I'm getting nervous

Yes! It feels good to type on my lappy. Finally.

It’s been a really muddy day today. Had to wash my shoes twice after rug training. Foot sinks into the field if one stood for too long on it. Did some catching up with Ben. He and his never ending admiration for Prison Break.

“You should be a civil engineer. Build the next prison and go PRISON BREAK!”

WTH. Thanks Ben. Haha. I’ll think about it.

Dinner was great last night. Too much carbo like Hoon said. Well, whose fault was it? K la. It’s MY fault. I think we have 7 wings uneaten. Not forgetting the buns and Hor Fun + Yee MEE. Both which Ber was supposed to finish.

Wine was good and I suppose everyone liked it though Hoon kinda complained it was a little too strong smelling. Doesn’t matter cause there were people on ‘her side’. Pun pun pun.

Someone was just too comfortable and had legs on the chair whilst eating.

And not forgetting the longest gift exchange I’ve ever had. LONGEST. I’m quite certain it had got nothing to do with the even or odd numbers, but just probability doing its trick here.

Bodyshop food scrub, contact solution, mug and chocs, Topshop card, tea leaves with tea maker. Cool huh.

Bridge was yet another fantastic experience with people giving away ‘innocent’ clues.

Ms Yeo. See what you’ve missed. We missed you so much that we turned you into paper and started talking to you. Anyways, better get something nice for us from Aus! We deserve it. =p

Staying in Singapore and not going for overseas for holidays have got its advantages. Apple tea from Jo, yummy almond chocs from Chuimei, keychain from Ber, truffles from Alv, and SOMETHING from Ling. That’s 5. Anyone else going overseas?? Do let me know. =)

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My faith has once again been shaken.
I have to be strong, but it is so hard.
Especially when the one digging at it is someone so close.
Someone so close and so dear that the holes left behind are so deep.

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Everywhere I turn, I bump into a wall.
This frustration goes on and it never ends.
I am not deserving: not deserving of this.
When would I learn? When would I wake up?

Time to let go. Time to move on.

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I’m sorry for doing the things I’ve done.
I’m sorry for not doing the things I should have.

I’m a pain.
I’m a procrastinator.
Life’s quite a bitch at times.

You deserve better and I don’t.
You shouldn’t have, and so shouldn’t I.

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To:

The one who’s down with stomach flu: Please rest well and get well soon. Plenty of water helps. Honey is a bonus. Try not to mess up the kitchen again. See you soon. If you get well that is. Oh, thank you for Friends!

The one who I call cus: Didn’t send any season greetings to you (and you didn’t too!). Have a great time hanging out with your pals. Take care! Oh, the book I got you is STILL with me.

The one cooking dinner this weekend: I am really sorry for last weekend. I’m really very sorry. I need some deciphering for your blog. Can you help? It’s an endless stream of Da Vinci codes. Or is it meant to be left that way? Anyway, bringing Hoe. They drink?

The one working at Cathay: Thanks for getting the tickets. SMU sure had helped me save two x50cents. Haven’t got anything from the dollar-shop yet. Poot poot!!

The two whom I used to call Sergeants: Am certainly happy and thrilled to see you two so… LOVING! May God bless you two with bliss and happiness and fulfilled dreams! See you this weekend.

The one I saw on the bus: I don’t think you’ll read this, but it really took me a lot of balls to do what I did. It’s a start, nonetheless. God bless you too.

The one whom I’ve went to the museum with: It was great! Though wet slippers and soaked shoes ain’t the best kind of footwear we wanted to have whilst walking round. But it was great. Really. Xoxo.

The one complaining to me today ‘bout work: Maybe he/she’s got his/her reasons. You worked out your schedule yet? Oh, help me wish her a happy birthday when you see her on Sat. Thanks! Happy working! Hope the rain hasn’t been drenching you these days. Oh, are there extra log cakes? Can I have some? =)

Those who are collecting their results TODAY: Good luck and all the best. I really cannot imagine what kinda grades I’m gonna get. Hope we’ll all make it. I don’t wanna see Yu Siufung or Peter Chong for the wrong reasons next sem. Fingers crossed!

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Pictures taken at St Andrew’s Cathedral’s fun raising event. Ripped off from the Foosball website.

Eve

Random pic off the road.

Random pic at Sportslink AMK. That's a freakin huge backpack.

Things have been certainly been kinda crazy these few days and I'm certain that it go on for the following week.

Somehow, my memory only brings me back to Thursday, where we had our little game of badminton at Bishan Sports Hall. Finally we get to play some sports together huh? I cannot recall the last time we played any games together. Seriously. How many eons ago was that?
Well, what can I say about it? Pe didn't wear proper shoes and got hit by ZX's shuttlecock (MAJOR oooPS!); Hoon didn't have rubber bands for her hair and parking coupons for her car; Des was hyper-active and really have some balls to call someone 'ghost'; Ber had really nice shoes on the showcase and she didn't let Des have the chicken skin; ZX's smashes were darn fast and we're still wondering about him and Mrs Goh; and most of us had bodily aches the following day. Felt a little mad and went for a jog in past-midnight to get some stuff and to clear up some thoughts.

Went back to school on Friday to collect my laptop. The mother-board was damanged due to the unexpected power surge and thank goodness the hard disk was still intact. Met Ben at Macs as we were getting our lunch, and felt bad for not going for training. Brought back to hall and caught the first episode of PB.

Fries were too much and coke weren't finished. And not to forget the random fly and dangling spider. It wasn't the best tour of NTU I would say. My apologies. But thanks for your company anyway. Appreciate it. =)

Walked around Bugis, looking for Christmas gifts. The Croc shirt was really nice. But... Didn't felt good spending on it. The human-traffic were at points unimaginably immense, especially at the traffic lights between Bugis Street and Bugis Junction. Evening ended off nicely with pleasant 'surprises' and off I go to Dhoby Ghaut.

Had to JALAN a bit before meeting up. And so dropped by Cathay to get Ber some tea. How nice right? Little did I know, had to run back to the station not long after as I kinda wrongly estimated the ETA. Had my Cold-cut trio while talking at Subs. Thanks for the 'artificial tears'. It was quite hilarious actually when you mentioned it. Haha... Then off we went for milk and 'look arounds' at shops. Show started at 8.50pm and even till now, hours after the show, I still cannot understand the need for the cleavages and gold/silver armors. Great acting from great actors and actresses, but for a show with 4.5star ratings from ST, I kinda expected more. Walked down Orchard to the bus stops before parting our ways. My apologies that I can't send you back as 'proposed'. Contacts were really killing me. Guess you could see. =)

Saturday started off with a little food shopping for the evening's party at my church. Mum helped get the fishballs and I got the sausages. Spent sometime preparing and cooking the food, and packed them nicely. Mummy was really kind to lend me her van and I drove down to church to prepare for the party. Helped out with the food stuff and deco before meeting up my 'guest' of the night. Was expecting Ott too, but guess she couldn't make it. Some miscommunication somewhere I guess. Food was great and the games were kinda nutty. Dance was damn bad but no one beat me at 'fastest fingers first' *smirk!*, all thanks to the many years of two thumbs smsing. My little niece looked really cute when she prays and for the last time, guy's my cousin, not UNCLE. And oh, sorry it took me a while to figure out the positions of the numbers. I didn't realise you weren't talking about the lines, but something else. Pardon my INNOCENCE. =)

Our tag numbers. What a coincidence huh. =)

Tea at S11 was funny, but crappy too. I don't think I've got a TYPE I or TYPE II or TYPE 1.5. You guys are really making things up. Oh, just in case we forget. Tuesday potluck at my place. 7pm ok? Ber with ham. Hoon fried rice, PE sausage, i'm getting drinks and curry (no milk). Hoon please tell Alvin to get something. Thanks. All please remember the gift exchange too.

Stayed up late, watching soccer. Man U vs Villa and Chelsea vs Wigan. Was smsing throughout and I guess, things are in the light now. Confusing, yet not so confusing. I think too much I guess.

And it's Sunday today, Christmas eve. Service was at 5 went down town after service. It was madness there and it dawned upon me that it was the best time and place for maximum collateral damage for any form of terrorist attacks. People were just walking shoulder to shoulders, toes to toes. And I really wondered what the heck I was doing there. Guess it paid off at the end, didn't it? =) Got home earlier than expected and I guess they weren't that mad at me. Sorry Ott, couldn't make it. My apologies.

My little gift from Orchard. How sweet.

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Merry Christmas to all! The presents, the food, the parties and the many other things are the many things we look forward to, during the Christmas season. Enjoy as we should, but never forget the true meaning of Christmas! Christmas is the day when Jesus was born and the day when hope was once again seen on earth. Let us remember why we celebrate the 25th of December, and let our hearts be filled with the love and joy of Jesus Christ!

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Like I said, I can't say that I know how you feel or I know how it is like, and that things would be fine. All I have to say, is that we would ALL be here for you. And we're ALL going to be here to stay for a VERY long time. Keep faith, have hope, and be strong. Will be praying for you.

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That feeling is back once again. Tingling tingling tingling. What is it that you want me to do? Teach me. Tell me. I'm confused.

Past week

It's raining again. Perfect weather for sleep. But I've decided to update some things around here. It's been a while. All thanks to my burnt Lenovo. PFfffffft.

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West Ham Utd beat Man Utd!!! HOORAY!! My most sincere apologies to Man U fans out there. Pardon my blatant celebrations but I've once again found hope for my 50buck end of tournament championship winner ticket, which is pinned on my softboard.

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It's been an amazing week. Thank God for all the things that have happened, and also the things that did not.

Been meeting up with people late in the nights and it has been fun, and well, not so fun. And also, all the mid-afternoon trainings are making me burnt like a lobster.

