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Knee’s not of the best condition right now. Will pull through, nonetheless.

Pain is Devil’s way of telling me that I’m dying;
It is also God’s way of telling me that I’m alive.

I’m glad that I’m alive. =)

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Felt so tired in the afternoon that I plopped right into the bed after I turned on my lappy. I apologise for the super late reply. Ya… I should have set the status to ‘AWAY’. Anyways, glad that you found your tape! Fancy having it stuck on the ceiling huh? And that thing in the sewers? Sure you don’t want it back? =)

Have been mugging since this afternoon. This sudden urge to catch up with my material science. Already 2 setbacks this semester, trying and hoping that the 3rd one doesn’t come. Or maybe I’m asking too much from myself sometimes… not that smart to begin with… BCD from the As, a meager ‘entry to U’. Shucks. I’m entertaining negatives thoughts. ARGH.

One more test up tomorrow. Already read through everything once. Wonder how things will go.

Roomie’s out for steamboat with his course-mates. Said he’ll be back by 9 – it’s already 11. Not that I’m missing him, but wondering if he’s alright. Hopefully he’s not drunk. URGH.

Back to the notes and powerpoints. Ta.

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Jo, hope you enjoyed your rest and feeling already much better! =)

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Ms Scatterbrain.

Wow.

Monday afternoon.

I just left my laundry out to dry. And it seems that it’s about to rain really soon. Darn.

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The weekend is over just like that. Saturday was spent tuitioning and mugging. Well, minimum mugging actually. I’m glad that I’ve got a positive influence on her kid. It’s nice to have parents calling and hurling compliments at you. It’s flattering, yet at the same time the invisible pressure increases. Owells.

Went down to Bishan park to take a look at the Scouts pioneering projects. The place was over flowing with Scouts and Cubs. Pioneering projects from HI and Catholic High were the most impressive (as usual). It was a war between the two schools.

There were really nice bridges and towers too.

Come to think of it, pioneering would be the pride of the younger Scouts. As compared to their peers from NCC or BB, pioneering skills certainly make the young Scouts stand out. It’s a test of discipline, team work and endurance. The staying out under the sun for hours and hours to construct something out of poles and ropes bonds them more than nothing else. The rope burns and silly ‘tie poh han to the tree!’ ethics certainly are memories they’ll keep for a very long time.

Thinking back, the small, medium, and huge projects we all made… it’s been quite an adventure. Hour-glass towers, monkey bridges, flying-foxes, and simple tripods… how time has passed. It is time for the younger generation now.

Went for physio last Friday and my leg muscles have never ached SO much. The many repetitions and increasing weights. I’m quite surprised at the strength of my legs. Maybe cause I’m heavier. Haha. Owells. Did some balancing exercises and endurance training. Then had current impulses sent through the muscles to improve growth. Weird sensations but quite an experience.

Can’t wait to get well.

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Things haven’t really been going on really very smoothly huh? First’s the dumb math test. Then the leg. Got elbowed in the eye and I’ve got a bruise under my right eye. And now the Mat science test. Yes, it’s a B+. But it could have been so much better if I paid more attention to the details. Well, looking on the bright side, at least I’m conceptually correct.

No ber, I didn’t get hit cause I was disturbing another guy’s girl. Like I said, I was protecting a girl from another guy. =p

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YES!! I’ve got a new ‘smell’. Thanks PE! I smell damn nice la… haha… Anyways, the 5 of you, please check your email really soon. I’m organizing the next gathering. Haha. YES ME AGAIN. =p

And Ling, yes I know how to write your Chinese name. =) Well, just for the record, you’ve got the ‘most-difficult-to-write’ character. The most strokes, the most not proportional. But hope it turned out well.

And Hoon, you got to stick your card on your wall in China I tell you.

I think we should ask CH out one of these days to whack him upside down, for that trick he pulled on us. 29th Feb. How smart.

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Congratulations to the both of you. I’m not sure about Celest’s grade, but I’m sure proud of you. B3 for science… haha. That’s more than decent. Hope it’s what you’re expecting. Never mind the rest, you’ve done well. Congratulations! God bless you and may you pick the right path ahead of you. *hugs*

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They've decided to use AGAPE. =) I'm touched.

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YAAAY! It didn’t rain. Or rather, it’s not raining yet. DRY CLOTHES….! DRY FAST!!

I'm gonna get screwed.

Busy busy busy. We’re already into the fifth week of the semester and I still don’t really feel the sense of urgency I had last semester. GOSH I think I’m slacking. Tsk. But somehow, I’m always busy. And I wonder why.

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Saw the specialist. Good news and not so good news. Not so good news – I’ve got an left anterior cruciate ligament. Good news, I can still walk and run and swim; just no pivoting for the time being. Could have been worse. Well, thank God. Really. The hamstrings are actually constantly firing and compensating the instability of the knee. And after some weird strength tests, they are actually as strong as the quads. How freaky is that. I’VE GOT POWERFUL HAMSTRINGS MAN. (If not for those hams, I probably won’t be able to run, or maybe walk much.)

Well, that’s not exactly something to be proud of though.

Oh, my right (good) knee has got a tendency to shift for about 2mm, which is normal. My left one has a shift of 13mm. That’s a whole freaking 1.3 CENTI-meter! Well, that’s 10 to the power of negative 2 - CENTIMETERS!

Hope the MRI and OP comes soon. Wanna get it fixed and done.

Anyways, thank you people, for all your care and concern. They’re all heart felt. =) Your words of encouragement, moral support and prayers are deeply appreciated. Thank you!

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Wonder how it feels like to have screws in the leg. Haha. I’m screwed. Literally. Or rather, I’m gonna get some screwing. ;)

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Well, I lost my phone just yesterday. Some immoral person just took from my bag. It’s a freaking LOUSY phone with a totally scratched surface, and it’s been used for almost 3 years! Come on! Why not choose a better one? Urgh. There goes all my contacts and nice messages that I’ve been keeping all these years. Maybe it’s time to let go of them. But there’s just so much sentiments. Sighs.

Well, on the brighter side of things, I’ve got a new phone. A hundred and fifty bucks. Not that I had a choice. At least this time round, I can take proper photos with my phone. Yeah. Maybe you’re right Ott, it is God’s little gift for me.

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Met a few people I’ve not seen for a very long time. Siew Hui, Pei Shan, Cheryl (it was funny. Right PE?), Andrew, Raihan, Ignatius. Good to know that they still recognize me, and I do them.

Well, there’re people I’m trying to see. But the opportunity just doesn’t come. TSK. And hey, I’m not sly/scheming/deceitful. It’s being smart/opportunistic/and of course, it is pure brilliance. =p

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YES. We’ve finally went out TOGETHER. Every single one of us. SIX in all. Yes, six, not five. It was great. Really. Though it didn’t really started out right, people being late and tempers flaring and stuff, I’m really really glad that we enjoyed ourselves at the end of the day.

Initial destination was abandoned due to the crowd. Ended up Sakae. Well, that’s where we saw Cheryl. Haha. Sat our table the food started rolling in. PE was full in a while, Ling couldn’t finish her Chawamushi, Hoon made DISGUSTING looking wasabi + soy sauce (which PE describes as shit), Alvin had to eat the shit, and Ber was feeling hot all the time and made funny noises while eating.
Not all words ending with “ing” are action words. Hehe. There’re plenty of examples in this post. Should have spent some time to thinking about it, instead of me doing that dumb “struggling” in studies “action”.

It was great to just sit and chat. Well, we got to know someone was playing some sticky gun and got burnt, another had nice colours on her hair, and another suggested that soya sauce in chawas are good, but the one with nice colours couldn’t taste the difference.

Took the train back and wow, “how did these few hours flew past just like that?” I thought.

Did some funny things on our way back and damn, it was a failed mission. Haha.

