt, not to do or say anything, when angry.. cause what i might do or say, might really just be stupid yet unintentional.. and, i would live, to regret saying those words.. and regret it for a very long time with a crack, in my heart, conscience, and soul..
cherish what we have
whatever that we have now, is given to us by the Lord.. we didn't earn them, because, if He feels you're undeserving, you wouldn't have them.. but, we could always pray, that if He would, bestow us those which we want..
everything that we have now, are gifts bestowed to us through His love.. from our very earthly body, our 5 senses, our family, friends, shelter, food, water, clothes, the Holy Spirit in us, and even the ability to learn, to hope, to love, are gifts, we possess.. we ought to cherish them, learn how to appreciate them.. yet very commonly, it is only when, we lose possession of something, for example our sense of sight, sense of hearing, which we usually take for granted, then we realise how important it is.. and how much we actually need it..
being bankrupt, losing all our properties, having no house to live in, to me, is never as painful as losing someone you love SO dearly.. someone, who is always there for you.. someone like your mum, your dad, your closest friend.. your soul mate.. its never as startling, as knowing the fact that you've lost someone you love so deeply..
the emptiness which follows that lost love, that ache in the heart, that blankness in the mind, and many other traumatic experiences which i'm not able to express in words, is, diabolic, depressing, tormenting.. that emptiness which i felt over the weeks, made me feel like cutting my heart out.. felt like.. dying.. its like losing a limb, crippling me..
that ache, that bullish experience, remains forever inside.. especially when we, us, are the one, who didn't cherish those things in the 1st place.. its a shadow, that we've got to live under, for the rest of our lives.. its gonna be something that we would regret, perhaps, for the rest of our lives too..
ever since i lost her, i've always hoped that she would, see me, still, at least, as a friend.. or maybe, even a stranger who she has never met in her life before.. and not someone who she hates, or regretted knowing.. the memories that she has of us, are those of happiness, rather than disappointment or sadness.. and i certainly hope that i've not scarred her in anyway.. because, i know i didn't cherish her well enough.. i didn't tell her i love her as many times as i could.. i didn't give her those which she derserves.. i took things for granted, and was an absolute idiot.. the last thing i would want now, out of this sweet memory that i still hold on to, is a lost friend, or worse, an enemy.. *sigh*
it is now time, to take a look around.. whatever, whoever, which, who, are around us, are GIFTS and PRESENTS from God.. it is now time, to say a big THANK YOU, and learn to appreciate them.. it is now time, to go up to your mum, dad, friends, everyone, and give them a BIG hug, and say, 'i love you'.. it is now time, to put away, all grudges, all debts, all angry feelings that we have towards those we KNOW we love.. and embrace them with our care, our love..
it is the Christmas season.. and Christmas is the day, when Jesus was born.. the day when God, who's undying love surpasses ALL other love, sent us our Saviour..
take this opportunity, to love, to hope, and to renew our faith.. love all those who ought to be loved.. and hate not, those who you don't love.. because love, is what makes the world go round.. cherish those we love, as our time on earth is short.. and perhaps, it might be too late sometimes, to say 'i love you', to the one you truly love..
God bless all, merry Christmas.
anger
when you are angry, no matter what, REFRAIN from conversing.. because, what ever that comes out of your mouth, might be really hurtful.. and you might just say things that you don't want to say.. things that you know that are not true.. you're just saying it at the midst of anger.. be it to a stranger, a friend, or someone you love very much.. cause, these things that you utter, might just be the very reason that creates a scar in that relationship..
i said things days back, which i never EVER wanted to say.. never in my life, those things ever crossed my mind.. yet, i wonder why, i said them, all in the midst of anger, and jealousy.. tiredness overcame me that very day, as there were duties i performed exhausted me.. and, ended, sentences which came out of my wretched mouth, were SO hurtful.. it costed me, a relationship.. a relationship so beautiful, a fairytale..
all began, when those words came out.. no matter how much i apologised, no matter how sincere i proclaimed my feelings, the scars remained.. the rift widened.. how i wish i could turn back time.. to take back those words..
thus, i've learnt, not to do or say anything, when angry.. cause what i might do or say, might really just be stupid yet unintentional.. and, i would live, to regret saying those words.. and regret it for a very long time with a crack, in my heart, conscience, and soul..
cherish what we have
whatever that we have now, is given to us by the Lord.. we didn't earn them, because, if He feels you're undeserving, you wouldn't have them.. but, we could always pray, that if He would, bestow us those which we want..
everything that we have now, are gifts bestowed to us through His love.. from our very earthly body, our 5 senses, our family, friends, shelter, food, water, clothes, the Holy Spirit in us, and even the ability to learn, to hope, to love, are gifts, we possess.. we ought to cherish them, learn how to appreciate them.. yet very commonly, it is only when, we lose possession of something, for example our sense of sight, sense of hearing, which we usually take for granted, then we realise how important it is.. and how much we actually need it..
being bankrupt, losing all our properties, having no house to live in, to me, is never as painful as losing someone you love SO dearly.. someone, who is always there for you.. someone like your mum, your dad, your closest friend.. your soul mate.. its never as startling, as knowing the fact that you've lost someone you love so deeply..
the emptiness which follows that lost love, that ache in the heart, that blankness in the mind, and many other traumatic experiences which i'm not able to express in words, is, diabolic, depressing, tormenting.. that emptiness which i felt over the weeks, made me feel like cutting my heart out.. felt like.. dying.. its like losing a limb, crippling me..
that ache, that bullish experience, remains forever inside.. especially when we, us, are the one, who didn't cherish those things in the 1st place.. its a shadow, that we've got to live under, for the rest of our lives.. its gonna be something that we would regret, perhaps, for the rest of our lives too..
ever since i lost her, i've always hoped that she would, see me, still, at least, as a friend.. or maybe, even a stranger who she has never met in her life before.. and not someone who she hates, or regretted knowing.. the memories that she has of us, are those of happiness, rather than disappointment or sadness.. and i certainly hope that i've not scarred her in anyway.. because, i know i didn't cherish her well enough.. i didn't tell her i love her as many times as i could.. i didn't give her those which she derserves.. i took things for granted, and was an absolute idiot.. the last thing i would want now, out of this sweet memory that i still hold on to, is a lost friend, or worse, an enemy.. *sigh*
it is now time, to take a look around.. whatever, whoever, which, who, are around us, are GIFTS and PRESENTS from God.. it is now time, to say a big THANK YOU, and learn to appreciate them.. it is now time, to go up to your mum, dad, friends, everyone, and give them a BIG hug, and say, 'i love you'.. it is now time, to put away, all grudges, all debts, all angry feelings that we have towards those we KNOW we love.. and embrace them with our care, our love..
it is the Christmas season.. and Christmas is the day, when Jesus was born.. the day when God, who's undying love surpasses ALL other love, sent us our Saviour..
take this opportunity, to love, to hope, and to renew our faith.. love all those who ought to be loved.. and hate not, those who you don't love.. because love, is what makes the world go round.. cherish those we love, as our time on earth is short.. and perhaps, it might be too late sometimes, to say 'i love you', to the one you truly love..
God bless all, merry Christmas.
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