Had a couple of rugby trainings in the week for the upcoming HO. It certainly is fun to tackle someone, but not so fun getting tackled. I always have a problem of staying low when engaging in a tackle. Just slips my mind ALL the time. Had to be pulled aside by the Capt to be 'cautioned' twice. How embarassing. Rug's so different from basketball, and being a bball player since don't know when, running BACKWARDS really ain't my forte. Keep having tendancies to dash forward after passing the ball. What an idiot. Tsk.

Char Kway Teow in the mid-week with lots of vege is nice, but would have been better if we've got a not-so-full stomach and when you're not SOO tired. I guess all the work load is taking it's toll on you. Teh-peng was nice and I shall try Kopi-c-peng-gao next time I get there. =) Thanks for the invite to your church and NYE dinner. Like I said, not to worry. You're a great cook. Tested and proven by your beloved friends. Let me know if you need help. ( I still don't know what to bring apart from an empty stomach and great appetite. Suggestions? ) And oh, how did the uniform drawing go? (Past tense cause I suppose you'll only read this in the night ;) ) Don't forget your lefts and rights. =)

Caught 3 movies this week. Deja vu, Eragon and The Holiday. People, if you've only $9.50 this Christmas and can only afford ONE movie, watch The Holiday. Or maybe not. Say if you have $9.50 x 3 = $28.50 (is my math correct? i'm too lazy to check) and you can watch ALL 3 movies, I say just watch The Holiday and use the remaining $19 to buy me a Christmas present. I thank you beforehand. =)

Oh, did I mention that I have got a burnt Lenovo? Yea. Sorta. Laptop was plugged into the mains and guess what? LIGHTNING STRIKES and 'pop' goes the hard disk. Brought to the service centre for maintenance, and I knew that all is lost from the look of the service-man's face. How sad. How irritating. How disgusting. How troublesome. All because of one lightning strike.

Friday was the best. Or maybe second best. If what happened towards to end of the day didn't happen. But anyways Rug training in the morning was all about tacking and simple game plays. I think I need to borrow boots really soon if I want to stay alive in the games. Any kind souls out there with soccer boots to lend/rent/steal/throw away? Knocked out in my 20 degree celcius air-conditioned room all the way till 5. It had been quite a while since I last had sun-burns and the air-con never felt better. Thank goodness I'm in Hall 3. Was late for dinner and was so totally in a mad rush. Took the train down and changed buses. Was late for like... 30 minutes. Haha. My bad. Had white chocolate dreams and teas and a cup of Tiramisu. It was fun talking. And walking. And me sprawling for bathrooms. Yes I know that guy who was waiting for taxi near Chuan. And I think that he kinda heard you too. =)

Picked up the car just past midnight and drove them out for supper. It was fun, but also NOT so fun. I think I might need to consult some psychiatrist or psychologist to get my phobias sorted out. Ever since the accident, never really got over it. Just glad that nothing went wrong this time round. It was horrific. Really terrible. And I don't want to talk about it. For now, let's just stick to public transports.

Hitched a ride to Bkt Gombak from dad on Saturday morning. Had breakfast with him before parting our ways. Realised that dad's got really interesting habits and am rather surprised that I didn't discover them any time sooner. Somehow, I see myself unconciously behaving him like him. The way we fold our legs when we sit, the way we brush our hair, the way we rub our chins. It's like seeing an older version of me. Cool huh?

Took a nap in Hall before joining the team for the 2nd competition. Benedict couldn't make it but we had more than enough people to cover every positions with one sub. 7 a-side water-polo wasn't really as easy as one thinks ( or at least I thought it was. Ain't it just swimming and ball playing? I wish! ) Just the water tredding was enough to induce muscle cramping-sensations in my left foot after 5 minutes and not to mention the need for sudden bursts of speed to gain possesions of the buoyant ball. We were trailing by 4-2 at half time, but managed to level 2 minutes into the second half. We won 5-6 when the final whistle went and it was a job well done. Though it lasted only for 20minutes, it felt as though my legs had went through a half-marathon and the walk back to hall had never been more wobbly.

Knocked out in the bed, and again overslept for Saturday's performance. I must say that it was good entertainment, and the crowd was just overwhelming. The tricks that the pastor and his daughter put up was fantastic and the show was fun for all. Not to forget the little kid in front of us, jumping in joy each time a new trick was performed. It was a very fresh, and non-traditional way of bringing the message of God over. It worked for some, and also somehow at the back of my head, I knew why it didn't work for the others. Though they were just tricks and illusions, the societal defination of magic in current days are rather dim and... ya. To me at least. From what I see on the tele, it ain't the best of impressions. But anyways, thanks for the invite to the show! Had a fun night. =)

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After much thought, maybe I would like to rephrase what I said just now. Love is indeed simple. It can only be simple when people do not complicate it. We are the ones who like to complicate things. And for what it is worth, I believe love is not unconditional. We are not god.

Perhaps it's time to stop and think. Not about the past, but about/for the future. When hopes dangle on one small string, sometimes you need more than strength and perseverance.

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Why do we only want to see things we want to see, hear things we want to hear, feel things we want to feel and dream of dreams we want to dream? Reality may be harsh, but bottom-line is there ain't no escape. Either we embrace it with arms wide open, make the best of it and learn to live with it and enjoy every moment of our lives; or we escape and allow it eat us up from the inside, as we dwell in an endless pit of torment and depression for a very long time to come.

Good news: the choice is ours.

Bad news: we tend to choose the latter.

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Good night people. A new week awaits. Christmas is coming! And so are my results. *shivers down the spine*

10th december

It’s the 10th!! 10th of December! It means that Christmas is coming, New year is coming, results are coming, IPPT is coming, and the holidays are ending!! Tsk.

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Attended the 7th Christian Youth Leadership Camp (Chinese) on Tuesday. Was allocated into the ‘Hokkien’ group. We were all grouped into different dialect groups. Hokkien was one of them. There were Teochew, Hainan, etc etc. It was a fun camp. VERY intellectual. It wasn’t like any camps I’ve been to. There were seminars, lectures, group discussions and sharing. Absolutely mentally draining.

Theme of the camp was “Bilingualism and Bi-culture”. Aim was to make the campers realize the importance of the Chinese language and culture. I guess, the gist of it would be: if you have it, don’t lose it. It’s a gift, for many of us are able to speak both mandarin and English. So use it. don’t lose it. =)

Perhaps the camp has made me realize that I’m not exactly ready to pick up a third language. Half buckets (ban tong shui) ain’t exactly what I’m looking for.

Went for rugby training on Wednesday. Weather was kind, but the pitch wasn’t. It was all wet and muddy. We looked like Commandos in Nikes and Adidas’ and my Brooks was totally wet and mudded at the end of the session. Oh, undies too.

Couldn’t get the hang of the game cause I was so used to the basketball style, where you pass and run ahead. But in rug, you’re supposed to run BACKWARDS after you pass. Kept making silly mistakes but it was fun. On the whole. Looking forward to the next training.

Met up with Ber later in the afternoon. Supposed to drop by Starbucks for free coffee (they were giving away free coffee on that day from 5-7 as a charity drive for the Salvation Army) but half of Singapore was queuing up for it in Orchard. ALL the outlets were bustling with people lining for free coffee. Ended up getting ice cream and fish balls from Taka.

Took a walk down to Heeren’s and did the most atrocious thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. Not going to elaborate more here. Haha.

Saw Jee and her BF on our way back home. Haha… It was kinda amusing. =)

Played Frisbee on Friday afternoon. Supposed to meet up at 10. But someone slept till like, 11am. Or was it 11.30???? Heh. Had some fun, and I propose the 6 of us should engage in some Ultimate Frisbee this season. Get more people! It’ll be great.

Then we all had dinner at Chinatown. MALA steamboat. Wonderful craving from Hoon. J afterwhich, drinks at TD’s café. (Oh, he didn’t turn up for basketball today. Surprised? I’m not. Haha.) Brother-sister connection still doing very good there. And I think you saw what you thought you saw. You know? =) Haha.

Courtesy of Siewling! Ripped off her blog. As Hoon refuses to take a new photo, this old one would suffice. You look like a dits. OOPS! See how PE and Alv is giving you that dumb look? =)

Sat was a very sinful day, for all the junk we dumped into our stomachs. KFC for lunch, buffet for Scott’s bday in the evening, the dessert, the beer, the packed food, urgh. I’m feeling fat. VERY fat. Oh, and I really think you two are mirror images. Super-imposable.

And today, basketball at it’s best since months back. Somehow I just couldn’t get the ball to drop, but we all had tremendous fun. 8 of us. Too bad the rest couldn’t make it. If not, it would have been a party at the court. Team ‘youth’ won all the way against team ‘ah peks’. Haha. Cool huh. Oh, and we beat those not-so-friendly bengsters 3 times in a row. Cheers!

Wonder what’s up next week. Haven’t had time to settle down and think about it.

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6ist. Are we meeting on Friday for supper? I need confirmation please. Let me know ASAP. SMS/Tag/Email/phone/anything.

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All the best and have ‘fun’ at work!! Let me know how it goes? Though I seriously doubt you’ll ‘drop by’ to ‘say hi and goodnight’. It’s alright. I’ll msg. =)

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Anyone wants to go for blood donation?? Looking for kakees once again.

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Sometimes I just wish I had a reset button. Or maybe a delete button with recycling bin. Do you feel the same way too?

OVER and out

YES! WE’VE WON!!! WE SURVIVED! Billion of cells were sacrificed and the heart malfunctioned on Friday. It was such a close shave. Shall elaborate more about it in a while, but for now, HOLIDAYS!!! Woooohooooooooooo!