Anyways, I hope you guys like the cards. Yes PE, yours is the nicest. Maybe because it’s symmetrical. But I’m VERY sure that Alvin has got the best photo. No doubt about that. Right bro? And yes, you can continue pondering why the heck you actually agreed to take a photo like that. With all the make up and stuff.

Dang you look sexy!

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I don’t understand why they do such things. Why can’t they just be more sensitive/sensible and understanding? They were once so close… now they seem so far. All the respect is gone. I’m so gonna be superficial when the time comes. An act. A performance.

Why?

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There’s no one who can love you the way I do. No human can love you more than I do. But you chose to leave, taking bits of me away.

the little things

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for you souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 NIV

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Maybe it is indeed what you call a quarter-life crisis. Just pray that it blows over soon. It feels crappy.

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I’m gonna see a specialist this Friday. Chances are they’re gonna operate on it, and replace the missing/damaged stuff with my calf muscle fibers, AND not to forget a couple of screws.

Maybe it’s time I got it done once and for all.

I’m really glad and thankful for a supportive family. Thank God.

Guess what? It’s the first time I’ve got quite a few under me. It’s flattering. It’s nice to know that they like me. But will I be able to pull through? And why can’t I do the same for my own brother? WHY?

And I’m taking so DARN long to finish up the Chronicles. So many names…

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I’m not sure if you enjoyed yourself. But I certainly thought that talking over ‘screwdrivers’ and Irish coffees was good. I’m glad to have you around, and thank you for being there. I’m sorry about your lost accessories and footwear. Maybe it’s time to get new shoes huh? :)

I apologise for the smoky environment at the Cable. Hope that work was fine for you today. Your boss still playing with little mei meis? =)
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2 person set meal, kopi-c peng GAO, and teh-c peng. Snapple bananas, nutrisoy. It was a good night out. Thank you for the post card. Thanks for the ride. I don’t know how else I can thank you.

Don’t throw the towel(s) in. In anyways I don’t think you can.

And……. I wanna apologise for what I had done. It sounds stupid and perhaps pointless…… but I’m sorry.

You’re a photon, and losing you is not an option.

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Thank you for the compliment. My being “patient” has certainly made me ‘bloated’. I await the rest of your comments. Bloat me. =p

And oh, you really have an issue with topless guys huh? Or just ugly, un-cute topless ones? =)

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I guess we’ve got to search for another kakee. Thank you so much for messaging me. I have to admit that I was rather surprised to receive your sms. All the best for your mugging! =)

Anyway, we were just wondering if you guys wanna hang out this coming Sat late night at Holland V. I’m thinking of asking faiz, Neo and HanS. Interested?

You can sms me again. Hee.

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If you think you wanna change, and if you think you’re changing for the better, then perhaps you just should. There’s nothing I can do, not that you want me to do anything, but I’m certain it will do you more good than bad.

Maybe I have no right to say anything in the first place.

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Looking forward to the weekends.

Photos

Taken at the Christmas party.

JP was supposed to just take the numbers. But he snapped everything.

Hence the spastic look. And yes I decided to upload it. =p

The better looking photo.

War-cry. Ben looks DARN fierce.

Nicely taken.

"mmmmm..."

"HhhUH?"

plans plans plans

Am supposed to be at the Funfest to help clean up, but guess they’re still fooling around. Shall go down in a while. Maybe you are right. I AM anti-social. Not making the effort to mingle around with them. I ain’t that ‘friendly’ I suppose. Gee, what’s wrong with me.

Had quite a few long talks this week. Talks with important people in my life. I am most certainly touched by you guys, and also at the same time I hope I have moved you in some ways. Life’s never smooth-sailing, but always remember to keep faith; for things one day will go your way. And you very well know it.

Tutorials are really turning into a chore this semester. Mathematics is really killing me, and we’re only into the first chapter. Physics is getting tougher by the moment, with so many concepts to grasp within this short period of time. Life science is a totally non student-friendly module if you’ve got not bio background, and I don’t. Things are already starting to pile up and I’m bracing for it.

Things haven’t really been turning out as planned since the beginning of the week. Getting cancelled and making major boo-boos. Nonetheless, I’m glad we still made it despite the failure of our little blue-tooth. It was great… really. Hor fun was good and so was white grapes and ‘teh peng’ (MS word refuses to let me type t-e-h.. keeps changing it to t-h-e).

Wonder what lies for me during the weekends. I hope my plans don’t get screwed up again. And yes, to the one who’s been counting down everyday, the weekends are almost here. Hang in there! =)

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6ists, please read your mail. Thanks.

Oh PE, I read your blog. This time, you get to see ALL of us if everyone makes it. And you can bug Alvin to make one more fondue next time. Miss you too! *saluting the creative director!*

Ling, thanks for the photos. Appreciate it.

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Jo, do you play mahjong? Neo, Mark and I are looking for khakees. Or HS? =) msg me!

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So where am I now? Where do I stand? Where do I go?

Is this a start of quarter-life crisis? Is it time to start worrying? Worry about things that I have never thought of before?

Why are these questions popping out now? What’s this I am feeling?

Maybe I talk too much. I should shut up.

Maybe I’m too nice.

Maybe I just can’t be bothered.

Maybe there’re no maybes.

Can I be at the receiving end of things too?

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XOXO. This means hugs and kisses. Something I’ll never forget.

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Everyone loves a fairytale. We love witnessing fairytales; and love it even more when fairy godmother decides to bring some fairytales of our own into our lives.

I have my near misses of ‘fairytalish’ happy-endings. So have you. I’m sorry that your fairytale didn’t come true. For all in the world that I have, I am really sorry. I know you’re piece of happy-ending will come, and God will be there for you. *hugs*

Echoes from around

P
S
B
Gr
Gt
J
T
O
X
C

I’m flattered, but I need a break.
I need the courage to do the things I don’t want to do.

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“Always fascinated me that you’ll bend into the things you dislike.”

Thank you. But if I had a choice, I would rather do the things I like. Sometimes circumstances bend a person beyond threshold. I’m just pushing my limits.

I guess we are lucky in our own way. God blessed we are.

Please, keep me updated. I really want to know what is going on, and help if I can.

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“Believe in me believing in you.”

One can never be more blessed than having someone like you. *hugs*

Jacket alteration and the ever-postponed shopping should be on the way.
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“We’re not people who let their friends go.”

No, I’ll never let you go. Lest if you want to.

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“I cannot make it. I’m not as disciplined as you.”

Tell yourself you can’t make it and you won’t. And my strength doesn’t come from me. It comes from above.

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“Take a step at a time, and see how it goes”

I’ve heard this before, and things don’t work that way. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. I’m all prepared, and ain’t really hoping.

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“But I thought I told you before?”

Yes you did. And it slipped my mind. I’m really sorry. I guess I’m upset cause it didn’t occur to me that it was now.

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“How fast time past … Stop emphasizing la…”

Indeed how fast time past. You only live once.

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“Natural selection is a process that alters the genetically determined characteristics within a population over time”

It’s a revolutionary theory nonetheless. But how much does it mean to me?

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I was supposed to post this last week.

Something to share with the ale drinkers out there. =)

From askmen.com:

Tidbit #1
In November of 1999, The New England Journal of Medicine stated that light to moderate beer drinkers would decrease their chances of suffering a stroke by 20%. They also stated that those who drink one beer a day compared to those who drink one beer a week experience no difference in reducing stroke risks.


Tidbit #2
The University of Texas Southwestern Medical Center at Dallas (May 1999) reported that consuming moderate amounts of beer would lower one's chances of coronary heart disease by 30-40%, compared to those who don't drink at all. (Beer contains a similar amount of 'polyphenols' -- antioxidants -- as red wine and 4-5 times as many polyphenols as white wine).

