Annual General Meeting
The meeting was a success! All thanks to everyone who put in the effort for it. Especially Ber for staying up so late to complete the slides. Haha. Ban Mian in the late afternoon was great. *bleah*
The rest of the Rovers and leaders too. For doing a great job in everything. Alvin especially for overseeing the construction of the flagpole and of course the parade itself. =)
And hoon too! For turning up… You don’t have to feel bad and stuff. Just really glad you still came down to Whitley even though you slept for only like, 2 hours that morning. Thanks! And PE, thanks for the cameo appearence! haha. Good to see you again. =)
Oh, and the spiral staircase is so… Antique.
Stay-in week
Been staying in camp for the entire week since Sunday till now. Didn’t feel like going home once again, even though I had the chance to do so. I don’t know why too. Maybe, just trying to escape reality? Escaping the possibility of going places which could possibly trigger off any memories. Even a darn orange shoe lace can link up to so many memories. In camp is the only place I can stay away from these I guess. So, I don’t know. Ha. Just frustrated, when I don’t even know what went wrong. What’s happening? What’s the real reason of ‘separation’?
Been staying in, even on V day. Did send her a package for V day. Asked breeann to help me pass to her. Sent her emails and stuff. But, no replies, no sms, no calls, no nothing. I don’t know. Haah. No thank you? It’s, so unlike her. Have I gotten into her “people I hate” book? Or, “people I’m ignoring” list, or just, “another idiot stalker”? I don’t know. Again.
These 3 words, ‘I don’t know’, seems such an easy phrase to say, to escape our problems. The days when ‘I love you’ is used so often like as though they were full-stops in sentences are over. Now come the days of ‘I don’t know’. God I’m all confused now. But, there’s nothing I can do once again. This feeling’s totally weird. Like, as though someone’s choking me and I can’t do anything about it.
Just hope that things would be fine one day. I know it will. I’m hopeful. =) just a matter of time. Perseverance.
Dad’s complaining why I’m not going home. Sigh. How I wish I could tell him how I feel. How I wish they would understand that I’m still hurting. How I wish things didn’t have to turn out this way, and that I wouldn’t have disappointed them. Dad’s losing his trust on me. Mum can’t be bothered sometimes. They want me to stop believing in Christ. How bad can it get? Don’t they understand that I’m still in pain?
Still love them no less. Just, pray that they’ll understand. Somehow.
Specs
Got my new pair of specs. Been receiving rather, “ego boosting” comments from friends and mum. =P sighs. But my lenses are more expensive than my frame. All thanks to my wonderfully myopic eyes. And now, my right eye is swelling because of some dumb insect bite. Keep on tearing. Irritating.
Keeping busy
Trying to keep myself busy to get my mind off things. It’s been a great one year, but the way to end it is and the way it is now, is rather disappointing. Things will get better I guess. But till then, looking forward to these stuffs. Platoon bbq this Saturday, after which we’ll be going to walla walla. Next Saturday lunch and movies with fellow instructors, and sending the Brunei trainees off at Changi Airport. The following Friday to Sunday climbing Mount Ophir. Next Tuesday SMU, NUS and NTU bash. MOS some time next month. Whitley Rover Orientation Camp next month. Whitley Training Camp in June. Haha. hope everything goes as planned. Oh, I’m gonna donate blood on Wednesday, 1st march. Anyone wants to come along? Sms me please.
The meeting was a success! All thanks to everyone who put in the effort for it. Especially Ber for staying up so late to complete the slides. Haha. Ban Mian in the late afternoon was great. *bleah*
The rest of the Rovers and leaders too. For doing a great job in everything. Alvin especially for overseeing the construction of the flagpole and of course the parade itself. =)
And hoon too! For turning up… You don’t have to feel bad and stuff. Just really glad you still came down to Whitley even though you slept for only like, 2 hours that morning. Thanks! And PE, thanks for the cameo appearence! haha. Good to see you again. =)
Oh, and the spiral staircase is so… Antique.
Stay-in week
Been staying in camp for the entire week since Sunday till now. Didn’t feel like going home once again, even though I had the chance to do so. I don’t know why too. Maybe, just trying to escape reality? Escaping the possibility of going places which could possibly trigger off any memories. Even a darn orange shoe lace can link up to so many memories. In camp is the only place I can stay away from these I guess. So, I don’t know. Ha. Just frustrated, when I don’t even know what went wrong. What’s happening? What’s the real reason of ‘separation’?
Been staying in, even on V day. Did send her a package for V day. Asked breeann to help me pass to her. Sent her emails and stuff. But, no replies, no sms, no calls, no nothing. I don’t know. Haah. No thank you? It’s, so unlike her. Have I gotten into her “people I hate” book? Or, “people I’m ignoring” list, or just, “another idiot stalker”? I don’t know. Again.
These 3 words, ‘I don’t know’, seems such an easy phrase to say, to escape our problems. The days when ‘I love you’ is used so often like as though they were full-stops in sentences are over. Now come the days of ‘I don’t know’. God I’m all confused now. But, there’s nothing I can do once again. This feeling’s totally weird. Like, as though someone’s choking me and I can’t do anything about it.
Just hope that things would be fine one day. I know it will. I’m hopeful. =) just a matter of time. Perseverance.
Dad’s complaining why I’m not going home. Sigh. How I wish I could tell him how I feel. How I wish they would understand that I’m still hurting. How I wish things didn’t have to turn out this way, and that I wouldn’t have disappointed them. Dad’s losing his trust on me. Mum can’t be bothered sometimes. They want me to stop believing in Christ. How bad can it get? Don’t they understand that I’m still in pain?
Still love them no less. Just, pray that they’ll understand. Somehow.
Specs
Got my new pair of specs. Been receiving rather, “ego boosting” comments from friends and mum. =P sighs. But my lenses are more expensive than my frame. All thanks to my wonderfully myopic eyes. And now, my right eye is swelling because of some dumb insect bite. Keep on tearing. Irritating.
Keeping busy
Trying to keep myself busy to get my mind off things. It’s been a great one year, but the way to end it is and the way it is now, is rather disappointing. Things will get better I guess. But till then, looking forward to these stuffs. Platoon bbq this Saturday, after which we’ll be going to walla walla. Next Saturday lunch and movies with fellow instructors, and sending the Brunei trainees off at Changi Airport. The following Friday to Sunday climbing Mount Ophir. Next Tuesday SMU, NUS and NTU bash. MOS some time next month. Whitley Rover Orientation Camp next month. Whitley Training Camp in June. Haha. hope everything goes as planned. Oh, I’m gonna donate blood on Wednesday, 1st march. Anyone wants to come along? Sms me please.
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