And so it’s finally over. All the late night muggings and horrendously unhealthy supper that I’ve been chowing down as midnight fuel… it’s OVER! Well, sad thing is there’s going to be 7 more times of this. 7 more semesters, 7 more exams, 7! But till then, I’m ceasing ties with Ms Calculus, Mr Einstein, Mr Markonikov, Mr Keynes, Mr Ampere and Mr Maxwell. They’re nice peeps. Really. Nice people. Without them, the world wouldn’t be the way it is now. But admiration is one thing, studying their works is another. I guess the exams weren’t really fantastic, and just am keeping the toes crossed, praying for the best. Couple of my classmates were rather upset about their performance. But we’ve have consensus now – heck it, don’t think about it, enjoy the moment. WHILE IT LASTS. And that’s exactly what I’m going to do.

Now, back to my close shave encounter. The last paper for the exams was Effective Communications. A core module which many felt unnecessary. It was scheduled on Friday. And all along I thought the paper was to start at 5pm, like ALL other papers. And taking it for granted, no effort to double check the schedule was made. Just the night before the exam, Ber was asking what time was the exam. And I said “5”. Then Otts dropped a msg and asked when it was, And I said “5”. Vaguely I think Hoon asked too. and I think I said “5”. And guess what? The paper was at 2.30pm.

I seriously have to thank God for this. Somehow, at 2.15pm I called my friend to ask him questions pertaining to the subject. And just before we ended the call, SOMEHOW I asked him where he was. It’s uncharacteristic of me to ask him where he was. But SOMEHOW I did. Guess what? “I’m outside the exam hall. DUH. Paper’s at 2.30 what.”

All alarms were blasting in me. A spike of adrenaline went through, my heart was racing, my mind suffered from some sort of impact, and that all-so-familiar cold chill went down the back. A quick glance at the watch. Yes. 2.15pm. It starts at 2.30. means they’re entering the hall soon. And I’m still in my room, relaxing, in shorts and t shirt.

All thanks to the army, a quick change of clothes was inculcated in us as though it’s the best hobby we would ever have. Within 2 mins of mad rush in the room, I was on the way running like a dog with rabbis, from Hall 3 to the Audit.

Managed to make it on time and sat down before the CI gave instructions to start.

Couldn’t believe how BLUR I was. And I’m darn lucky I made that phone call and asked the right question. It was amazing. And Otts, I didn’t ‘bluff’ you. Cause I REALLY forgot to timing. Thank you for your well-wishes any way. ;)

We had dinner at MOS on Friday night and took a train back. NO, I DO NOT have a thing for waitresses. Yes, the waitress at Hog’s Breathe and Maestro were… well, attractive. But NO, I do not have a thing for waitresses. =p

Met up with Ber on Sat after her last paper (YAAY!) and we walked around Vivo. Half the world was at Vivocity that day. It was so packed that it felt like a war zone, everywhere we went. It’s a great place. Nice view from the top. We checked out St James Powerhouse, had dinner at KPT, wondering why the old couple wanted to sit in the way they sat, bought some chocolates, had some bread and drinks at ToastBox, and floated around the huge place. I seriously wonder how on earth we managed to spend like, 4hours there, walking around. Amazing. It was fun. Nonetheless. RIGHT? =)

Came back home and shared the chocolates with everyone. Only opened up the ‘biscuit’ chocolate. Almonds’ still in the fridge. Chatted with dad about work, studies and GST. He has a point in what he said. I guess, there’s always more than one perspective in things as such.

Sneaked out with Eric at 1am, and brought him for supper. That kid was SOOOOOO excited that he was bright awake and jumping about when we were out. It was fun and I wonder if he told mum or dad about it. They hadn’t spoke to me yet, so I guess it’s gonna be one of our dirty little secrets again. HAHA.

Woke up early for ball on Sunday morning, but it rained not long after. Ended up having lunch and Kopi with Raymond and Hong. He’s celebrating his POP this coming Wednesday, and I’m intending to ask him along with us to TD’s café. Any objections guys? Can? The more the merrier ya? That’s if you guys don’t mind. Yeaps. Sat at the coffee shop for 2hours, talking about so many things that I can’t exactly remember what we talked about. Somewhere along the lines…. Well, never mind.

Came back home and continued my Prison-B***k. It’s the best drama I’ve seen in my entire life. Whoever the scriptwriter was, I think he thinks too much. But he/she’s damn good at it. All the twists and turns make the mind bend and goes all awry.

Met up with Ber again and we had supper at East Coast. Didn’t wanted to disturb our beloved Ms Ang because she’s having her much dreaded CHINESE paper this coming week. All the best girl! Your well & fully planned holidays await you! Took a longer route back and we talked on the way.

There’s something you said on the way back that I’ll remember for a very long time. It’s very heartening to know that you feel that way and I believe that this is also possible between you two.

I shall now go back to my last two episodes of PB now. The presentiment of this show lures me like an ant to a candy.

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Have fun at Perth! =) 14th right? Booked for you. Xoxo.

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I think you had fun at your little paradise of no worries. And we should go to the beach one day. You know you know? =) Haha!

And the shots look great too! You guys certainly look funny in the ‘cheek pointing’, kawaii photo. Meet up soon!

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To my dear cousins, if you’re reading this, hope you guys are doing good and feeling better. Will be here if you need anything. Didn’t know that you guys have your blogs too. We’re a blogging family huh? J

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Still feel something’s amiss. It just doesn’t feel right. No way of putting a finger at it. It’s bugging me like a fly buzzing round my ears.

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Psych or Spanish? Business Law or Bis Ad? Mat or Env? Yes or No? True or False? Should I? Or should I not? I need answers. Soon.

lub-dub.. lub-dub... lub-dub....

OG-Vikings @ butterfactory

(happen to see this on whosgoing.com)

Two more papers to go. Have been staring at the DNA and RNA strains for a very long time and it ain’t making much sense to be at this point of time. Maybe I’m semi-brain dead. Maybe I’m distracted by the many other things around here. Shall go back to the strains in a while.

Was sooooo restless and bored just now that I took my own pulse (for the fun of it. can you believe it?). It counted 53. After which, guess what? I googled “pulse-rate”. Yes I know I’ve nothing better to do. But it got me reading those sites for a while. Apart from the things of the heart that I already know from the old, ‘greener’ days, found some rather interesting information.

"... Many factors affect normal heart rate, including your age, activity level, and the time of day. The chart below shows the normal range of a resting heart rate (pulse rate after resting 10 minutes) in beats per minute, according to age. In general, the lower your resting heart rate, the more efficient your heart is and the healthier you are.

Resting heart rate
Age or fitness level
Beats per minute (bpm)

Babies to age 1:
100–160

Children ages 1 to 10:
60–140

Children age 10+ and adults:
60–100

Well-conditioned athletes:
40–60

Your pulse usually has a steady or regular rhythm. An occasional pause or extra beat is normal. Talk to your health professional if you notice frequent skipped or extra beats. Normally, your heart rate increases slightly when you inhale deeply and drops slightly as you exhale. You can check this normal change in your pulse rate by changing your breathing pattern while taking your pulse...."



“…The average resting heart rate for an adult is between 60 and 100 beats per minute, while well-conditioned athletes can achieve between 40 and 60 beats per minute. The maximum pulse rate is 220 minus your age, and the target for a healthy pulse rate during, or just after, exercise, is 60-80 per cent of this. Therefore, if you are aged 50, you should aim to build up fitness gradually until you reach a target pulse rate during exercise of between 102-136 bpm (beats per minute). If you are aged 55, your target should be between 99-132 bpm, age 60 = 96-128 bpm, age 65 = 93-124bpm, age 70 = 90-120 bpm, and age 75 = 87-116 bpm… “

“…Abnormal resting heart rate.

Resting heart rates above the levels indicated on the chart may be due to activity, fever, stress, an overactive thyroid gland (hyperthyroidism), anemia, stimulants (caffeine, amphetamines, decongestants, asthma medications, diet pills, and cigarettes), and various forms of heart disease. If your heart rate is consistently high, consider seeing your health professional for a complete physical examination.

Resting heart rates lower than the listed guidelines may be due to an underactive thyroid gland (hypothyroidism), heart medications, or various types of heart disease. Fitness programs that include aerobic exercise (such as running, swimming, cycling, and fast walking) will gradually lower your resting heart rate. Contact your health professional if your resting heart rate is often or significantly below these guidelines, especially if you have periods of lightheadedness or if you occasionally pass out.

A weak pulse may be a sign of a problem with the heart's ability to pump as much blood as the body needs (heart failure). It may also be a sign of shock or a circulation problem, such as a partially blocked or narrowed blood vessel. A weak or absent pulse in a leg may be a sign of significant blood vessel disease in the leg (peripheral arterial disease).

A healthy blood vessel feels soft when checking the pulse. A hard blood vessel suggests hardening of the arteries (atherosclerosis)…"

That’s it for now. Maybe you can try checking your pulse for the fun of it. It’s fun! Trust me. Get to know your body a LITTLE better. Maybe I’ll try checking my respiration rate later. Or BP. Or sugar level. Hmmm. Or maybe I’ll do a check on SCC? RBS? LOC? Oh dear. It’s all coming back. I think my catheter’s kinking. Crap. Need to release the tourniquet.

My guest is coming in a while. And I’ve got MACS for supper today. Sinful, but heck, I deserve it.

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You’re a cute, high-class penguin. No doubt. Happy feet needs you. =)

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I’m looking at you through this square box. It pinches. I’m asking him to vaporize the rest. But it’s not working. Dang I’m an idiot.

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Everyone’s going to Vivocity. Wonder how’s it like there. Can imagine the people and the noise. Probably worse than JP.

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I need a drink.