Tidbit #3
Alcohol has also been attributed to increasing the amount of good cholesterol (HDL) in the bloodstream, as well as helping to decrease blood clots.

Tidbit #4
Beer contains vitamin B6, which prevents the build-up of the amino acid homocysteine, that has been linked to heart disease. Those of us who have high levels of homocysteine are usually more prone to an early onset of heart and vascular disease.

Tidbit #5
A new study performed at the TNO Nutrition and Food Research Institute in Utrecht indicates that those who drink beer had no increase in their homocysteine level, but those who drank wine or liquor had an increase of up to 10%.

Tidbit #6
Beer provides a 30% increase in vitamin B6 into the blood plasma -- something that neither wine nor any other liquor can do.

Tidbit #7
Beer is both fat-free and cholesterol-free.

Tidbit #8
Beer has a relaxing effect on the body thereby reducing stress and helping you sleep better.

Tidbit #9
Beer has proven to have positive effects on elderly people. It helps promote blood vessel dilation, sleep and urination.

An average beer contains the following:
· 0 mg cholesterol
· 0 g fat
· 13 g carbohydrate
· 25 mg sodium
· protein, calcium, potassium, phosphorus, and vitamins B, B2, and B6
· alcohol

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But hey! Moderation is the key here. Our liver can only process one can of beer in about an hour’s time, so too much of it at one time ain’t good! And not to forget, excessive binging causes obesity due to high calorie content. Over drinking would most likely cause obesity and all the other diseases such as heart failure would follow suite.

So enjoy the benefits by drinking wisely! =)

PS: I’m NOT promoting the drinking of alcoholic drinks here. I’m trying to let you understand the benefits of MODERATE drinking for all the drinkers out there. CHEERS!

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We really have no idea what on earth you are doing. And yes, I do feel USEFUL and USED, now that someone had mentioned it to me. But I’m hoping that YOU are the one who sees this. Not someone else. Stop treating us like some abandoned pets, where you would only cuddle as and when you feel like. We need love too.

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There’re many things that I don’t agree with. And I can’t make any sense out of it.

Are some things really meant to be? I didn’t know it would be so hard to change. I guess, nothing much has changed, hasn’t it?

How long would it last?

Stretching my memory

It’s been so long since I last updated. So much had happened and my memory doesn’t stretch as far as I want it to be.

Memory search.

1.Food was great. Really. You should have your own café/restaurant. I’ll be happy to clean the toilets for you. Thanks for the mini-tumbler/bottle. I’m already using it. Hope Nalgene’s good for you too. Oh, Monopoly was hilarious. Especially with HS around. Sher’s interestingly funny too.

2.Busy with subject registration and time table planning. It’s really crap and makes me think that ‘bidding’ for modules ain’t that bad either.

3.Oh, we got our results too. 3.84. Am satisfied, but certainly could have done better. But I shall not complain. Bs for Econs, Maths, and Physics. B+s for EC, Computing. A- for Chemistry and Lab. Really thanking God for this. Amen. Guess all those horrible monsters have been beaten flat huh?

4.Had dinner at home. Finally. Good food, happy times. Hoegaarden with dad. What more can I ask for?

5.Walked round town with Ber/PE/Ling. Bought everything BUT the shoes she set to buy. How amazing. Got myself a pair of jeans from U2.

6.Overcame one the strongest temptations I’ve met. 500bucks and 2handphones for my taking. Just glad that it went back to the rightful owner. Praise Lord.

7.Lunch at food court. It’s a start. I know you’re uncomfortable. But like you said, we went through it.

8.Guest in hall. Appreciate it that you came all the way down. Nice photos! And I don’t look like a bear. Do I? =p

9.Basketball with hall seniors at Bedok. Played 2 round and rain poured. Guess they were impressed with my nifty passing and shots. Maybe I can make it to the hall team next time season. BAH. Maybe not. Shall stick to rug and polo.

10.Primary school visit. Got directed the St Nic’s, which was the wrong school. Got help from the staff there and got to the right place. Thank goodness the teachers I wanted to see were ALL there. Mrs Martha Wong, Mrs Serene Ho, Mrs Tay and Mr Ng. Had lunch with Mrs Wong and took a couple of photos. It felt amazing to see them again..

11.Tuition with Des. Helped keep the clothes. Hilarious I tell you. Alv and Hoon, you should hear about this. Tell you when we meet. =)

12.Dinner, new mahjong table inoculation and Tim Sum supper. Discovered that Ling ain’t as nocturnal as we are. Needs beauty sleep and shuts down unwittingly after midnight.

13.Tuition with Yan and invitation to their church. Shall find time soon.

14.Lunch at Pasta Mania. Glad that we talked. Guess we’re not that different after all. Saw someone I didn’t expect to see. Didn’t know how to react. Avoided any eye contact. (If you’re guessing Glen, it’s not.)

15.Finally found the MLTR album. Took me so long to find it. Ott, thanks for helping me ask around. Supposed to borrow from your bro if I’m not mistaken.

16.Seminar in church today about the history of the Gospels. Interesting and intriguing. Had dinner at 925 with the peeps and then arcade after that. PHOTO HUNT. =)

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School’s starting next week. Feeling sucky. Mugging’s gonna commence once again. New demons this time round. Fiends. Monsters. Whatever you call them. It just never ends.

Wondering how the migration is going for you two uniform wearing people. One green and one BLUE (sorry I mistook it as white). Hope it is good.

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We really hope you know what you are doing. I really don’t wish to see a “See, I told you so” scenario to happen.

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Pray for the best; prepare for the worst. God bless. *hugs*

I'm getting nervous

Yes! It feels good to type on my lappy. Finally.

It’s been a really muddy day today. Had to wash my shoes twice after rug training. Foot sinks into the field if one stood for too long on it. Did some catching up with Ben. He and his never ending admiration for Prison Break.

“You should be a civil engineer. Build the next prison and go PRISON BREAK!”

WTH. Thanks Ben. Haha. I’ll think about it.

Dinner was great last night. Too much carbo like Hoon said. Well, whose fault was it? K la. It’s MY fault. I think we have 7 wings uneaten. Not forgetting the buns and Hor Fun + Yee MEE. Both which Ber was supposed to finish.

Wine was good and I suppose everyone liked it though Hoon kinda complained it was a little too strong smelling. Doesn’t matter cause there were people on ‘her side’. Pun pun pun.

Someone was just too comfortable and had legs on the chair whilst eating.

And not forgetting the longest gift exchange I’ve ever had. LONGEST. I’m quite certain it had got nothing to do with the even or odd numbers, but just probability doing its trick here.

Bodyshop food scrub, contact solution, mug and chocs, Topshop card, tea leaves with tea maker. Cool huh.

Bridge was yet another fantastic experience with people giving away ‘innocent’ clues.

Ms Yeo. See what you’ve missed. We missed you so much that we turned you into paper and started talking to you. Anyways, better get something nice for us from Aus! We deserve it. =p

Staying in Singapore and not going for overseas for holidays have got its advantages. Apple tea from Jo, yummy almond chocs from Chuimei, keychain from Ber, truffles from Alv, and SOMETHING from Ling. That’s 5. Anyone else going overseas?? Do let me know. =)

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My faith has once again been shaken.
I have to be strong, but it is so hard.
Especially when the one digging at it is someone so close.
Someone so close and so dear that the holes left behind are so deep.

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Everywhere I turn, I bump into a wall.
This frustration goes on and it never ends.
I am not deserving: not deserving of this.
When would I learn? When would I wake up?

Time to let go. Time to move on.

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I’m sorry for doing the things I’ve done.
I’m sorry for not doing the things I should have.

I’m a pain.
I’m a procrastinator.
Life’s quite a bitch at times.

You deserve better and I don’t.
You shouldn’t have, and so shouldn’t I.