5am

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking,
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were all meant to shine, as children do.

It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

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Its 4.30am and still I am wide awake. Mugging has never been so intensive in my entire life. But all thanks to my dear guest, we’ve found time to chill out a little. Dinners, ‘cai fans’ and DVDs with a green bottle of Heine were the best we could manage, but I guess we made the best out of it. Great to have you here mugging together. =) It was fun.

A big “thank you” to all those who has constantly been encouraging me these 2/3 weeks. There are so many of you out there who’ve actually found time to send messages and MSNs and make phone calls… thank you so much. I feel most blessed.

Well, 1st of December is coming, and the biggest “monster” is coming up in about 36hours time. Can’t wait for that to be over really, and I can’t imagine there’s going to be another SEVEN times of this. All for the honors. Owells.

To the one I haven’t been talking to, and had been riding some “crimson waves” of late, Nalgenes on the way and I’m proposing beer and soccer one of these days… SOON. Good? Oh, 50bucks already into the HK fund. =)

To the one who’s migrating, I guess you’ve heard this a Zillion times, but still, I’m going to say it again: things always happen for the best, and maybe it’s not time for you to cross the borders yet. And guess what? I’m actually banking on you donning the no 3. haha. Wonder how you’ll look. Oops!

To the one with the tattoo, yeah, the tattoo is cool. I didn’t really believe you actually did it. But in anyways, you’ve got to live up to it. Time to shed the old you and be a new angel or a new person or whatever you want to be. I know no one actually understands how you feel, and you’ve been putting on a smile even when there’s a frown underneath it. Like you said, it takes time, and I hope that real smile will come back real soon. :)

To the one I’m supposed to go shopping with, thank you for your invite to your church’s magic show. It’s really nice of you to treat me to it. Thank you. And shopping day is coming soon. Vivo City ya? Haha. It’ll be good to exercise some self-control over your little ‘wants’. :) know? Xoxo.

To the one who’s forgotten how to speak, hope they brought something nice back for you. Hope you get your dream job soon. It takes time. It’s called “Structural Unemployment” in economical terms. It’s a good thing. *grins* Google it and you’ll see. And still considering my proposal? Hope you are. =)

To those who’re still having exams, the best of luck to all of you. As much as I know that this isn’t the most encouraging thing to say, but anyway, it’s gonna be over before you know it. All you have to do is mug, mug real hard, step into the hall, puke the crap out of you, hand in the script, smile and leave the hall. Smile again when you get home. Do again if you’ve got another paper. Start cursing only when you receive the result slips (an activity that I would most likely be engaged in). Meanwhile, enjoy the holidays that are coming.

To those holidaying, HAVE FUN. Really. I mean it. But don’t tire yourself out. Cause I’m joining you in a bit.

To those who celebrate Thanksgiving, hope you enjoyed your holiday. Christmas is coming, and it’s gonna be fun. I know it’ll be.

Alright, I’m knocking out. Still can’t believe that I’m still typing. Good night people. Good morning. Good afternoon. God bless.

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If you’re wondering what that passage right at the top about, it’s from a movie. Coach Carter. Recall it? I do. I knew someone told me to look for these verses after we caught the show. But I bet it’s not important anymore. But anyway, it’s here. Hope it serves as some kinda inspiration to you. God bless. Happy Thanksgiving. Keep warm. It’s cold out there. *hugs*

I am feeling guilt ridden!

Econs was bad. Maths was worse. Maybe it will turn out better than I think it will be. Somehow, I’m remaining hopeful. BUT, chances are rather… Owells.

I’ve been slacking since the end of the math paper. I thought I deserved this little break over the weekend. But obviously I know there is much to be done. But sometimes, it just gets so sickening waking up at 8 in the morning and mugging all the way till 3am the next morning, for every single day, and end up screwing up the papers. Haha. And so, mugging shall once again commence tomorrow! Tonight, I shall enjoy my little remaining ‘enjoyment’ time.

Well, technically I have been enjoying myself quite a bit this weekend. Maybe it’s the lack of touch to the ‘outside’ world (well, anywhere outside my room in hostel counts), everything ‘outside’ suddenly felt so ‘new’. And hanging out with my ‘dear’ certainly beats hanging out with MS CALCULUS a trillion times. Right dear? Haha. Better not let your boyfriend sees this. He’ll fly from London back to wallop me.

Dinner was great, dessert at Maestro Bistro was fantastic. Waffles and crepe. With ice creams, sour green apples, nuts, caramel, bananas and peaches. And of course, that waitress. OOPS. And I just realized I’ve got this thing for waitress. Still remember the one at Hog’s Breathe. SHEESH. I’m going mad.

Spent Saturday helping Jasmine with her Calculus (yeah that’s right. ME helping someone else with Calculus. What an irony.), got my eyes checked at the optician, chatted to PE for a while (so do you still miss him? Hehe), bought Rojak for mummy, played basketball, and wasted the night away watching soccer.

Sunday started off with more basketball, playing better than I expected myself to play, witnessed Joe getting ‘slammed’ on his butt twice, and the other guy getting a gash on his head, requiring easily at least 4 stitches. Went to Faizal’s for lunch. Met up with Jo, HUANG song and HAN song. (Pardon the CAPS please. Just in case of another mix up. HAH). Had lunch and caught Fast and Furious. Too bad Jo and HUANG had to leave early. If not they would have witnessed me spilling the glutinous rice over that beautiful white furry floor mat. Felt so bad dirtying it.

Walked down to the station with Hafiz and HAN. Did some catching up before making my way down to church.

Met up with Amanda (mum’s friend’s daughter. I’m obliged to help cause mum TOLD me to.) and helped her with her Econs. Tsk. Yes yes. ANOTHER irony. Heck.

And so here I am, 12midnight, trying to fix my desktop, blogging, chatting with XS and feeling absolutely guilty about not studying this entire weekend. Owells. Like I said, I THINK I should take a break. I THINK.

Full speed ahead tomorrow. I HOPE. Lazy bug’s crawling in me again.

NOT random today

No random postings today. Anyhow, I’m glad that my randomness has brought about a certain degree of entertainment who read the previous entry. My head is bloating from all the nice things you guys said. And of course not to forget, the indifferent response from a certain person made me wonder what does it take to make that individual conjure a non-neutral response? Tsk.

Time check says that it is half hour past midnight. Technically today is already Tuesday. And Econs will come tomorrow. Hope that I have got more time to prepare, at the same time praying that it will be over soon.

I just realized I have been reading James Patterson’s more than I’ve been reading my textbooks. Four blind mice, The Beach House, Black Friday, London Bridges, Big Bad Wolf, Honeymoon, Maximum Ride(The Angel Experiment), Mary Mary, Beach Road, Cross, Maximum Ride(School’s out Forever), Judge & Jury. That is twelve of his books, since the beginning of this year. Guess that makes me a fan of his! Haha.

Shall go back to Mr Calculus. He misses me. And I need him so badly. URGH. (Sounds so wrong.)

I’m predicting a mental melt-down coming next week, when the following week will land-mined with THREE papers. God help me. Tsk.

PS: I saw/found something in my room today that I was not supposed to see. I am not surprised, nor am I impressed. It just irks me. Somehow, it does not feel right. Like hello? MY ROOM?

This is the most RANDOM entry EVER

Know what my central nervous is saying right now? Read on only if you’re REALLY FREE and have got NOTHING TO DO. Cause I wasted twenty minutes typing this crap and it’s really an eye sore to read. This is what happens when you get insane after facing the notes and textbooks for long hours.

“In less than 10 days, all hell’s going to break loose here. Evil creatures and ghouls and monsters are going to terrorize our minds and sanity with ever-tormenting brain wreckers and soul sappers! Listen up fellow Brain Cells! As what is going to be read is of utmost importance, and it may be our very last chance of survival!

On Wednesday, E-con-monster will strike! Armed with his terrifying theories of Taxes, Government Policies, GDPs, Marginality and many more, we are expecting him to wipe out half of our BC population. But fret not my dear friends! Legends say that as long as we SUPPLY him the CAPITAL he DEMANDS, and that EQUILIBRIUM is achieved, we can greatly reduce the BC fatality!

Now don’t be too happy as yet! Because two days later, the ferocious voo-doo-you-mad-the-mad-ticks will suck our very lives away! Records show that this vicious creature wields the hellish weapons of ‘DIFFERENTIATION’ and ‘INTEGRATION’, stolen from the mythical monster Calculus. Not only so, this creature is also well-known for using war tactics such as ‘COMPLEX NUMBERS’ and ‘3-D VECTORS”! Voo-doo-you-mad-the-mad-ticks is one creature not to be messed around with. Estimated fatality could be up to more than 80% if we do not take the necessary precautions! It is proven that techniques such as ‘PRODUCT RULE’ and ‘QUOTIENT’ rule can shield us against the damages of ‘DIFFERENTIATION’; and ‘BY PART’, ‘SUBSTITUTION METHOD’ and ‘PARTIAL FRACTIONS’ is sufficient to protect us against ‘INTEGRATION’! So my dear friends, I urge you now to practice very hard the techniques to wield this creature away!