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To:

The one who’s down with stomach flu: Please rest well and get well soon. Plenty of water helps. Honey is a bonus. Try not to mess up the kitchen again. See you soon. If you get well that is. Oh, thank you for Friends!

The one who I call cus: Didn’t send any season greetings to you (and you didn’t too!). Have a great time hanging out with your pals. Take care! Oh, the book I got you is STILL with me.

The one cooking dinner this weekend: I am really sorry for last weekend. I’m really very sorry. I need some deciphering for your blog. Can you help? It’s an endless stream of Da Vinci codes. Or is it meant to be left that way? Anyway, bringing Hoe. They drink?

The one working at Cathay: Thanks for getting the tickets. SMU sure had helped me save two x50cents. Haven’t got anything from the dollar-shop yet. Poot poot!!

The two whom I used to call Sergeants: Am certainly happy and thrilled to see you two so… LOVING! May God bless you two with bliss and happiness and fulfilled dreams! See you this weekend.

The one I saw on the bus: I don’t think you’ll read this, but it really took me a lot of balls to do what I did. It’s a start, nonetheless. God bless you too.

The one whom I’ve went to the museum with: It was great! Though wet slippers and soaked shoes ain’t the best kind of footwear we wanted to have whilst walking round. But it was great. Really. Xoxo.

The one complaining to me today ‘bout work: Maybe he/she’s got his/her reasons. You worked out your schedule yet? Oh, help me wish her a happy birthday when you see her on Sat. Thanks! Happy working! Hope the rain hasn’t been drenching you these days. Oh, are there extra log cakes? Can I have some? =)

Those who are collecting their results TODAY: Good luck and all the best. I really cannot imagine what kinda grades I’m gonna get. Hope we’ll all make it. I don’t wanna see Yu Siufung or Peter Chong for the wrong reasons next sem. Fingers crossed!

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Pictures taken at St Andrew’s Cathedral’s fun raising event. Ripped off from the Foosball website.

Eve

Random pic off the road.

Random pic at Sportslink AMK. That's a freakin huge backpack.

Things have been certainly been kinda crazy these few days and I'm certain that it go on for the following week.

Somehow, my memory only brings me back to Thursday, where we had our little game of badminton at Bishan Sports Hall. Finally we get to play some sports together huh? I cannot recall the last time we played any games together. Seriously. How many eons ago was that?
Well, what can I say about it? Pe didn't wear proper shoes and got hit by ZX's shuttlecock (MAJOR oooPS!); Hoon didn't have rubber bands for her hair and parking coupons for her car; Des was hyper-active and really have some balls to call someone 'ghost'; Ber had really nice shoes on the showcase and she didn't let Des have the chicken skin; ZX's smashes were darn fast and we're still wondering about him and Mrs Goh; and most of us had bodily aches the following day. Felt a little mad and went for a jog in past-midnight to get some stuff and to clear up some thoughts.

Went back to school on Friday to collect my laptop. The mother-board was damanged due to the unexpected power surge and thank goodness the hard disk was still intact. Met Ben at Macs as we were getting our lunch, and felt bad for not going for training. Brought back to hall and caught the first episode of PB.

Fries were too much and coke weren't finished. And not to forget the random fly and dangling spider. It wasn't the best tour of NTU I would say. My apologies. But thanks for your company anyway. Appreciate it. =)

Walked around Bugis, looking for Christmas gifts. The Croc shirt was really nice. But... Didn't felt good spending on it. The human-traffic were at points unimaginably immense, especially at the traffic lights between Bugis Street and Bugis Junction. Evening ended off nicely with pleasant 'surprises' and off I go to Dhoby Ghaut.

Had to JALAN a bit before meeting up. And so dropped by Cathay to get Ber some tea. How nice right? Little did I know, had to run back to the station not long after as I kinda wrongly estimated the ETA. Had my Cold-cut trio while talking at Subs. Thanks for the 'artificial tears'. It was quite hilarious actually when you mentioned it. Haha... Then off we went for milk and 'look arounds' at shops. Show started at 8.50pm and even till now, hours after the show, I still cannot understand the need for the cleavages and gold/silver armors. Great acting from great actors and actresses, but for a show with 4.5star ratings from ST, I kinda expected more. Walked down Orchard to the bus stops before parting our ways. My apologies that I can't send you back as 'proposed'. Contacts were really killing me. Guess you could see. =)

Saturday started off with a little food shopping for the evening's party at my church. Mum helped get the fishballs and I got the sausages. Spent sometime preparing and cooking the food, and packed them nicely. Mummy was really kind to lend me her van and I drove down to church to prepare for the party. Helped out with the food stuff and deco before meeting up my 'guest' of the night. Was expecting Ott too, but guess she couldn't make it. Some miscommunication somewhere I guess. Food was great and the games were kinda nutty. Dance was damn bad but no one beat me at 'fastest fingers first' *smirk!*, all thanks to the many years of two thumbs smsing. My little niece looked really cute when she prays and for the last time, guy's my cousin, not UNCLE. And oh, sorry it took me a while to figure out the positions of the numbers. I didn't realise you weren't talking about the lines, but something else. Pardon my INNOCENCE. =)

Our tag numbers. What a coincidence huh. =)

Tea at S11 was funny, but crappy too. I don't think I've got a TYPE I or TYPE II or TYPE 1.5. You guys are really making things up. Oh, just in case we forget. Tuesday potluck at my place. 7pm ok? Ber with ham. Hoon fried rice, PE sausage, i'm getting drinks and curry (no milk). Hoon please tell Alvin to get something. Thanks. All please remember the gift exchange too.

Stayed up late, watching soccer. Man U vs Villa and Chelsea vs Wigan. Was smsing throughout and I guess, things are in the light now. Confusing, yet not so confusing. I think too much I guess.

And it's Sunday today, Christmas eve. Service was at 5 went down town after service. It was madness there and it dawned upon me that it was the best time and place for maximum collateral damage for any form of terrorist attacks. People were just walking shoulder to shoulders, toes to toes. And I really wondered what the heck I was doing there. Guess it paid off at the end, didn't it? =) Got home earlier than expected and I guess they weren't that mad at me. Sorry Ott, couldn't make it. My apologies.

My little gift from Orchard. How sweet.

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Merry Christmas to all! The presents, the food, the parties and the many other things are the many things we look forward to, during the Christmas season. Enjoy as we should, but never forget the true meaning of Christmas! Christmas is the day when Jesus was born and the day when hope was once again seen on earth. Let us remember why we celebrate the 25th of December, and let our hearts be filled with the love and joy of Jesus Christ!

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Like I said, I can't say that I know how you feel or I know how it is like, and that things would be fine. All I have to say, is that we would ALL be here for you. And we're ALL going to be here to stay for a VERY long time. Keep faith, have hope, and be strong. Will be praying for you.

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That feeling is back once again. Tingling tingling tingling. What is it that you want me to do? Teach me. Tell me. I'm confused.

Past week

It's raining again. Perfect weather for sleep. But I've decided to update some things around here. It's been a while. All thanks to my burnt Lenovo. PFfffffft.

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West Ham Utd beat Man Utd!!! HOORAY!! My most sincere apologies to Man U fans out there. Pardon my blatant celebrations but I've once again found hope for my 50buck end of tournament championship winner ticket, which is pinned on my softboard.

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It's been an amazing week. Thank God for all the things that have happened, and also the things that did not.

Been meeting up with people late in the nights and it has been fun, and well, not so fun. And also, all the mid-afternoon trainings are making me burnt like a lobster.

Had a couple of rugby trainings in the week for the upcoming HO. It certainly is fun to tackle someone, but not so fun getting tackled. I always have a problem of staying low when engaging in a tackle. Just slips my mind ALL the time. Had to be pulled aside by the Capt to be 'cautioned' twice. How embarassing. Rug's so different from basketball, and being a bball player since don't know when, running BACKWARDS really ain't my forte. Keep having tendancies to dash forward after passing the ball. What an idiot. Tsk.