After which, we will rest ourselves for 5 days, and get ready for the toughest battle yet! The ultimate demon-Fiziks shall come through the gates of hell and spread terror amongst us! Well known for his population-sweeping rituals, his curses are forces to be reckoned with! He would usually start of with the ‘OPTICS’ curse, where the entire BC will be thrown into utter confusion; just the situation he likes. Then, he’ll curse our arsenal and live-stocks with ‘MAGNETIC FIELD’ and ‘ELECTRIC FIELD’, draining our morale! Lastly, he’ll cast his ultimate spell ‘QUANTUM PHYSICS’ to make us all go bonkers and start killing each other! Yes indeed, it seems disastrous and all so hopeless now. Especially when the magical book of ‘ten year series’ is long lost few months back; things are so going to get ugly. Just perhaps, maybe, probably, chanceful, if luck permits, the scroll of ‘FORMULA SHEET’ can help us. But the chances are small my dear mates. Do not pin too much hope on it.
If there are any of us remaining 3 days later, we’ll have to suffer the wrath of KAY-mystery. As if the previous three weren’t bad enough, KAY-mystery promises to bring the ORGANIC fiends of ALKANES, ALKENES, ALKYNES, ALKOHOLS and ACEEDS to tear us apart! Not to forget: MOLES, ELECTROCHEM, EQUILIBRIA, SOLUBILITY are the some INORGANIC ones he likes to summon. For those who are still alive, fighting this horrendous creature, remember hard that the ORGANIC fiends are vulnerable to COMBUSTION as it turns them to harmless and environmentally friendly COtwo and HtwoO! (well, too much COtwo is not good also la.) As for the INORGANIC ones, we have yet to come up with any feasible solutions. So, good luck!

Lastly, if lady luck is smiling down on you, on the 1st of December 2006, the very last monster ‘EFFECTIVE COMM’ shall cross the borders. For it is said by many other BCs of the other Brains that ‘EFFECTIVE COMM don’t need to study one lar!’, we shall heed their advice and not waste much effort preparing for it. During the battle, we can very well take out our spellbook ‘COMMUNIKATE’ and look for counterspells to defeat this very last creature!

And so, once ‘EFFECTIVE COMM’ returns to where he belongs, all peace shall be restored! And the very dwindling few of us shall start to reproduce and rebuild and regrow our population once again! Well, that is if we survive. HENCE! My fellow BCs! Start your preparations now! Be prepared to engage in the war and fight for our existence! May you all sum up your DNAs, RNAs, glucose, oxygen, and other electrolytes, and throw in your deathful best to put these demons to knife point! May your nerves be with you! Good luck!”

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If you’ve managed to complete reading everything, you are really DAMN free. Good luck for your exams if you’re having them. Have fun at work if you’re working. And DARN YOU whoever is slacking and doing NOTHING right now. But fret not, for my time to slack shall come. FIRST DECEMBER!

HOWDEE HOWARD!

Hoon's fav photo. =p (left's macho, right's not.)

Yo HOWARD! Bruddddddder brudder..
Pre-show photo

It’s 1am in the morning and a much dreaded chemistry final test is coming up in 7hours time. I don’t know if I’ve prepared enough for it, but that’s how I feel before all the tests. Hope this one goes fine. Will soon know I guess. Anyways, welcome back home Jo. Turkey sounded really fun. Hope you had a good time. =) So how was the tea?

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Gave Ethel and Chuimei tuition before meeting up with them. 3 hours straight at Beans. I wonder how they could just sit there and listen to me explain non stop for 3 hours with no break. Caramel blended still rocks, and ‘tiramisu in a cup’ is the next best thing to Chicago cheese cake at Beans now.

Was late for an hour due to the extended tuition time. Rushed down to J8 and met up with them, and the first thing Ber said when she saw me was: “Eh PE, see!”, as she pointed to my shirt. It was then I realized that ALL of us were wearing black tops and jeans. Well, all but PE. Haha. Apparently she got ‘desperate’ and got a black spag top from Gio before we left for dinner and production. How funny. =)

Well, HOWARD! You’re a BASTARD! Haha. Pardon me but I’m not cursing the Howards that we know, but rather the Howard that was on stage yesterday night. The production by Raffle’s Hall was fantastic, as was Alv, who acted as the much detested father of the family – Howard.

The show was great, like I said. It was entertaining, funny, engaging, and most importantly, our dear friend was on stage. Howard was a very VERY fierce character, he was yelling most of time. We all thought that he did a great job being Howard, and certainly was one of the better actors on stage.

Ricardo was a certain show stealer. Some of the girls were hot I’ll say. And not to forget, the guy who sat beside me cried when Howard’s wife left him, and the girl behind us who thought that ‘the father is cute!’.

It was great and I’m most certain that all of us had a great time. =)

We had supper at NYDC, Holland V after the show. Pity the 3 of them couldn’t join us. Right? PE? Haha. Next time ya? It was funny when we started talking about the Saturday desserts. They just couldn’t stop laughing. Oh, and also that silent karaoke. Haha. It’s corny I tell you. CORNY.

Got a ride back home from Hoon and well, I guess I turned into “tiramisu” on the way back. You know what I mean. =) anyway, thanks for the ride!

Slept at 3am in the morning. Was reading through the chem notes and marking Eric’s math paper. Thought that he was good at his mental calculations, and he was confident at it. But somehow, I felt that he was OVER-confident and that he tend to skip steps and not write down the workings in for his questions. Not a healthy practice because primary school papers tend to give points for both answers and workings.

And so, today’s over with a blink of the eye. Bible study, worship, tuition and mugging basically summed up the day. Been thinking quite a bit lately. Somehow, I can’t wait for the exams to be over. So many things I want to do. So many people I want to meet up again.

I guess that’ll have to wait. Let’s settle tomorrow’s test. Hope it goes fine. =) I wonder if Eric’s REALLY gonna cycle down here tomorrow morning. (Oh, not my brother this time. The OTHER Eric) He’s SOO crazy if he really does. Haha.

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I know it hurts, and I know no matter what I say won’t help much. It’s painful the way it is, and we know it’s gonna take a while. But I pray that you won’t let it affect you too much as you’ve got important things to do right now. Cast aside the sad thoughts, and if possible, immerse yourself into your work and hang in there.

It’s easier said than done - I know. But you’ve got to try. It’s hurting to see you crying your hearts out. But please, stop weeping and stop grieving. Stand up and walk and don’t look back. Leave the shattered pieces behind, and move along for now. Come back if you must, but after your work is done. Alright?

Will be here if you need anything. *hugs*

How you remind me

Selamat Hari Raya.

It’s a public holiday and I’m here in hall rotting away. Contemplated the idea of going back home. But guess what? I’m still here. Rotting away.

Did some chemistry in the morning and realized that the lecturer have yet to go through the second half the topic, so left the tut half done. Then switched to maths. Couldn’t do much of the question without keep referring back to the notes; and so I decided to read it later and attempt the questions again. Took out computing and started reading through Numeric Arrays. It’s a rather easy and useful concept. BUT THE TUTORIAL QUESTIONS ARE BLARDY TOUGH. And I’ve been doing that since 9pm. Oh sheesh it’s almost 1am. And my programme still can’t run properly. Or rather it can’t even RUN. There’s just one bug in the programme, and I just can’t seem to figure out the reason of its existence. I need help in this one. So I’ve decided to leave it till the tutorial. So now, I shall switch to Econs and listen to the online lecture. Sighs.

Exams are coming and the studying never seem to end. I have this feeling all the A’s and B’s that have been luckily strolling in will soon turn into C’s and D’s. At this rate, things are going to be ugly.

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We’ve got another tenant tonight. It’s interesting how people can share one small bed and not squash each other.

Heard from Mr Roomie that I had a REALLY rough night last night. Did some extreme movement and a-bit-loud kind of shouting. Must have scared the crap out of him. OOPS. Signs of insufficient sleep. I need sleep. PLENTY of it.

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Went up to MJ couple of hours back and rented “The Untouchables”. Nice 90’s kind of show. Must have been a big hit back then. Funny thing was, girl at MJ didn’t need my IC this time to rent the DVD. She actually know was I was. Tsk. Scary.

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Actually I wanted to put this at the top of the entry, but decided against it. It’s just a thought. Maybe some of you out there share this little thought too:

Day in day out, we’re being judged. Like it or not, we are. The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you carry yourself, the clothes that you wear, the phone you’re using, everything. I recall having an entry about people’s judgment months back. And I shall not rattle on any further.

I only wonder why you who you are. Why do you do things you do? Why talk like you always do? Sometimes, I gets on my nerves. It’s not because I don’t understand you. Actually I very much do. But I would like to look at it as a personality clash. For all the similarities that stunned me, the differences poke me like prick in my finger.

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It’s just a random thought. RANDOM.

Fix you - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
If you never try, then you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears streak, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears steam down your face
And i… ….

Tears steak, down your face
I promise you that I’ll learn from my mistakes
Tears steak down your face
And i… …

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

HARD-gay HOOOOOOO!

Oh sheesh. Over slept and missed the morning lectures this morning. Only managed to wake up at 11. Tsk. Have to watch the webcast. Owells.

Well, if you don't know, this little man is called Hard Gay, and this little toy is sitting on my table right now. =) thank you! It's really sweet of you to get. Hope it didn't make you go bankrupt. =)

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Taking the next ten minutes to do a little update before I leave hall for tuition with CM. As far as I can remember, we had a hike with the youth people at church last Saturday. Started from the Singapore Island Country Club, we trekked into the forest, walked the HSBC tree top walk, and then all the way out to the Rifle Range Road. So much changes have been done to the entire trail. It’s so much easier to walk now, as compared to a few years back when there weren’t paths and steps but just more and more mud trails and dirt roads.

Hiked up Bukit Timah and down to Beauty World. Completed the journey before the set target time. Had dinner and Macs before everyone went on home. It was fun, and thank God that the weather was good and PSI wasn’t that bad. =) waiting for cousin to us the photos we took throughout the trail. Busy man he is.

Sunday was mugging day as usual, mugged for econs and more econs. Well, the test didn’t eventually turn very well, but hope for the best I guess. Anyways, school on Monday and Tuesday was as usual, apart from the late meetings that we had. Some posters we had to change and cards we have to send. So much for the welfare committee. Haha. Interesting things we do.