Char Kway Teow in the mid-week with lots of vege is nice, but would have been better if we've got a not-so-full stomach and when you're not SOO tired. I guess all the work load is taking it's toll on you. Teh-peng was nice and I shall try Kopi-c-peng-gao next time I get there. =) Thanks for the invite to your church and NYE dinner. Like I said, not to worry. You're a great cook. Tested and proven by your beloved friends. Let me know if you need help. ( I still don't know what to bring apart from an empty stomach and great appetite. Suggestions? ) And oh, how did the uniform drawing go? (Past tense cause I suppose you'll only read this in the night ;) ) Don't forget your lefts and rights. =)

Caught 3 movies this week. Deja vu, Eragon and The Holiday. People, if you've only $9.50 this Christmas and can only afford ONE movie, watch The Holiday. Or maybe not. Say if you have $9.50 x 3 = $28.50 (is my math correct? i'm too lazy to check) and you can watch ALL 3 movies, I say just watch The Holiday and use the remaining $19 to buy me a Christmas present. I thank you beforehand. =)

Oh, did I mention that I have got a burnt Lenovo? Yea. Sorta. Laptop was plugged into the mains and guess what? LIGHTNING STRIKES and 'pop' goes the hard disk. Brought to the service centre for maintenance, and I knew that all is lost from the look of the service-man's face. How sad. How irritating. How disgusting. How troublesome. All because of one lightning strike.

Friday was the best. Or maybe second best. If what happened towards to end of the day didn't happen. But anyways Rug training in the morning was all about tacking and simple game plays. I think I need to borrow boots really soon if I want to stay alive in the games. Any kind souls out there with soccer boots to lend/rent/steal/throw away? Knocked out in my 20 degree celcius air-conditioned room all the way till 5. It had been quite a while since I last had sun-burns and the air-con never felt better. Thank goodness I'm in Hall 3. Was late for dinner and was so totally in a mad rush. Took the train down and changed buses. Was late for like... 30 minutes. Haha. My bad. Had white chocolate dreams and teas and a cup of Tiramisu. It was fun talking. And walking. And me sprawling for bathrooms. Yes I know that guy who was waiting for taxi near Chuan. And I think that he kinda heard you too. =)

Picked up the car just past midnight and drove them out for supper. It was fun, but also NOT so fun. I think I might need to consult some psychiatrist or psychologist to get my phobias sorted out. Ever since the accident, never really got over it. Just glad that nothing went wrong this time round. It was horrific. Really terrible. And I don't want to talk about it. For now, let's just stick to public transports.

Hitched a ride to Bkt Gombak from dad on Saturday morning. Had breakfast with him before parting our ways. Realised that dad's got really interesting habits and am rather surprised that I didn't discover them any time sooner. Somehow, I see myself unconciously behaving him like him. The way we fold our legs when we sit, the way we brush our hair, the way we rub our chins. It's like seeing an older version of me. Cool huh?

Took a nap in Hall before joining the team for the 2nd competition. Benedict couldn't make it but we had more than enough people to cover every positions with one sub. 7 a-side water-polo wasn't really as easy as one thinks ( or at least I thought it was. Ain't it just swimming and ball playing? I wish! ) Just the water tredding was enough to induce muscle cramping-sensations in my left foot after 5 minutes and not to mention the need for sudden bursts of speed to gain possesions of the buoyant ball. We were trailing by 4-2 at half time, but managed to level 2 minutes into the second half. We won 5-6 when the final whistle went and it was a job well done. Though it lasted only for 20minutes, it felt as though my legs had went through a half-marathon and the walk back to hall had never been more wobbly.

Knocked out in the bed, and again overslept for Saturday's performance. I must say that it was good entertainment, and the crowd was just overwhelming. The tricks that the pastor and his daughter put up was fantastic and the show was fun for all. Not to forget the little kid in front of us, jumping in joy each time a new trick was performed. It was a very fresh, and non-traditional way of bringing the message of God over. It worked for some, and also somehow at the back of my head, I knew why it didn't work for the others. Though they were just tricks and illusions, the societal defination of magic in current days are rather dim and... ya. To me at least. From what I see on the tele, it ain't the best of impressions. But anyways, thanks for the invite to the show! Had a fun night. =)

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After much thought, maybe I would like to rephrase what I said just now. Love is indeed simple. It can only be simple when people do not complicate it. We are the ones who like to complicate things. And for what it is worth, I believe love is not unconditional. We are not god.

Perhaps it's time to stop and think. Not about the past, but about/for the future. When hopes dangle on one small string, sometimes you need more than strength and perseverance.

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Why do we only want to see things we want to see, hear things we want to hear, feel things we want to feel and dream of dreams we want to dream? Reality may be harsh, but bottom-line is there ain't no escape. Either we embrace it with arms wide open, make the best of it and learn to live with it and enjoy every moment of our lives; or we escape and allow it eat us up from the inside, as we dwell in an endless pit of torment and depression for a very long time to come.

Good news: the choice is ours.

Bad news: we tend to choose the latter.

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Good night people. A new week awaits. Christmas is coming! And so are my results. *shivers down the spine*

10th december

It’s the 10th!! 10th of December! It means that Christmas is coming, New year is coming, results are coming, IPPT is coming, and the holidays are ending!! Tsk.

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Attended the 7th Christian Youth Leadership Camp (Chinese) on Tuesday. Was allocated into the ‘Hokkien’ group. We were all grouped into different dialect groups. Hokkien was one of them. There were Teochew, Hainan, etc etc. It was a fun camp. VERY intellectual. It wasn’t like any camps I’ve been to. There were seminars, lectures, group discussions and sharing. Absolutely mentally draining.

Theme of the camp was “Bilingualism and Bi-culture”. Aim was to make the campers realize the importance of the Chinese language and culture. I guess, the gist of it would be: if you have it, don’t lose it. It’s a gift, for many of us are able to speak both mandarin and English. So use it. don’t lose it. =)

Perhaps the camp has made me realize that I’m not exactly ready to pick up a third language. Half buckets (ban tong shui) ain’t exactly what I’m looking for.

Went for rugby training on Wednesday. Weather was kind, but the pitch wasn’t. It was all wet and muddy. We looked like Commandos in Nikes and Adidas’ and my Brooks was totally wet and mudded at the end of the session. Oh, undies too.

Couldn’t get the hang of the game cause I was so used to the basketball style, where you pass and run ahead. But in rug, you’re supposed to run BACKWARDS after you pass. Kept making silly mistakes but it was fun. On the whole. Looking forward to the next training.

Met up with Ber later in the afternoon. Supposed to drop by Starbucks for free coffee (they were giving away free coffee on that day from 5-7 as a charity drive for the Salvation Army) but half of Singapore was queuing up for it in Orchard. ALL the outlets were bustling with people lining for free coffee. Ended up getting ice cream and fish balls from Taka.

Took a walk down to Heeren’s and did the most atrocious thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. Not going to elaborate more here. Haha.

Saw Jee and her BF on our way back home. Haha… It was kinda amusing. =)

Played Frisbee on Friday afternoon. Supposed to meet up at 10. But someone slept till like, 11am. Or was it 11.30???? Heh. Had some fun, and I propose the 6 of us should engage in some Ultimate Frisbee this season. Get more people! It’ll be great.

Then we all had dinner at Chinatown. MALA steamboat. Wonderful craving from Hoon. J afterwhich, drinks at TD’s café. (Oh, he didn’t turn up for basketball today. Surprised? I’m not. Haha.) Brother-sister connection still doing very good there. And I think you saw what you thought you saw. You know? =) Haha.