Oh, Tuesday was sheng’s birthday. Haha. Happy birthday to you girl! Though I didn’t really get to SAY happy birthday, but you get it. Right? =)

Had dinner on Wednesday at Marina and we had Sakae. Caught up a bit and moved on for coffee at Beans. I’m rather surprised that there’re a people out there who reads, and I’ve got no idea that they actually do. And these are people that I actually know. How nice. =) And I’ve yet to find out how you found out about this. (Chancing and “stumbling” upon it is quite, well, difficult. Try googling it. You can’t see it ANYWHERE.) Anyways, hope you enjoyed dinner. (I’m not quite sure if I slept ‘smiling’, but just maybe I did)

Walked back to Raffles City and we went our ways. Caught the train back and horror of horrors, the train service ceased when we got to Jurong East interchange. Someone jumped onto the tracks at Chinese Garden and ALL passengers had to alight at Jurong East. The bus station and taxi stands started to swarm with people and it took me almost an hour to get from JE to BL. It was bad. But I managed to catch the highlights afterall. =)

Lab on Thursday was quick and easy. Managed to finish it and got back to hall to slack a bit before computing lectures. Chailin dropped by and we had lunch at the lounge. This “yan can cook” guy was on tv and we were laughing our heads off whilst watching. Funny character and sometimes I wonder how do you actually make a living hosting culinary shows as such. I mean, WHO watches it? (well, apart from the both of us who were too lazy to change channels for that 15-20mins of lunch) It’s AMAZING as to how moronic things can get in the show. Oops!

Evening was good. Ott dropped by and we kinda “bitched” a little. Well, a lot. Supper was great and I guess, mayo with the dumplings still rock. (better than that vinegar ginger thingy). Hope yoga went well for you today and no worries about that b*tch. She’s just, well, you know. =) and you’re better than that. Like you said, “you’re everything I don’t wanna be”. (I’ve got no idea how you say it in Thai, but you get the drift =) ) Have fun!

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Owells, got to go now. Tuition’s at 1530, Suntec. Need to pack up and get ready. All those reading this (that’s inclusive of YOU. You know who you are.), enjoy your weekend! Enjoy every moment of it. Because before you know it, it’s already MONDAY. Haha. Well, pardon me if I spoiled your party moods, but I’m kinda dreading each day. EXAMS ARE COMING! And things are picking up pace rather quickly. And I’ve yet to catch up on some stuff. Anyways, HAVE FUN!

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PS: Jo, I hope you’re having fun in Turkey. How’s tea? Haha. I’ll find your little thingy and pass it to Ott. Thanks for helping get my shades! Help me thank Oli too ya? =)

The Door, The Lock, and the Air-Con

Happy birthday dad! Well, not that he’ll read my blog, but still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hopes he likes the gift I got him. Not expensive, but certainly out-of-this-world for him. Haha. Got mum a handbag too. Hid it in her drawers and have yet to tell her about it. Surprise for her tomorrow. =) Got myself a new shirt too. Thinking of getting something for Eric, but couldn’t find what would be good for that little brat.

I’m so totally screwed for computing and NEARLY missed the full score for the math test. Couldn’t even get the programme to run for the computing test.. totally disappointed and morale hit rock bottom. Made a careless mistake to the first question of the test and only managed to rectify during the dying seconds towards the end of the test. Sighs.

To make things worse, Economics is coming up next week and there a truck load of things to read. And guess what? I’ve yet to start reading.

Well, worrying things aside. Met up with the 4 of them tonight. Mr Busy’s well… BUSY. As usual. Hope his performance turns out good for him. Gonna be one helluva show. =) All the best bro! Well, we didn’t really miss you though (apart from someone), so… YA. =)

Updated each other about stuff and had more talks over sundaes and cones at Macs. Thought that the conversations were hilarious, especially about the door and the lock. Haha. You guys get the drift. =)

Managed to get on the last train and took a cab from Jurong East back to hall.

It was fun. And I sure hope that you guys had fun too. PE was saying that we should meet up once a month or something. Well, that I agree. But it takes two hands to clap. In this case, 6 hands. We’ll try. Right peeps? =)

Got a msg from XH and asked me to join the SP subcomm. Agreed to it and meeting’s up next Monday. Looking forward to work with her. With her dynamic personality and straightforward approach to issues at hand, it should be interesting.

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To the person who sat beside me: Like I said, when someone’s willing to wait, I’m very positive that everything means very much to him. The patience he has and his willingness to sacrifice speaks volumes. Well, I was once like that and I guess I know how it feels like – to wait. It’s certainly not easy, but when his heart is firm and mind is set, I’m sure that YOU are SOMEONE to him. I hope this fairytale works out for you. And that it will have a fabulous ending. We shall see ya? =)

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To the superhero in my life: Thank you very much and I’m very glad we talked. I hope things are going fine on your side. Thank you for your encouragement and your constant faith in me. You’re a blessing to have as a friend, a hero, a ‘boyfriend’. =) God be with you too and always remember the footprints on the sand ya? (btw, how much are we supposed to have inside the metal tin?)

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To the rest: Good night and sleep tight! =) And to those whom I’ve got ‘chemistry’ or ‘physics and bio’ with, and the one who’s got a smartass tooth, love you guys. See ya soon!

The Door, The Lock, and the Air-Con

Happy birthday dad! Well, not that he’ll read my blog, but still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hopes he likes the gift I got him. Not expensive, but certainly out-of-this-world for him. Haha. Got mum a handbag too. Hid it in her drawers and have yet to tell her about it. Surprise for her tomorrow. =) Got myself a new shirt too. Thinking of getting something for Eric, but couldn’t find what would be good for that little brat.

I’m so totally screwed for computing and NEARLY missed the full score for the math test. Couldn’t even get the programme to run for the computing test.. totally disappointed and morale hit rock bottom. Made a careless mistake to the first question of the test and only managed to rectify during the dying seconds towards the end of the test. Sighs.

To make things worse, Economics is coming up next week and there a truck load of things to read. And guess what? I’ve yet to start reading.

Well, worrying things aside. Met up with the 4 of them tonight. Mr Busy’s well… BUSY. As usual. Hope his performance turns out good for him. Gonna be one helluva show. =) All the best bro! Well, we didn’t really miss you though (apart from someone), so… YA. =)

Updated each other about stuff and had more talks over sundaes and cones at Macs. Thought that the conversations were hilarious, especially about the door and the lock. Haha. You guys get the drift. =)

Managed to get on the last train and took a cab from Jurong East back to hall.

It was fun. And I sure hope that you guys had fun too. PE was saying that we should meet up once a month or something. Well, that I agree. But it takes two hands to clap. In this case, 6 hands. We’ll try. Right peeps? =)

Got a msg from XH and asked me to join the SP subcomm. Agreed to it and meeting’s up next Monday. Looking forward to work with her. With her dynamic personality and straightforward approach to issues at hand, it should be interesting.

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To the person who sat beside me: Like I said, when someone’s willing to wait, I’m very positive that everything means very much to him. The patience he has and his willingness to sacrifice speaks volumes. Well, I was once like that and I guess I know how it feels like – to wait. It’s certainly not easy, but when his heart is firm and mind is set, I’m sure that YOU are SOMEONE to him. I hope this fairytale works out for you. And that it will have a fabulous ending. We shall see ya? =)

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To the superhero in my life: Thank you very much and I’m very glad we talked. I hope things are going fine on your side. Thank you for your encouragement and your constant faith in me. You’re a blessing to have as a friend, a hero, a ‘boyfriend’. =) God be with you too and always remember the footprints on the sand ya? (btw, how much are we supposed to have inside the metal tin?)

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To the rest: Good night and sleep tight! =) And to those whom I’ve got ‘chemistry’ or ‘physics and bio’ with, and the one who’s got a smartass tooth, love you guys. See ya soon!

What have i done??

And so the weekend came and went. What have I accomplished? What am I doing? What’s next?