Courtesy of Siewling! Ripped off her blog. As Hoon refuses to take a new photo, this old one would suffice. You look like a dits. OOPS! See how PE and Alv is giving you that dumb look? =)

Sat was a very sinful day, for all the junk we dumped into our stomachs. KFC for lunch, buffet for Scott’s bday in the evening, the dessert, the beer, the packed food, urgh. I’m feeling fat. VERY fat. Oh, and I really think you two are mirror images. Super-imposable.

And today, basketball at it’s best since months back. Somehow I just couldn’t get the ball to drop, but we all had tremendous fun. 8 of us. Too bad the rest couldn’t make it. If not, it would have been a party at the court. Team ‘youth’ won all the way against team ‘ah peks’. Haha. Cool huh. Oh, and we beat those not-so-friendly bengsters 3 times in a row. Cheers!

Wonder what’s up next week. Haven’t had time to settle down and think about it.

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6ist. Are we meeting on Friday for supper? I need confirmation please. Let me know ASAP. SMS/Tag/Email/phone/anything.

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All the best and have ‘fun’ at work!! Let me know how it goes? Though I seriously doubt you’ll ‘drop by’ to ‘say hi and goodnight’. It’s alright. I’ll msg. =)

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Anyone wants to go for blood donation?? Looking for kakees once again.

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Sometimes I just wish I had a reset button. Or maybe a delete button with recycling bin. Do you feel the same way too?

OVER and out

YES! WE’VE WON!!! WE SURVIVED! Billion of cells were sacrificed and the heart malfunctioned on Friday. It was such a close shave. Shall elaborate more about it in a while, but for now, HOLIDAYS!!! Woooohooooooooooo!

And so it’s finally over. All the late night muggings and horrendously unhealthy supper that I’ve been chowing down as midnight fuel… it’s OVER! Well, sad thing is there’s going to be 7 more times of this. 7 more semesters, 7 more exams, 7! But till then, I’m ceasing ties with Ms Calculus, Mr Einstein, Mr Markonikov, Mr Keynes, Mr Ampere and Mr Maxwell. They’re nice peeps. Really. Nice people. Without them, the world wouldn’t be the way it is now. But admiration is one thing, studying their works is another. I guess the exams weren’t really fantastic, and just am keeping the toes crossed, praying for the best. Couple of my classmates were rather upset about their performance. But we’ve have consensus now – heck it, don’t think about it, enjoy the moment. WHILE IT LASTS. And that’s exactly what I’m going to do.

Now, back to my close shave encounter. The last paper for the exams was Effective Communications. A core module which many felt unnecessary. It was scheduled on Friday. And all along I thought the paper was to start at 5pm, like ALL other papers. And taking it for granted, no effort to double check the schedule was made. Just the night before the exam, Ber was asking what time was the exam. And I said “5”. Then Otts dropped a msg and asked when it was, And I said “5”. Vaguely I think Hoon asked too. and I think I said “5”. And guess what? The paper was at 2.30pm.

I seriously have to thank God for this. Somehow, at 2.15pm I called my friend to ask him questions pertaining to the subject. And just before we ended the call, SOMEHOW I asked him where he was. It’s uncharacteristic of me to ask him where he was. But SOMEHOW I did. Guess what? “I’m outside the exam hall. DUH. Paper’s at 2.30 what.”

All alarms were blasting in me. A spike of adrenaline went through, my heart was racing, my mind suffered from some sort of impact, and that all-so-familiar cold chill went down the back. A quick glance at the watch. Yes. 2.15pm. It starts at 2.30. means they’re entering the hall soon. And I’m still in my room, relaxing, in shorts and t shirt.

All thanks to the army, a quick change of clothes was inculcated in us as though it’s the best hobby we would ever have. Within 2 mins of mad rush in the room, I was on the way running like a dog with rabbis, from Hall 3 to the Audit.

Managed to make it on time and sat down before the CI gave instructions to start.

Couldn’t believe how BLUR I was. And I’m darn lucky I made that phone call and asked the right question. It was amazing. And Otts, I didn’t ‘bluff’ you. Cause I REALLY forgot to timing. Thank you for your well-wishes any way. ;)

We had dinner at MOS on Friday night and took a train back. NO, I DO NOT have a thing for waitresses. Yes, the waitress at Hog’s Breathe and Maestro were… well, attractive. But NO, I do not have a thing for waitresses. =p

Met up with Ber on Sat after her last paper (YAAY!) and we walked around Vivo. Half the world was at Vivocity that day. It was so packed that it felt like a war zone, everywhere we went. It’s a great place. Nice view from the top. We checked out St James Powerhouse, had dinner at KPT, wondering why the old couple wanted to sit in the way they sat, bought some chocolates, had some bread and drinks at ToastBox, and floated around the huge place. I seriously wonder how on earth we managed to spend like, 4hours there, walking around. Amazing. It was fun. Nonetheless. RIGHT? =)

Came back home and shared the chocolates with everyone. Only opened up the ‘biscuit’ chocolate. Almonds’ still in the fridge. Chatted with dad about work, studies and GST. He has a point in what he said. I guess, there’s always more than one perspective in things as such.

Sneaked out with Eric at 1am, and brought him for supper. That kid was SOOOOOO excited that he was bright awake and jumping about when we were out. It was fun and I wonder if he told mum or dad about it. They hadn’t spoke to me yet, so I guess it’s gonna be one of our dirty little secrets again. HAHA.

Woke up early for ball on Sunday morning, but it rained not long after. Ended up having lunch and Kopi with Raymond and Hong. He’s celebrating his POP this coming Wednesday, and I’m intending to ask him along with us to TD’s café. Any objections guys? Can? The more the merrier ya? That’s if you guys don’t mind. Yeaps. Sat at the coffee shop for 2hours, talking about so many things that I can’t exactly remember what we talked about. Somewhere along the lines…. Well, never mind.

Came back home and continued my Prison-B***k. It’s the best drama I’ve seen in my entire life. Whoever the scriptwriter was, I think he thinks too much. But he/she’s damn good at it. All the twists and turns make the mind bend and goes all awry.

Met up with Ber again and we had supper at East Coast. Didn’t wanted to disturb our beloved Ms Ang because she’s having her much dreaded CHINESE paper this coming week. All the best girl! Your well & fully planned holidays await you! Took a longer route back and we talked on the way.

There’s something you said on the way back that I’ll remember for a very long time. It’s very heartening to know that you feel that way and I believe that this is also possible between you two.

I shall now go back to my last two episodes of PB now. The presentiment of this show lures me like an ant to a candy.

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Have fun at Perth! =) 14th right? Booked for you. Xoxo.

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I think you had fun at your little paradise of no worries. And we should go to the beach one day. You know you know? =) Haha!

And the shots look great too! You guys certainly look funny in the ‘cheek pointing’, kawaii photo. Meet up soon!

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To my dear cousins, if you’re reading this, hope you guys are doing good and feeling better. Will be here if you need anything. Didn’t know that you guys have your blogs too. We’re a blogging family huh? J

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Still feel something’s amiss. It just doesn’t feel right. No way of putting a finger at it. It’s bugging me like a fly buzzing round my ears.

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Psych or Spanish? Business Law or Bis Ad? Mat or Env? Yes or No? True or False? Should I? Or should I not? I need answers. Soon.

lub-dub.. lub-dub... lub-dub....

OG-Vikings @ butterfactory

(happen to see this on whosgoing.com)

Two more papers to go. Have been staring at the DNA and RNA strains for a very long time and it ain’t making much sense to be at this point of time. Maybe I’m semi-brain dead. Maybe I’m distracted by the many other things around here. Shall go back to the strains in a while.

Was sooooo restless and bored just now that I took my own pulse (for the fun of it. can you believe it?). It counted 53. After which, guess what? I googled “pulse-rate”. Yes I know I’ve nothing better to do. But it got me reading those sites for a while. Apart from the things of the heart that I already know from the old, ‘greener’ days, found some rather interesting information.