- Over slept and missed the District Camp meeting. (Wasn’t on purpose. Almost kicked myself for that. Realized that my leg not that flexible.)
- Lost my ez-link card and spent almost an hour searching for it. It’s STILL M.I.A.
- Had tuition with Desmond. Played ball with him when the PSI was like 140. Stopped after half an hour.
- Rushed down to Trinity College for a talk. Was late for the introduction. Managed to catch the last bit of speech by the archbishop. Was overally ( ß this ain’t English. But I figured that people would understand) funny and enriching. But got lost towards the last ten minutes of the talk. Couldn’t understand the Chinese terms that he used. Pity.
- Read a bit on Computing, but just couldn’t find the motivation to write the programmes.
- Caught a BORING nil-nil match between England and maca.
- Slept at 2.30am and woke at 9am.
- THANK GOD for clearing the haze this morning. Played ball with the guys and had fun. Lots of hilarious stuff happened. Coupled with some good last-point shots, courtesy of me. (Shameless, but hey! Who cares?)
- Went for tuition at Yan’s. Last minute, but managed to clear some doubts that he had. It’s scary how kids nowadays have to learn acid, bases and salt at SEC ONE! I never did it till sec 3. FREAKY.
- Got a call by SY. Wanted to ask me about some Physics tutorial. Was thinking: “When was the last time someone called and asked me about homework? And PHYSICS?”
- Rushed down to church. Was late by half an hour. And did the most horrible thing by falling asleep during sermon. Tsk. Pardon I please.
- Met up with the youth people and confirmed next week’s hike. ZY insisted that JP and I planned it. But I only helped with getting the resources and map. JP did the rest. Kudos to him; my part ain’t worth mentioning.
- Took the train back to school. Did some shopping at JP.
- Sat down and saw ASH online, and she bugged me about the same ol-stuff. Couldn’t entertain her.
- Did our online project.
- Checked my mail. Got the crap shocked out of me when I read the mail. I’ve yet to reply, but hey girl, no matter what, I’ve got you in my prayers. I can’t say more nor can I help, but in anyways, I’m here if you need anything. Will reply when I find time.
- ATTEMPTED to write the programme. Couldn’t get it to run correctly. Wondering what the HECK was wrong with it. Gave up soon after.
- Took a shower and sat down in front of the lappy.
- Saw Ber through her webcam. Saw Des too. He looked toot. I had a good laugh. I hope they did. =)
- Got a sms from CM and said that she and her friend want tuition. Well, that makes a total of 6 kids. I need to charge HIGHER RATES. Haha.
- Gonna post this up and read my Bible, and do some math. Probably read some Alex Cross.
- Should tell you guys more about my best friend, Alex Cross sometime soon. He’s my IDOL. (Not some idol who sings or dance or acts, but he’s a fictional character. And I’m in LOVE with him. EEK!)
- Good night people. God bless you! Try to breathe in less when the fog comes again. Or you can try staying in the aircon room, or use a mask. People I see around me are falling sick.
- PS: Jee! sorry about the webcam. Really don’t know where I threw it that time.
- PS: JO! Shades have? Just checking. THANKS!
- PS: Hoon! You’re really one persistent brat. Take my hat (and clothes and pants.. erm.. maybe not. Don’t wanna get walloped by you-know-who.) off you.
- PS: Jess! *hugs*
- PS: BER-LIM! a.k.a dynamo-white-teethed who goes CHILL-PILL-LA ah Lian. *hugs*
- PS: Cuz! You still want the prayer book?
- PS: HP! *pow(hugs,10)* ß computing lingo. Courtesy of Fluff.
- PS: The rest of the world! Good night, good morning, good afternoon! If you’ve been working the entire day, time to take a break. Listen to some good music, close your eyes and relax. If you’ve been slacking, turn off that TV and off the radio! Time to work! If you’ve been “in-the-middle”, you’re lying to yourself! YOU ARE SLACKING!

Delayed post

Wow.. It’s been a while since the coffee post hasn’t it? And so my dear coffee buddy asked me the following day if I actually didn’t like sitting on sofas. Well, fact is, I’m a typical bean goer, and sofas are the first outlooks for me. Haha… regardless of the stains and horrible things that the previous ‘sitter’ have done (unless it’s really totally disgusting), I guess it’s till prime choice.

Got back the test score yesterday and I’m quite pleasantly pleased with it. I hope this can keep up, but I foresee tremendous effort that’s required as things are starting to get really difficult.

Eric (not the fat one) and ChaiLin came up to the room after lunch yesterday. Caught some Russell Peters and had a good laugh. (Again. For the tenth time I think) Realised that they are my FIRST male visitors (not counting dad and Eric). Got kinda surprised. Haha.

Think I should go off now. Shower and sleep. Sighs. Sleep is scarce nowadays.

Oh, Jo! If you’re reading this, mind if you could help me check with Oli the shades? Thanks!

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Okay, that was supposed to be posted on Tuesday. Guess I just couldn’t find the time to post it up?

So, here I am, sitting in front my home TV a bottle of Forbidden Fruit Hoegaarden, (It’s good, but guess the normal one’s better for me.) and blogging.

Did some math and had some rice just a few moments back. Taking a break now, trying to catch some breather. Well, speaking of which, I guess it is getting kinda ‘irritating’ to breath these days. Wanted to jog during the weekend at the park and have been thinking about it for quite a while and even had ideas of bringing Eric down to the park to play with some lanterns. But the haze just seems to be getting worse day by day. All those smoke going around. Not too good for the lungs. PSI is rocketing and you can actually smell the burnt trees from Bishan.

It’s somehow turning into a biennial event. This ‘haze’ event. I don’t know what caused the fire this time round (I’m guessing the farmers are trying to clear some land again), but I really hope someone could really do something about it. The amount of damage this whole pollution is bringing ain’t small. The environmental problems, health risks, economical implications, security issues and many more.

We were initially safe, but the change of wind direction last week carried the smog over in entirety. And that kinda suck. Songyi remarked earlier in the day that he couldn’t even see the light from the OCS tower from his room yesterday evening. The air must have been really dense with all the dioxides and soot.
Well, all I hope is for this issue to be over soon. Pray that people with breathing problems out there be safe; especially those with asthma. Have your ventolins accessible.

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Couple of things to be done over the weekend. Better get it done. Not to forget Computing’s up next week. Maybe it’s the cause of my on-going headache. BAH.

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I’m having a headache. And yeah, like you said, I guess it’s the residual feelings. But there’s more to it. It ain’t just that.

Sofa....

I wonder why everyone (well, almost everyone) wants a sofa seat at the coffee-bars/house/place/shops/clubs/beans/bucks. What’s so enticing about the nice and soft and warm and comfortable and good-to-sit-and-chat sofa/couch they have here? Well, I guess it’s because these are nice and soft and warm and comfortable and good-to-sit-and-chat sofa/couches.

Thing is, everything that’s nice ain’t gonna stay nice forever. I’m not talking about some abstract ideology or sociology or psychology; I’m talking about sofas/couches at the coffee-bars/house/place/shops/clubs/beans/bucks.

Having sat here for almost an hour, trying very hard to tunnel the concepts of chemical equilibrium into the hard skull of mine, I’ve noticed the behaviors of the many patrons coming in and out of this place. Being the typical KS, no no… COMPETITIVE people of Singapore, we exercise the policy “get seats first; buy food later”; very much unlike our not so competitive friends, who usually “buy food first; look for seats later” and chance the risk of NOT getting a seat and thus end up walking around the place with a tray in their hands, looking… well, out-of-place.

Next, what I’ve observed is that once in the bar/house/place/shop/club/bean/buck, our eyes unavoidably lurk to the areas where the sofas/couches are – the areas where the nice and soft and warm and comfortable and good-to-sit-and-chat sofa/couches are. I don’t blame them because these seats are really nice and soft and warm and comfortable and good-to-sit-and-chat seats; as compared to the normal not-so-nice and hard and cold and not-that-comfortable stools which probably would give you a back and/or butt ache if you sit long enough. Interesting thing is that the lurking of the eye syndrome apparently strikes almost everyone: INCLUDING those who come in patrols or sections or squads or even companies (think army-lingo.) (I’m just short of seeing a battalion and division.) Well, with any little cow sense that they have, I bet they would have somehow noticed that the very FEW sofas/couches would probably NOT be able to fit ALL of ‘em. But I guess they just can’t help it. For whatever reason, TOO BAD GUYS.

Well, if they can’t find a nice and soft and warm and comfortable and good-to-sit-and-chat sofa/couch, they would usually settle for the normal seats. Now these seats ain’t that bad I say. Good stuff from some not-too-bad furniture stores (think b*rang-b*rang or IKE*). There’re the light but sturdy rattan ones (the ones with left over crumbs of pies, cakes and salads from the previous ‘sitter’, and the one before this, and the one before that, and the one… you get it ya?); the shiny even sturdier ones (which sometimes leave a frost bite on your backsides or thighs if your bottoms are thin or you’re not having anything underneath that bottom); the semi cushioned seats that are glued to the walls (and mostly with pen and liquid paper graffiti left by the hardworking students who were studying here before); and the colourful and clean looking plastic ones (which are obviously my favorite). They would get their drinks and food stuff and duly settle down and finish up what they have on their plates and in their cups (obviously some took a step further and left their mark in the rattan seats.) Things start to get really comfortable and the nice aromatic coffee gets things heated up. Cozy is the word. Things get cozy after a while.

BUT (I know I’m not supposed to start a sentence with ‘BUT’, BUT who cares anyway? I’m not taking English as my majors.) even as things gets cozy and our asses are warmed up to the seats, when someone from the sofas/couches signals the slightest intention to stand and leave, you can see how quickly we grab our coffee cups and cheesecake plates, getting ready to usurp the FINALLY available sofas/couches! It’s like an instinct of many of us; a little skirmish that had always been at the back of our heads from the very moment we settled for something less than the sofas/couches.

Now, I’m not saying that EVERYONE is like that. It just so happens that this is what I observed today. Maybe it’s cold here tonight; and everyone wants the nice warm seats. Who knows, people might be rushing to the cold aluminum stools when the heat gets high up one day.

Thing is, if you’re one of those suckers who are constantly eyeing the sofas/couches, maybe it’s time you take a closer look at the nice and soft and warm and comfortable and good-to-sit-and-chat sofas/couches you are sitting on.

Well, the one I’m on now has got even MORE crumbs in between the cushions of the sofa as compared to the rattans a couple of stains on the left and right, and sometimes you should wonder if there’re crumbs in here, and it’s all nice and warm, ain’t that a perfect breeding ground for, you know? Let your imagination run wild a little here peeps… … Good thoughts? And oh, ever saw that girl who took off her shoes and hung her leg over the arm rests or simply rested her feet on the arm rests (or did she even bother taking the shoes off?). Or some smart Alec sitting on the arm rests, talking to the one sitting on the sofa? Or maybe some other inconsiderate freak who wipes his/her ketchup/chilli sauce/thousand island/cheese/mayonnaise/coffee/tea/tears/perspiration/sweat/mucus (YES, liquid & solid) onto the arm rests. How convenient for ‘em eh? Yeah. And you jolly-well put your face on that same arm rest, figuring that it’s a really good spot to take a nap.

My point is all sofas aren’t like as what I’ve described above. Some are, and there ARE really nice and clean ones (cleaner and probably better than the ones we have at home). It’s still your arse sitting there, not mine. You take the pick. =)

And oh, I was sitting on the rattans before I shifted here. Go figure!