"... Many factors affect normal heart rate, including your age, activity level, and the time of day. The chart below shows the normal range of a resting heart rate (pulse rate after resting 10 minutes) in beats per minute, according to age. In general, the lower your resting heart rate, the more efficient your heart is and the healthier you are.

Resting heart rate
Age or fitness level
Beats per minute (bpm)

Babies to age 1:
100–160

Children ages 1 to 10:
60–140

Children age 10+ and adults:
60–100

Well-conditioned athletes:
40–60

Your pulse usually has a steady or regular rhythm. An occasional pause or extra beat is normal. Talk to your health professional if you notice frequent skipped or extra beats. Normally, your heart rate increases slightly when you inhale deeply and drops slightly as you exhale. You can check this normal change in your pulse rate by changing your breathing pattern while taking your pulse...."



“…The average resting heart rate for an adult is between 60 and 100 beats per minute, while well-conditioned athletes can achieve between 40 and 60 beats per minute. The maximum pulse rate is 220 minus your age, and the target for a healthy pulse rate during, or just after, exercise, is 60-80 per cent of this. Therefore, if you are aged 50, you should aim to build up fitness gradually until you reach a target pulse rate during exercise of between 102-136 bpm (beats per minute). If you are aged 55, your target should be between 99-132 bpm, age 60 = 96-128 bpm, age 65 = 93-124bpm, age 70 = 90-120 bpm, and age 75 = 87-116 bpm… “

“…Abnormal resting heart rate.

Resting heart rates above the levels indicated on the chart may be due to activity, fever, stress, an overactive thyroid gland (hyperthyroidism), anemia, stimulants (caffeine, amphetamines, decongestants, asthma medications, diet pills, and cigarettes), and various forms of heart disease. If your heart rate is consistently high, consider seeing your health professional for a complete physical examination.

Resting heart rates lower than the listed guidelines may be due to an underactive thyroid gland (hypothyroidism), heart medications, or various types of heart disease. Fitness programs that include aerobic exercise (such as running, swimming, cycling, and fast walking) will gradually lower your resting heart rate. Contact your health professional if your resting heart rate is often or significantly below these guidelines, especially if you have periods of lightheadedness or if you occasionally pass out.

A weak pulse may be a sign of a problem with the heart's ability to pump as much blood as the body needs (heart failure). It may also be a sign of shock or a circulation problem, such as a partially blocked or narrowed blood vessel. A weak or absent pulse in a leg may be a sign of significant blood vessel disease in the leg (peripheral arterial disease).

A healthy blood vessel feels soft when checking the pulse. A hard blood vessel suggests hardening of the arteries (atherosclerosis)…"

That’s it for now. Maybe you can try checking your pulse for the fun of it. It’s fun! Trust me. Get to know your body a LITTLE better. Maybe I’ll try checking my respiration rate later. Or BP. Or sugar level. Hmmm. Or maybe I’ll do a check on SCC? RBS? LOC? Oh dear. It’s all coming back. I think my catheter’s kinking. Crap. Need to release the tourniquet.

My guest is coming in a while. And I’ve got MACS for supper today. Sinful, but heck, I deserve it.

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You’re a cute, high-class penguin. No doubt. Happy feet needs you. =)

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I’m looking at you through this square box. It pinches. I’m asking him to vaporize the rest. But it’s not working. Dang I’m an idiot.

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Everyone’s going to Vivocity. Wonder how’s it like there. Can imagine the people and the noise. Probably worse than JP.

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I need a drink.

5am

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking,
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were all meant to shine, as children do.

It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

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Its 4.30am and still I am wide awake. Mugging has never been so intensive in my entire life. But all thanks to my dear guest, we’ve found time to chill out a little. Dinners, ‘cai fans’ and DVDs with a green bottle of Heine were the best we could manage, but I guess we made the best out of it. Great to have you here mugging together. =) It was fun.

A big “thank you” to all those who has constantly been encouraging me these 2/3 weeks. There are so many of you out there who’ve actually found time to send messages and MSNs and make phone calls… thank you so much. I feel most blessed.

Well, 1st of December is coming, and the biggest “monster” is coming up in about 36hours time. Can’t wait for that to be over really, and I can’t imagine there’s going to be another SEVEN times of this. All for the honors. Owells.

To the one I haven’t been talking to, and had been riding some “crimson waves” of late, Nalgenes on the way and I’m proposing beer and soccer one of these days… SOON. Good? Oh, 50bucks already into the HK fund. =)

To the one who’s migrating, I guess you’ve heard this a Zillion times, but still, I’m going to say it again: things always happen for the best, and maybe it’s not time for you to cross the borders yet. And guess what? I’m actually banking on you donning the no 3. haha. Wonder how you’ll look. Oops!

To the one with the tattoo, yeah, the tattoo is cool. I didn’t really believe you actually did it. But in anyways, you’ve got to live up to it. Time to shed the old you and be a new angel or a new person or whatever you want to be. I know no one actually understands how you feel, and you’ve been putting on a smile even when there’s a frown underneath it. Like you said, it takes time, and I hope that real smile will come back real soon. :)

To the one I’m supposed to go shopping with, thank you for your invite to your church’s magic show. It’s really nice of you to treat me to it. Thank you. And shopping day is coming soon. Vivo City ya? Haha. It’ll be good to exercise some self-control over your little ‘wants’. :) know? Xoxo.

To the one who’s forgotten how to speak, hope they brought something nice back for you. Hope you get your dream job soon. It takes time. It’s called “Structural Unemployment” in economical terms. It’s a good thing. *grins* Google it and you’ll see. And still considering my proposal? Hope you are. =)

To those who’re still having exams, the best of luck to all of you. As much as I know that this isn’t the most encouraging thing to say, but anyway, it’s gonna be over before you know it. All you have to do is mug, mug real hard, step into the hall, puke the crap out of you, hand in the script, smile and leave the hall. Smile again when you get home. Do again if you’ve got another paper. Start cursing only when you receive the result slips (an activity that I would most likely be engaged in). Meanwhile, enjoy the holidays that are coming.

To those holidaying, HAVE FUN. Really. I mean it. But don’t tire yourself out. Cause I’m joining you in a bit.

To those who celebrate Thanksgiving, hope you enjoyed your holiday. Christmas is coming, and it’s gonna be fun. I know it’ll be.

Alright, I’m knocking out. Still can’t believe that I’m still typing. Good night people. Good morning. Good afternoon. God bless.

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If you’re wondering what that passage right at the top about, it’s from a movie. Coach Carter. Recall it? I do. I knew someone told me to look for these verses after we caught the show. But I bet it’s not important anymore. But anyway, it’s here. Hope it serves as some kinda inspiration to you. God bless. Happy Thanksgiving. Keep warm. It’s cold out there. *hugs*

I am feeling guilt ridden!

Econs was bad. Maths was worse. Maybe it will turn out better than I think it will be. Somehow, I’m remaining hopeful. BUT, chances are rather… Owells.

I’ve been slacking since the end of the math paper. I thought I deserved this little break over the weekend. But obviously I know there is much to be done. But sometimes, it just gets so sickening waking up at 8 in the morning and mugging all the way till 3am the next morning, for every single day, and end up screwing up the papers. Haha. And so, mugging shall once again commence tomorrow! Tonight, I shall enjoy my little remaining ‘enjoyment’ time.

Well, technically I have been enjoying myself quite a bit this weekend. Maybe it’s the lack of touch to the ‘outside’ world (well, anywhere outside my room in hostel counts), everything ‘outside’ suddenly felt so ‘new’. And hanging out with my ‘dear’ certainly beats hanging out with MS CALCULUS a trillion times. Right dear? Haha. Better not let your boyfriend sees this. He’ll fly from London back to wallop me.

Dinner was great, dessert at Maestro Bistro was fantastic. Waffles and crepe. With ice creams, sour green apples, nuts, caramel, bananas and peaches. And of course, that waitress. OOPS. And I just realized I’ve got this thing for waitress. Still remember the one at Hog’s Breathe. SHEESH. I’m going mad.

Spent Saturday helping Jasmine with her Calculus (yeah that’s right. ME helping someone else with Calculus. What an irony.), got my eyes checked at the optician, chatted to PE for a while (so do you still miss him? Hehe), bought Rojak for mummy, played basketball, and wasted the night away watching soccer.

Sunday started off with more basketball, playing better than I expected myself to play, witnessed Joe getting ‘slammed’ on his butt twice, and the other guy getting a gash on his head, requiring easily at least 4 stitches. Went to Faizal’s for lunch. Met up with Jo, HUANG song and HAN song. (Pardon the CAPS please. Just in case of another mix up. HAH). Had lunch and caught Fast and Furious. Too bad Jo and HUANG had to leave early. If not they would have witnessed me spilling the glutinous rice over that beautiful white furry floor mat. Felt so bad dirtying it.

Walked down to the station with Hafiz and HAN. Did some catching up before making my way down to church.

Met up with Amanda (mum’s friend’s daughter. I’m obliged to help cause mum TOLD me to.) and helped her with her Econs. Tsk. Yes yes. ANOTHER irony. Heck.

And so here I am, 12midnight, trying to fix my desktop, blogging, chatting with XS and feeling absolutely guilty about not studying this entire weekend. Owells. Like I said, I THINK I should take a break. I THINK.

Full speed ahead tomorrow. I HOPE. Lazy bug’s crawling in me again.

NOT random today

No random postings today. Anyhow, I’m glad that my randomness has brought about a certain degree of entertainment who read the previous entry. My head is bloating from all the nice things you guys said. And of course not to forget, the indifferent response from a certain person made me wonder what does it take to make that individual conjure a non-neutral response? Tsk.

Time check says that it is half hour past midnight. Technically today is already Tuesday. And Econs will come tomorrow. Hope that I have got more time to prepare, at the same time praying that it will be over soon.

I just realized I have been reading James Patterson’s more than I’ve been reading my textbooks. Four blind mice, The Beach House, Black Friday, London Bridges, Big Bad Wolf, Honeymoon, Maximum Ride(The Angel Experiment), Mary Mary, Beach Road, Cross, Maximum Ride(School’s out Forever), Judge & Jury. That is twelve of his books, since the beginning of this year. Guess that makes me a fan of his! Haha.

Shall go back to Mr Calculus. He misses me. And I need him so badly. URGH. (Sounds so wrong.)

I’m predicting a mental melt-down coming next week, when the following week will land-mined with THREE papers. God help me. Tsk.

PS: I saw/found something in my room today that I was not supposed to see. I am not surprised, nor am I impressed. It just irks me. Somehow, it does not feel right. Like hello? MY ROOM?

This is the most RANDOM entry EVER

Know what my central nervous is saying right now? Read on only if you’re REALLY FREE and have got NOTHING TO DO. Cause I wasted twenty minutes typing this crap and it’s really an eye sore to read. This is what happens when you get insane after facing the notes and textbooks for long hours.

“In less than 10 days, all hell’s going to break loose here. Evil creatures and ghouls and monsters are going to terrorize our minds and sanity with ever-tormenting brain wreckers and soul sappers! Listen up fellow Brain Cells! As what is going to be read is of utmost importance, and it may be our very last chance of survival!

On Wednesday, E-con-monster will strike! Armed with his terrifying theories of Taxes, Government Policies, GDPs, Marginality and many more, we are expecting him to wipe out half of our BC population. But fret not my dear friends! Legends say that as long as we SUPPLY him the CAPITAL he DEMANDS, and that EQUILIBRIUM is achieved, we can greatly reduce the BC fatality!

Now don’t be too happy as yet! Because two days later, the ferocious voo-doo-you-mad-the-mad-ticks will suck our very lives away! Records show that this vicious creature wields the hellish weapons of ‘DIFFERENTIATION’ and ‘INTEGRATION’, stolen from the mythical monster Calculus. Not only so, this creature is also well-known for using war tactics such as ‘COMPLEX NUMBERS’ and ‘3-D VECTORS”! Voo-doo-you-mad-the-mad-ticks is one creature not to be messed around with. Estimated fatality could be up to more than 80% if we do not take the necessary precautions! It is proven that techniques such as ‘PRODUCT RULE’ and ‘QUOTIENT’ rule can shield us against the damages of ‘DIFFERENTIATION’; and ‘BY PART’, ‘SUBSTITUTION METHOD’ and ‘PARTIAL FRACTIONS’ is sufficient to protect us against ‘INTEGRATION’! So my dear friends, I urge you now to practice very hard the techniques to wield this creature away!

After which, we will rest ourselves for 5 days, and get ready for the toughest battle yet! The ultimate demon-Fiziks shall come through the gates of hell and spread terror amongst us! Well known for his population-sweeping rituals, his curses are forces to be reckoned with! He would usually start of with the ‘OPTICS’ curse, where the entire BC will be thrown into utter confusion; just the situation he likes. Then, he’ll curse our arsenal and live-stocks with ‘MAGNETIC FIELD’ and ‘ELECTRIC FIELD’, draining our morale! Lastly, he’ll cast his ultimate spell ‘QUANTUM PHYSICS’ to make us all go bonkers and start killing each other! Yes indeed, it seems disastrous and all so hopeless now. Especially when the magical book of ‘ten year series’ is long lost few months back; things are so going to get ugly. Just perhaps, maybe, probably, chanceful, if luck permits, the scroll of ‘FORMULA SHEET’ can help us. But the chances are small my dear mates. Do not pin too much hope on it.
If there are any of us remaining 3 days later, we’ll have to suffer the wrath of KAY-mystery. As if the previous three weren’t bad enough, KAY-mystery promises to bring the ORGANIC fiends of ALKANES, ALKENES, ALKYNES, ALKOHOLS and ACEEDS to tear us apart! Not to forget: MOLES, ELECTROCHEM, EQUILIBRIA, SOLUBILITY are the some INORGANIC ones he likes to summon. For those who are still alive, fighting this horrendous creature, remember hard that the ORGANIC fiends are vulnerable to COMBUSTION as it turns them to harmless and environmentally friendly COtwo and HtwoO! (well, too much COtwo is not good also la.) As for the INORGANIC ones, we have yet to come up with any feasible solutions. So, good luck!

Lastly, if lady luck is smiling down on you, on the 1st of December 2006, the very last monster ‘EFFECTIVE COMM’ shall cross the borders. For it is said by many other BCs of the other Brains that ‘EFFECTIVE COMM don’t need to study one lar!’, we shall heed their advice and not waste much effort preparing for it. During the battle, we can very well take out our spellbook ‘COMMUNIKATE’ and look for counterspells to defeat this very last creature!

And so, once ‘EFFECTIVE COMM’ returns to where he belongs, all peace shall be restored! And the very dwindling few of us shall start to reproduce and rebuild and regrow our population once again! Well, that is if we survive. HENCE! My fellow BCs! Start your preparations now! Be prepared to engage in the war and fight for our existence! May you all sum up your DNAs, RNAs, glucose, oxygen, and other electrolytes, and throw in your deathful best to put these demons to knife point! May your nerves be with you! Good luck!”

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If you’ve managed to complete reading everything, you are really DAMN free. Good luck for your exams if you’re having them. Have fun at work if you’re working. And DARN YOU whoever is slacking and doing NOTHING right now. But fret not, for my time to slack shall come. FIRST DECEMBER!