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Goodnight people. I have no idea where did all THAT come from. Just a moment of crappiness I guess. Coffee still rules and well, the sofas are still as comfortable as ever. Enjoy your weekend and if you’re feeling blue, find a sofa and have some nice coffee. It’s good for the soul. Really. Quote me.

Well, that’s if you can find a sofa.

Holiday my A**.

anyone remembers this? =)

It’s supposedly the term break, or “one week holiday” one would put it. But it ain’t seem a bit like a holiday. Even “study week” might not be a capable enough classification. There seem so much to be done, and time just scoots by really quickly.

Quantum P’s still half the nightmare when I first met it 3 weeks back; ‘electricity’s is now gnawing on my nerves. Chemistry and that 100plus lined computer programme that I’ve got to formulate aren’t that friendly too. And sheesh, we’re only at half a semester of a possible 8 semesters. Or maybe more IF I fail the modules.

Right. I’m whining. Shall stop. =)

It was another good weekend. A weekend out with the Song and Faiz, Jo and Ott. Had a bit too much to drink thought. All thanks to Jo and Ott who couldn’t finish their drink. =) Had a sum of a pint, my bottle, her bottle, and her bottle. Caught a couple of soccer matches, and witnessed Mr Kuyt’s first goal for Pool. Funny thing was Faiz kept missing ALL the goals that were scored that night. He was either drinking, eating, or talking, or just plain stoning when the goals were scored.

Bizarre moment happened when I asked for the waiter, who came over and put his hand on my right shoulder and told me he would be right back. My first thought was that he was a nice guy, but upon enlightenment from Ott, HE WAS GAY. Craps. Order placed the orders when he came back, and I didn’t even LOOK at him. Totally grossed out.

All the malt fluid made me felt like crap when I got back home. But it was good in a way - Slept like rag till the next morning.

Cycled down to the court to meet up with the ball people on sunny Sunday morning. Been quite a while since I’ve saw them. Qz, hao, Mic, Hui and fangfang. Qz had completed his OCS course and is thinking of ways to be downgraded; hao still wears his funny shades when he plays; mic and fangfang looks like the same old couple they are; and hui’s second child’s a BOY! Haha. Future athlete we were saying.

Knocked out again in the noon, and woke up late noon to write the darn programmes (not the hundred plus lines programme). An overdued programme that out tutor skipped during tutorials last week due to the lack of time.

Had dinner out at AMK with mum and dad and Eric. It’s been a while. And it was fun. Places of many memories. Especially the different people we have dinner with. Brings about many thoughts which was… Well, forget it. I wonder if they still remember the place. I guess not. Think they don’t even remember who we are no more. A part of us, no, a part of me lost. Just like that.

Came back to school and the mugging has begun. I’m feeling sleepy and I’m gonna call it a day. Goodnight people.

PS: 6ist, we meeting for supper? Yes? No?

I wanna sleep

Wow. What a roller-coaster the past few days have been. Emotions and funny feelings came and went.

Anyways, a happy (belated) 21st birthday day to cuzzie! Yes, we’ve finally met up. And thanks for your invite to your party. It was great. =) Hope you liked the present and the purple-floating-lights. Haha. Was just wondering why you wanted purple. Owells! Oh, the gold marker refused to come off. I had to SCRUB and SCRAP it off. Thanks ah! I bet ALL your other friends are cursing and swearing. *grins* Well, what’s the name of your friend again? =p (and did I mention that we really look spastic in that candid shot of us talking?)

That was on Friday night. Took the bus back, and well… not-so-happy things sorta happened. Decided to call it a day and went straight home. Sorted out some thoughts and tucked into bed. Hoping that the following day would be better.

Woke up only in the afternoon, and started mugging after having some peanut butter bread. Kept thinking of Alvin’s extremely HUGE peanut butter while making my sandwich. Re-did the 2 physics tutorials and re-read the lecture notes on Optics 2 times to prepare for Monday’s Physics test. Kinda stressing myself out at that point of time. Skipped the fellowship gathering and stayed home, till late night.

Met up with Raymond, Hong and Maurice. Had dinner and cakes at Cartel. 6 cakes for 4 guys. What a sight. Should have taken photos. Owells. Thought that carrot cake was not my type. Shall stick to Aunty Amy’s and they cheesy ones. Caught Prada and thought that the show was just alright. But the wardrobe on showcase was fwah. Outfits that people walking down Orchard wouldn’t wear; outfits that seem worth a semester of “cai fan” lunches for me, or maybe even more.

Drove them back home and had a moment to myself before knocking out on the bed. How quickly the weekend was passing by, I thought to myself. Woke and did some readings once again. Thought Eric how to draw bamboos using the Chinese paint brush. It was funny how he kept complaining why his bamboos look so ‘skeleton’ as compared to mine. But I thought he put in a pretty effort and the final product was alright. Hope his art teacher would give him the credit he deserves.

Evening came quickly and took the bus down to church. Was intensively reading “Mary, Mary” as the bus crawled to Yishun. It’s my 5th Patterson book this year, I think. Maybe 6th. Anticipating the next one- “Cross”.

Was on time for service and had quite a bit to think about throughout the service. Maybe it was the anticipation of Monday’s test; maybe it was the undone tutorials; maybe it was something else. Am just glad that He’s always there to hear me out. Thank you.

Came back to hall and tried doing the questions at the back of the physics textbook. Was happily doing, until when Ben sent a most devastating msn message: “Quantum is tested tomorrow. I asked the tutor through email.”

It was 12midnight when I received the message, and the test was less than 9hours away. The concepts of Quantum has not yet settled in my head then, and at the same time my head crying foul. Decided to give up on quantum and went to sleep, praying for the best.

The test came and well, don’t think I wanna get the paper back. Monday was sleepy because of all the late nights and I told myself that I ought to sleep. But horror of horrors, I slept at 4am. Was rushing to complete the formal lab report, and yes I completed it. It was due 2nd October but something just came over me and wanted me to complete it. Somehow, after all the CCA and PSA hike logs that I’ve been through, this lab report didn’t seem that tedious. Chatted with Hoon in between here and there, and I’m a godpa-soon-to-be. Evil girl snatched all the other babies away. TSK.

Went down to block C and witnessed Tian getting thrashed by eggs and flour and toothbrush at midnight. It was his birthday and Kai just couldn’t resist the chance to whack his roomie. What buddies! =) Came back and read Jee’s blog and well, I’m happy for you sista! Really. Stay happy and hope you’ll be happy for a very long time. =)

Here I am. Feeling sleepy again. There’s a meeting at 2245hours and I’ve yet to write my programmes for tomorrow’s computing lab. Was reading through it and they are very LONG programmes. Sighs. No sleep again tonight. People out there who have only got 3days of lessons per week, please refrain from complaining. People like us would gladly switch timetables with you. We would DIE to have timetables like yours. So, look at it this way: you’re not the worst of the lot. There ARE people out there who are even more tired and more retarded than you. Enjoy whatever you’re doing!

I shall stop here for now. Have a good week ahead people! One more week to term break! We can do it. =)

(I can’t stand people who chew with their blardy mouth open, or slurp their soup down on purpose. Some think it’s okay, some think it’s disgusting. I don’t know what bothers me, BUT I JUST CAN’T STAND IT. Argh!)

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Each time you part, you leave a bit of you behind. I’m realizing how big that part is. Bigger than I thought it would be. F*ck.

MIssed me? =p

It is rather… hmmm.. how should I say…..

Well, sometimes it’s painful to miss someone. It hurts so much that one might actually come to a limit break missing someone; and the most insane of things might be carried out to rectify this problem of ‘missing someone’. Like how a parent might do the craziest thing just to see his/her child once again. Very drama like; nonetheless a highly possible kind of ‘missing’.

Sometimes, it’s just what I call ‘intermittent missing’, where one things of another person now and then. You know, like the image of the other person just floats in and out of your head as and when you’re not thinking about anything. If you are experiencing this, I suspect that you’ve got a quite a high level of inclination or interest in the person that’s floating in and out of your mind. Lucky you!

Also, there’s the ‘friendly missing’ where one starts to miss his close ones, is rather eager to meet up with him/her soon enough. Happens most of the time between parent and child, between friends, and etc etc. Well, you get what I’m trying to say. “FRIENDLY missing”. Yeaps!

Lastly, the ‘denying missing’. Apparently, when someone misses some other people, irregardless of how deeply that person is missed, one doesn’t confess and purely declines and denies the truth and the fact. If you’re one such person, COME ON! Hold back NO MORE! It is time for you to be truthful and tell that person you MISS HIM/HER and that… … … It is HARMFUL for your body, soul and brain shall you linger in the state of denial and thus, NOW is a good time to do what you OUGHT to do. Right people?

Now, to whom you know who I am referring to. Yes you. Why did you say you don’t miss someone when you miss someone? It doesn’t serve JUSTICE when you tell a lie. It doesn’t hurt to speak the truth and I bet it brightens up a person’s day when you tell him that you miss him/her. Agree? Agreed!

Well people, if you do not understand the previous paragraph, it is absolutely alright. In any case, shall you have no ounce of understanding of this piece of post, simply ignore it. But if you do agree to some part of it, well… hmmm… I don’t know what to say. Maybe you’re equally insane or perhaps brain-dead like me.

Last but not least, I hope things are going great for everyone out there. Especially to those who are studying and having exams/tests/quizzes out there, may God bless you with the strength to carry on burning those post-0000hours fuel. I know we ALL want 48hours in a day, just to complete the tasks in front of us. Well, thing is, we ARE given only 24. So let’s just stick it up, and make use of what we have. I’m sure things will turn out fine… well, somehow it will… We know it will. =)